Alright so before I start this, I'd like to first state that I'm sorry if this is in the wrong section; if so, mods please move it to the correct section and let me know. Secondly, I'd like to state that I've been a member of BL for a while, just have never posted before.
Well, I will start off by saying it kind of sucks that my first post since I've been MIA has to be about Drug Court but I figured I could ask my fellow BLer's for some advice before I dwell into it to my support team. I will try and make this short and simple, if you have any questions, feel free to ask and I will try to answer them accordingly.
I will make an intro of myself at another time, right now I would like to get this out of the way because it's been lingering with me for quite some time. Recently, I got into some trouble with the law. I got arrested for using heroin and agreed to do Drug Court. Now as fcked up as it is, methadone and medical marijuana are NOT allowed in this program. Anyone that used heroin knows exactly what a person goes through when they've been off for a while. Before my arrest, I told myself that I was going to get help (and this time meant it); sure, I've said it before, but this time, I truly truly meant it (I've been fckin with opiates for a while before my arrest). Unfortunately, or rather fortunately, I am in this position with Drug Court. I have pondering this for quite sometime now, again, even before I got in trouble. I wanted to go to my doc and tell him straight up my deal. I never was able to do it because of the long history I have with him; I was scared shitless to tell him.
Now that I am in Drug Court, I have mandatory, random UA's. Here is what I have wanted to do to help my addiction. I have psychiatrist in mind that I would like to see to talk about my situation. I have reviewed his ratings and what looks to be like a very understanding doctor. Going into the first visit with him, I want to tell him exactly my situation and goals. I have learned that if I just be honest with people, it's a lot easier for me to communicate. Now, I do NOT want to come off direct like I am ASKING for stuff; but of course every doctor will think you are doing just that. Bottom line is, I have done countless amounts of research in which I believe is a reasonable justification to what I want to request, I repeat, REQUEST, not DEMAND.
Coming off opiates is no fckin joke, I think that MOST people on here clearly know this. The worst part of my using was how badly I drained my motivation. With this said, I wanted to take a different approach in my recovery; again, I've been researching this before I got in trouble because I wanted to get help. I strongly believe that selegiline (l-deprenyl) would be something that would benefit me in more ways than I could imagine. Now, I have never tried it but I know exactly what it is. I am a student majoring in pharmacy, currently in undergraduate. (ya I know...![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
like I said, I will take the time to do a formal intro later).
Here's the kicker, selegiline is an anti-parkinsonian drug, but has off-label uses. That's not exactly my issue, and no I don't have Parkinson's. The issue is that selegiline metabolizes to l-amphetamine and l-methamphetamine; keyword being the L isomers. Either way this will come up as a positive for amphetamine and methamphetamine on my UA's, I am like 99.9% sure, actually 100% sure because I don't think the test differentiates between which isomer it is. Now if I was allowed this, all my doctor would need to do is a fill out a form that says I am prescribed this, and that it CAN test positive for amphetamine and methamphetamine but the prescribed medication is NOT amphetamine or methamphetamine (depending on the levels at the time of the UA and how quickly it is excreted out of my system).
So if any of you guys have any knowledge and information on how this would/could work out, please let me know. I really do not want to be put on the typical antidepressants like SSRI's, they seriously are not what I need. I need something that will just keep my motivation, focus and drive in order and on track. I strongly feel like an MAOI-B would be the right choice for me and my goals. I'm going to leave off with this for now, but I will be back later on to add to this. I really would like your guys' thoughts and opinions on this, anything and everything would be useful for me before I take the step to try and pursue it. Thanks your time.
Well, I will start off by saying it kind of sucks that my first post since I've been MIA has to be about Drug Court but I figured I could ask my fellow BLer's for some advice before I dwell into it to my support team. I will try and make this short and simple, if you have any questions, feel free to ask and I will try to answer them accordingly.
I will make an intro of myself at another time, right now I would like to get this out of the way because it's been lingering with me for quite some time. Recently, I got into some trouble with the law. I got arrested for using heroin and agreed to do Drug Court. Now as fcked up as it is, methadone and medical marijuana are NOT allowed in this program. Anyone that used heroin knows exactly what a person goes through when they've been off for a while. Before my arrest, I told myself that I was going to get help (and this time meant it); sure, I've said it before, but this time, I truly truly meant it (I've been fckin with opiates for a while before my arrest). Unfortunately, or rather fortunately, I am in this position with Drug Court. I have pondering this for quite sometime now, again, even before I got in trouble. I wanted to go to my doc and tell him straight up my deal. I never was able to do it because of the long history I have with him; I was scared shitless to tell him.
Now that I am in Drug Court, I have mandatory, random UA's. Here is what I have wanted to do to help my addiction. I have psychiatrist in mind that I would like to see to talk about my situation. I have reviewed his ratings and what looks to be like a very understanding doctor. Going into the first visit with him, I want to tell him exactly my situation and goals. I have learned that if I just be honest with people, it's a lot easier for me to communicate. Now, I do NOT want to come off direct like I am ASKING for stuff; but of course every doctor will think you are doing just that. Bottom line is, I have done countless amounts of research in which I believe is a reasonable justification to what I want to request, I repeat, REQUEST, not DEMAND.
Coming off opiates is no fckin joke, I think that MOST people on here clearly know this. The worst part of my using was how badly I drained my motivation. With this said, I wanted to take a different approach in my recovery; again, I've been researching this before I got in trouble because I wanted to get help. I strongly believe that selegiline (l-deprenyl) would be something that would benefit me in more ways than I could imagine. Now, I have never tried it but I know exactly what it is. I am a student majoring in pharmacy, currently in undergraduate. (ya I know...
like I said, I will take the time to do a formal intro later).Here's the kicker, selegiline is an anti-parkinsonian drug, but has off-label uses. That's not exactly my issue, and no I don't have Parkinson's. The issue is that selegiline metabolizes to l-amphetamine and l-methamphetamine; keyword being the L isomers. Either way this will come up as a positive for amphetamine and methamphetamine on my UA's, I am like 99.9% sure, actually 100% sure because I don't think the test differentiates between which isomer it is. Now if I was allowed this, all my doctor would need to do is a fill out a form that says I am prescribed this, and that it CAN test positive for amphetamine and methamphetamine but the prescribed medication is NOT amphetamine or methamphetamine (depending on the levels at the time of the UA and how quickly it is excreted out of my system).
So if any of you guys have any knowledge and information on how this would/could work out, please let me know. I really do not want to be put on the typical antidepressants like SSRI's, they seriously are not what I need. I need something that will just keep my motivation, focus and drive in order and on track. I strongly feel like an MAOI-B would be the right choice for me and my goals. I'm going to leave off with this for now, but I will be back later on to add to this. I really would like your guys' thoughts and opinions on this, anything and everything would be useful for me before I take the step to try and pursue it. Thanks your time.
