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Bluelight Crew
I've got a new band, and last night I wrote a song and threw some lyrics together.
Working title is Geeked Like Elton
I'm not broken, but I'm bent, confusing love and pain
A condom used & spent, flush me down the drain
Faded snapshot memories, who is that boy?
Deluded by his reveries, so eager to destroy
Used to feel divine, when high enough to kiss the sun
Now it's like meditating while I'm chewing on a gun
There's bottles on my floor, speed on every plate
I'm spun baby at war, one week wide awake
Sobriety's a drag, I'm on a new drug every day
I'm burning out too fast, my reflection fades away
Scoring speed and junk, pills to numb my heart
Man, I'm doing fine, blackedout on Xanax-bars
Accidental K-holes, my vision's just a blur
I'm trying to act sober but my speech is a slur
Speeding through life, I'm going nowhere fast
Compulsively re-dosing, this shit will never last
This shit will never last,
oh, please make this hit last
I was born a fuck up but I can easily persuade
Master manipulator, no conscience nor constraints
I was told I am hellbound, a monster and a freak
Baby bring the coke, got a gagball, whip & leash
I might think I'm enchanted, if you look at me twice
It's just another drug, love's just another vice
Decadent debauchery, a nihilistic creed
Clench your fist and punch me, baby punch until I bleed
Sobriety's a drag, I'm on a new drug every day
I'm burning out too fast, my reflection fades away
Scoring speed and junk, pills to numb my heart
Man, I got too high, this place feels just like Mars
Pocket full of sunshine, heroin in my vein
I tried to fuck on Soma, but I couldn't leave a stain
Junky-lean supreme, everything's alright
Shufflinfg through dream, behind my shades it's always night
Behind my shades it's always night,
I think I'll be alright
A decade has gone by, popping pills like sweets
Intoxicated violence, rinse, then repeat
Tryin' to fuck the pieces back into a single core
Naked strangers in my bed, I'm just jaded whore
Showing up at friends, I'm geeked like Elton John
Crushing up some roofies, then load'em in a bong
They stage an intervention, concerns about my health
Fuck your redemption, then go and fuck yourself
Sobriety's a drag, getting high to get through the day
Oh yes, I am a burnout, but bitch you know you also fade
Amphetamine and opiates tears my life apart
Get me some Lorazepam to mend my broken heart
I overdosed again, my thoughts they feel so strange
I'm no longer myself, he's completely re-arranged
Laughing like a madman, I can't recall my past
But fuck it, who gives a damn?
I knew this shit would never last
It wasn't meant to last,
it was never meant to last
Working title is Geeked Like Elton
I'm not broken, but I'm bent, confusing love and pain
A condom used & spent, flush me down the drain
Faded snapshot memories, who is that boy?
Deluded by his reveries, so eager to destroy
Used to feel divine, when high enough to kiss the sun
Now it's like meditating while I'm chewing on a gun
There's bottles on my floor, speed on every plate
I'm spun baby at war, one week wide awake
Sobriety's a drag, I'm on a new drug every day
I'm burning out too fast, my reflection fades away
Scoring speed and junk, pills to numb my heart
Man, I'm doing fine, blackedout on Xanax-bars
Accidental K-holes, my vision's just a blur
I'm trying to act sober but my speech is a slur
Speeding through life, I'm going nowhere fast
Compulsively re-dosing, this shit will never last
This shit will never last,
oh, please make this hit last
I was born a fuck up but I can easily persuade
Master manipulator, no conscience nor constraints
I was told I am hellbound, a monster and a freak
Baby bring the coke, got a gagball, whip & leash
I might think I'm enchanted, if you look at me twice
It's just another drug, love's just another vice
Decadent debauchery, a nihilistic creed
Clench your fist and punch me, baby punch until I bleed
Sobriety's a drag, I'm on a new drug every day
I'm burning out too fast, my reflection fades away
Scoring speed and junk, pills to numb my heart
Man, I got too high, this place feels just like Mars
Pocket full of sunshine, heroin in my vein
I tried to fuck on Soma, but I couldn't leave a stain
Junky-lean supreme, everything's alright
Shufflinfg through dream, behind my shades it's always night
Behind my shades it's always night,
I think I'll be alright
A decade has gone by, popping pills like sweets
Intoxicated violence, rinse, then repeat
Tryin' to fuck the pieces back into a single core
Naked strangers in my bed, I'm just jaded whore
Showing up at friends, I'm geeked like Elton John
Crushing up some roofies, then load'em in a bong
They stage an intervention, concerns about my health
Fuck your redemption, then go and fuck yourself
Sobriety's a drag, getting high to get through the day
Oh yes, I am a burnout, but bitch you know you also fade
Amphetamine and opiates tears my life apart
Get me some Lorazepam to mend my broken heart
I overdosed again, my thoughts they feel so strange
I'm no longer myself, he's completely re-arranged
Laughing like a madman, I can't recall my past
But fuck it, who gives a damn?
I knew this shit would never last
It wasn't meant to last,
it was never meant to last
