growing

[drea]

when time separates
when love grows cold
when i swim in this emulsion of confusion
as i grow
as i grow
i can still feel that cold plastic chair
i curled up
i cried
and it was all for you
its still all for you
sometimes i wonder if this jaded time
when my petals spread
when i can bloom
will cost me the eternity with you
is it already gone?
where do i stand
i just want to be inside
that cold confused mind...
i love you i love you not....
the one last petal i lack
costing me the love of my life
i can only grow so much..
such a petty creature you are.
i get so angry with you
but it come from within
its the kind of angry that can only come
salted drenched and running down my face
i cant just scream and walk away
i parch myself with my watery eyes
and i curl up
dried up...
i can still feel that cold plastic chair
alone, away
you need to understand..
i dont just use these words frivilously
i cant just love anyone
its only you
its only you
i hope to god
thats it will only ever be you
i am good enough
i am the only one who would reach like this
and you dont even notice
i branch out, strain
my leaves hang, dessicated
falling
and its only for you
this little gift, all i can possibly give
cast away
id grow if i could
id erupt into fire if you wanted
just dont let it turn to hate
...just dont let it turn to hate.
so i walk away
slanted steps
one eye over my shoulder
ready to run
back your heart, your love
the other focused
on the road before me...
trying to forget that sweet breath of yours
trying to grow without you.
i love you.
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::heaven holds a sense of wonder/and i wanted to believe/that id get caught up when the rage in me subsides::

 

[sarah*aka*s*k*]

That was beautiful. You would have to be one of my favorite writers in this site. For some reason I can always relate to your words.
Thank you

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"Always give a stranger a chance, because if you don't they will always remain a stranger."
S(x)K(tn)

 

[drea]

*blushes*....thank you, very much

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::heaven holds a sense of wonder/and i wanted to believe/that id get caught up when the rage in me subsides::

 

[Mellabopper]

drea - hun, wow. i swear you tooked into my soul and wrote down what you saw.... each line became more true and everything i wish i could say you already wrote. this describes my thoughts at the moment, and this piece honestly made me get teary-eyed. its a hard situation to be in...
thank you for writing this, its beautiful
Mellabopper
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