CitioKid
Bluelighter
Its been about three weeks since I've taken any opiates, and understandably I have no motivation to do anything. WD's suck, but that period when the WD'S slowly fade into PAWS I find almost equally as miserable as I can never tell if I'm still feeling sick or if my lethargy is "all in my head."
Anyhoo, I read a few promising reports about a rather unknown Indian herb called Gotu Kola and thought I'd give it a try. It's supposed to be a mild anxiolytic, anti-depressant and mood stabilizer. What interested me most was that one person mentioned it was used in Thailand for opium detoxification.
Not being one for placebos, I decided to buy a bottle at my nearest health food store with zero expectations. Each capsule claims to contain about 450mg of "certified" Gotu Kola. So I took six capsules and nothing happened.
That was two weeks ago. Yesterday, being the kind of guy I am, I decided to give it the old druggie try again. I took 12 capsules. Now here is where the awesome-ness begins. I actually felt it! And it felt good! Not in the "fuck I'm so happy oxy yum yum" type way, but exactly as I was told to expect.
I felt a moderate but very definite mood lift about 40mins after ingestion. No fatigue, no side effects, just an improved mood.
Unlike all my other PAWS saturated days, yesterday (and again today) I actually felt pretty okay. Not great, but at least time wasn't frozen in place all day like it has been.
It feels similar to lyrica, but without all the little extras that lyrica brings along (fucked up co-ordination, walking like you're that guy in the last scene in "Breathless", general feeling of intoxication).
Perhaps a miracle drug for the recovering addict? I don't know, but my sobriety suddenly seems 10x less daunting than it did three days ago, all thanks to my little Indian helper.
From what I've read, Gotu Kola's effects are reliable, long lasting and consistent, and the herb itself is a powerful anti-oxidant.
I imagine it may provide a huge help to people like myself who are suffering from PAWS.
Anyhoo, I read a few promising reports about a rather unknown Indian herb called Gotu Kola and thought I'd give it a try. It's supposed to be a mild anxiolytic, anti-depressant and mood stabilizer. What interested me most was that one person mentioned it was used in Thailand for opium detoxification.
Not being one for placebos, I decided to buy a bottle at my nearest health food store with zero expectations. Each capsule claims to contain about 450mg of "certified" Gotu Kola. So I took six capsules and nothing happened.
That was two weeks ago. Yesterday, being the kind of guy I am, I decided to give it the old druggie try again. I took 12 capsules. Now here is where the awesome-ness begins. I actually felt it! And it felt good! Not in the "fuck I'm so happy oxy yum yum" type way, but exactly as I was told to expect.
I felt a moderate but very definite mood lift about 40mins after ingestion. No fatigue, no side effects, just an improved mood.
Unlike all my other PAWS saturated days, yesterday (and again today) I actually felt pretty okay. Not great, but at least time wasn't frozen in place all day like it has been.
It feels similar to lyrica, but without all the little extras that lyrica brings along (fucked up co-ordination, walking like you're that guy in the last scene in "Breathless", general feeling of intoxication).
Perhaps a miracle drug for the recovering addict? I don't know, but my sobriety suddenly seems 10x less daunting than it did three days ago, all thanks to my little Indian helper.
From what I've read, Gotu Kola's effects are reliable, long lasting and consistent, and the herb itself is a powerful anti-oxidant.
I imagine it may provide a huge help to people like myself who are suffering from PAWS.