Renz Envy
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Throughout the years I have experimented.
From marijuana to methamphetamine, I have tried almost every substance popularly sold on the street. Many of them I wish to do again. Many of them I regret. But only a few have changed my life.
Alcohol was a fun drug. I could feel great, energized and socialize with absolute levity. Deep down I knew that my time using the substance was time spent in vain. Despite my incredible ability to happily socialize, this came with a price. My sense of logic was flawed. The things I said and words I spoke were words of ignorance. My body was being poisoned. The drug simply laughed in my face the next day.
I knew that GHB was my only option. The date rape drug. Horror stories recall individuals waking up in strange places, or randomly carping out behind the wheel of a vehicle and waking up in the hospital.
I felt experimentation was meant to be done. The stories revealed the same exact element that alcoholic stories do: A LACK OF SELF CONTROL.
Fools drink until they black out, throw up or die. Even under the heaviest influence an individual can still make somewhat logical decisions.
GHB was no different, however with its small quantity there was no boundary on how much a person's stomach could hold. Any idiot could swallow 10 caps of GHB and wake up in a hospital. Taking 10 shots of vodka in a row would be an accomplishment. Thus, the dark passenger of drug culture is revealed: A lack of self-discipline.
With this revelation I felt ready to try gamma hydroxybutyrate.
The drug was magic. It carried a stronger sense of euphoria than alcohol, but I was not incredibly stupid, but beyond incredibly smart. My ability to socialize and produce diction was enhanced. My sense of time was normal and memory was untouched. Growth hormone levels were increased, no longer would my fitness be inhibited by weekly alcohol use. Weekly GHB use would actually help my body recover.
The world spun in a wonderful way. Liquid ecstasy. My friend and I call it "Gesus" or "Gesus Juice" because of how confident and calm one becomes upon taking it. I feel the need to relate the substance to NZT off of the movie "Limitless" as it also gave me an enhancement of concentration.
Upon ingestion of approximately 1.5g the effects kick in at the 30 minute mark almost on the dot.
30 Minutes: I cannot explain it, but a slight, almost unnoticeable amount of anxiety will take over. I relate this to an anticipation. A fear of overdose and waking up surrounded by one's friends, humiliated.
45 minutes: I began to become dizzy, like the effects of ecstasy, but more calm. Anxiety begins to disappear.
1 hour: The euphoria is heavily building up. Moving my head, the world races and settles into one place as if it's being dragged. My body feels like it is tingling with joy. I do not act or seem "druggish" like those on E, but a child-like excitement fills me. Cigars caused my body to quake in pleasure, the world would do a 360 with a puff. Almost like nitrous oxide, I could not stop laughing with the level of pleasure a simple cigar gave me.
Hour and 30 minutes: With a high dose one may become tired as the drug is at its peak this point. With a responsible dose, I feel sexually confident. I can feel the positive energy flowing off of the intoxicated people, but I also see the fallacies of logic in their speaking. Speaking with women is incredibly easy, as every drunk seems idiotic compared to me. I am able to make sober conversation with absolute confidence and a heightened state of logic.
I moved around in public with a child-like attitude. Everything seemed like fun, I felt as if I could go on an adventure of which the outcome would be an amazing experience. Socializing with people, I was talkative, but the drug allowed me to reach a level of assertiveness no other substance did.
2 hours: The euphoria has worn off, The world is still slightly spinning, I still feel less anxiety, however now I feel as if a redose of 1g will be necessary to continue the effects.
3-6 hours: The drug has completely worn off. A strong sense of anxiety will crash in and cause one to feel the need to redose. It is important to learn self-control and not become addicted. Focus your mind on other things and learn from the experience. Realize that this false-sense of confidence can be attainable sober. Perhaps that is what the drug is trying to teach me.
Gamma hydroxybutyrate is a powerful drug only for those strong of will-power. The ultimate sin, in my opinion, is carping out on accident. Know your limits and realize that this drug is not for getting as high as possible, but for enjoying your environment and taking advantage of the extreme social power it bestows on the user.
Final Note:
Always dose with caution. After drinking, please wait an hour before redosing if the effects are not yet prominent.
(Doses were a rough estimate of sodium oxybate doses. Street doses are measured by caps from water bottles. 1 cap - 2 cap - 3 cap. Normally a full cap will allow the user to feel a good level of effects.)
I wanted to use bluelight in order to find a substance that greatly improved one's quality of life. Having found it, I feel as if I have found closure at last.
