*giggle*

[sana]

It's been too long, ive forgotten again im sorry for the delay ive been dragged away pulled down again closed up and scared again.. but don't worry theres nothing to see you havent missed a thing theres not much here please leave now please leave me alone theres nothing you can do or say because really I like to feel this way and im numb and it hurts, its dark and im scared. lost and stumbling and blind but I can see all too well. close my eyes push it down again forget what I saw (its was never there if I cut it away) I never ever really felt.. hold onto my life I cant let it leave me but I want it gone I want it out and this skin wont come alive again no matter how hard I try how sharp I try I think I may be dead once more like ive been all along beaten and sore and not quite sure what to do any more
breathe in fade out and leave me here please leave me here alone and bored, i dont think i want much more get the fuck out get out of my head get out of body and fly away leave me behind and shut the door dont make me have to show you the way out again i simply cant have you under my skin but id like you screaming through my veins once more please show me the way out i think its time to go i think its time i kill away whats left of you in me no matter what i may say i never want you to ever come back please please i never wanted you never come back please never come back i miss you so much.. please never ever leave me again
i ramble.

[This message has been edited by sana (edited 25 July 2000).]