good e, bad night

nUrOlLeR

Bluelighter
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well, 2nd time rolling, turn out to get some good pills, drop one, the crowd at simons not to large, very small, but chill, went with two close friends and the night was going well, sitting out listening to the music and becoming a part of it, in the meantime my friends (bluelighter) were getting kicked out for having an inhaler, what a shitty way to get kicked out...anyhow, luckily i was in a quite part of simons when my cell phone goes off, and low and behold its my friend calling me from home, being the 2nd time on e and not having any experience with the scene i was a little ok at first, i walked around, and some stupid undercover cop was eyeing me out (yes the stupid cop that is always wearing a baseball hat tight jeans a plaid shirt and busting up on everyone, mid 50's too) , i started flipping out at this point, i ended up leaving the club and waiting for a bus to catch a lift to my friends place, where i couldnt get back on my roll, just a milllion racing thoughts going nuts, i could barely control my thoughts, i finally pulled together and fell asleep while my friends kept rolling, next morning i woke up to go home, and boy was that shitty..... i wont be on e for a while a very long while
 
nuroller,
I think it's important that you have some sense of resposibility (ie went home). But it's also important to realize that no one can make you feel uncomfortable unless you let them. If I were you I would have asked that cop if he was having a nice day, smiled and walked away. Unless you are visibly intoxicated (you can control this too) or you do something stupid, nobodies going to get hurt. At the same time I am glad you learned from this lesson make sure you are rolling with people just as responsible as yourself. Peace
 
i think what fucked me up the most was the racing thoughts, i had no idea how to control them or think that i would be alright.... thanks though
 
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