From marijuana to methamphetamine, I have tried almost every substance popularly sold on the street. Many of them I wish to do again. Many of them I regret. But only a few have changed my life.
Alcohol was a fun drug. I could feel great, energized and socialize with absolute levity. Deep down I knew that my time using the substance was time spent in vain. Despite my incredible ability to happily socialize, this came with a price. My sense of logic was flawed. The things I said and words I spoke were words of ignorance. My body was being poisoned. The drug simply laughed in my face the next day.
I knew that GHB was my only option. The date rape drug. Horror stories recall individuals waking up in strange places, or randomly carping out behind the wheel of a vehicle and waking up in the hospital.
I felt experimentation was meant to be done. The stories revealed the same exact element that alcoholic stories do: A LACK OF SELF CONTROL.
Fools drink until they black out, throw up or die. Even under the heaviest influence an individual can still make somewhat logical decisions.
GHB was no different, however with its small quantity there was no boundary on how much a person's stomach could hold. Any idiot could swallow 10 caps of GHB and wake up in a hospital. Taking 10 shots of vodka in a row would be an accomplishment. Thus, the dark passenger of drug culture is revealed: A lack of self-discipline.
With this revelation I felt ready to try gamma hydroxybutyrate.
The drug was magic. It carried a stronger sense of euphoria than alcohol, but I was not incredibly stupid, but beyond incredibly smart. My ability to socialize and produce diction was enhanced. My sense of time was normal and memory was untouched. Growth hormone levels were increased, no longer would my fitness be inhibited by weekly alcohol use. Weekly GHB use would actually help my body recover.
The world spun in a wonderful way. Liquid ecstasy. My friend and I call it "Gesus" or "Gesus Juice" because of how confident and calm one becomes upon taking it. I feel the need to relate the substance to NZT off of the movie "Limitless" as it also gave me an enhancement of concentration.
Upon ingestion of approximately 1.5g the effects kick in at the 30 minute mark almost on the dot.
30 Minutes: I cannot explain it, but a slight, almost unnoticeable amount of anxiety will take over. I relate this to an anticipation. A fear of overdose and waking up surrounded by one's friends, humiliated.
45 minutes: I began to become dizzy, like the effects of ecstasy, but more calm. Anxiety begins to disappear.
1 hour: The euphoria is heavily building up. Moving my head, the world races and settles into one place as if it's being dragged. My body feels like it is tingling with joy. I do not act or seem "druggish" like those on E, but a child-like excitement fills me. Cigars caused my body to quake in pleasure, the world would do a 360 with a puff. Almost like nitrous oxide, I could not stop laughing with the level of pleasure a simple cigar gave me.
Hour and 30 minutes: With a high dose one may become tired as the drug is at its peak this point. With a responsible dose, I feel sexually confident. I can feel the positive energy flowing off of the intoxicated people, but I also see the fallacies of logic in their speaking. Speaking with women is incredibly easy, as every drunk seems idiotic compared to me. I am able to make sober conversation with absolute confidence and a heightened state of logic.
I moved around in public with a child-like attitude. Everything seemed like fun, I felt as if I could go on an adventure of which the outcome would be an amazing experience. Socializing with people, I was talkative, but the drug allowed me to reach a level of assertiveness no other substance did.
2 hours: The euphoria has worn off, The world is still slightly spinning, I still feel less anxiety, however now I feel as if a redose of 1g will be necessary to continue the effects.
3-6 hours: The drug has completely worn off. A strong sense of anxiety will crash in and cause one to feel the need to redose. It is important to learn self-control and not become addicted. Focus your mind on other things and learn from the experience. Realize that this false-sense of confidence can be attainable sober. Perhaps that is what the drug is trying to teach me.
Gamma hydroxybutyrate is a powerful drug only for those strong of will-power. The ultimate sin, in my opinion, is carping out on accident. Know your limits and realize that this drug is not for getting as high as possible, but for enjoying your environment and taking advantage of the extreme social power it bestows on the user.
Final Note:
Always dose with caution. After drinking, please wait an hour before redosing if the effects are not yet prominent.
(Doses were a rough estimate of sodium oxybate doses. Street doses are measured by caps from water bottles. 1 cap - 2 cap - 3 cap. Normally a full cap will allow the user to feel a good level of effects.)
I wanted to use bluelight in order to find a substance that greatly improved one's quality of life. Having found it, I feel as if I have found closure at last.
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