k2436
Bluelighter
Over several days leading up to Ganesha I was baffled over the drug l would take. Did I want something speedy and dancy, or something to connect to the bushland that l was about to go into? I couldn’t decide. Then the morning of the said day, I awoke to the song, "Hello acid my old friend, its time to play with you again." Ok, those aren’t the exact words. But hey, I knew what I had to do.
Tripping has always been a great experience for me, and I felt ready to experience it again. But as I was unable to find acid, I took 2ct7 instead. I had used it before, but this time l felt I should go for a harder trip so I went with 20.
The ride down consisted of the usual safeway/petrol station/get supplies/drink V stuff and after a long drive, and a lot of cool tunes (as always), and a few wrong turns we finally made it to the camp site. Ok so after about 2 hours we finally left the road and passed onto the bush lands of Ganesha, only to see 3 cars drive past us on their way out, and blue/red lights flashing up ahead through the rain. Great. But no, that was just the stage lights going off, so we quickly parked and joined the crowd. It didn’t take long for us to meet+greet people, and it was soon decided to move the car into the BL area... only to have it bogged
Ah well, 15mins of grunting and panting soon fixed that problem, and a short while later we were set up and ready to go. So it was at this time that l took two pills. While I waited for it to kick in, we all went to the dancing area. I used this time to get acquainted with the area in case I got lost later.
About an hour and a bit passed when the drug had kicked in. The world around me turned into a swirl of colourful patterns that filled the outline of physical space. I could still see firm surfaces, but I also glimpsed the patterns, or rather energy that made up that space. I felt as if all the layers of reality were presented to me.
All the depth that we normally experience was present on the same level. For instance sound, whether it was close, or far away could be heard with the same intensity. It took some concentration to focus on one sound from the blend, but it was possible. Although every time the drug kicked in I could do little more then just sit back and enjoy the ride (luckily I was in a car at this point). What I thought very much coincided with visuals I was getting. I felt as if all of reality was made up of energy. Music, people, objects, animals, trees, situations, interactions, environment, mind frame, emotions, everything seemed to swirl and dance with the same energy but was also remarkably different. Kinda like a fractal. It was awesome, just seeing all the layers of physical space. I kept thinking it was all just one big rainbow. When you look at a rainbow, you see a spectrum of colour but you don’t realise that each colour exists in a different part of reality, vibrates on a different level, yet at the same time mixes in with the colour around it. You just see several flat lines of colour spread across the sky. On the drug I saw the entire entire rainbow.
I also experienced what I would call, "being the centre of my own universe." I was inside of my own reality. It was under my control what would occur inside this reality, what energy would surround me, and what energy I would release into the environment. I know this is what happens in everyday life, but I was more aware of this, like I had stepped back and saw all this occur before me. I felt as if each person was inside his or her own "centre of the universe" (reality within reality). I visualised how each person created their reality within physical space, how they chose what to believe/see/ understand/know/do.
On the drug I came witness that all motions in reality are made up of energy. No matter what form that energy would present itself as, there was an undercurrent of energy all around us and within us. I spent a long time just watching motions in reality being instigated, and watching the energy from those motions become motions and spread out to the environment/people nearby. It was cool.
A lot of time passed, energy flowed, and then I tried Nitrous. Cheers to Soma for supplying them!!!!
And hey, we saved ya some
I had several, including a few doubles and I cant say when it hit me. They sure did hit me hard. Over what seemed a very long time (most likely a few seconds) I felt the motions around me slow down, and as they did so too did time. I felt totally disconnected, I could understand what made physical space and it didn’t matter to me. I felt that everything that existed in physical space was an illusion, and everything that I knew about reality was forgotten. The reality I existed in, the centre of the universe that was me, stopped when I stopped my motions and stopped needing motions around me. I had found the ‘pause’ button in the game of life. The reality in front of me slowed down and ceased layer by layer, until finally all motions/time stopped. Someone said I most likely just almost passed out but I don’t think it was that. Mainly cause I have never passed out on a drug, and also cause my own condition/focus didn’t change. Just everything around me changed. I’ll try to describe it.
People/objects, everything around me was made up of physical space with a colourful outline/mist of colour/energy. I just thought ‘I want this to slow down’, and my centre of the universe did, my reality did. The outline of the people/objects around me became a small colourful line, where previously it was a mist like how light spreads out from a light bulb (cant remember the technical name for it). Ok so, as that line grew thinner and brighter, as the colourful mist began to flow into that line and make it brighter, at the same time ‘solid physical space’ dissolved down into a colourful mist and where physical space previously was, was replaced by darkness. The energy that appeared from all creatures/people/things shimmered down into an intense white line that outlined the object it was appearing from, while at the same time, physical space shimmered down into a haze that surrounded that line/ energy. Also, as the physical space of a person/object shrank back into that outline, it was replaced by darkness. And it kept shrinking until everything around me melted into nothing more but an outline. Until finally I was surrounded by people/ object made up entirely of bright white outlines in darkness. Then as all motions completely stopped, a bright white light filled my entire vision.
A few moments later, reality (all those outlines) came back to my vision. And as I began to move, reality began to move around me again and began to fill up into the physical space of everyday life (still with a few colourful outlines/mists). It’s hard to explain what happened in words, but it was very cool. As filled with awe as I was, I was also confused. I could understand what perceiving reality was all about, and what creating your own ‘centre of the universe’/reality was about too. But I couldn’t understand what has gone wrong in life, why aren’t people in the same mind frame? I decided to go for a walk.
It was very surreal outside. Mist/clouds covered the ground, with lights bursting through them and fire crackers going off everywhere. People just dancing or hung around the fire’s. Music blurred forth from the cars/stage and everywhere trees sprung up towards the stars high above (the stars were amazing). It was all amazing. I was so filled with owe/happiness/love. I felt like hugging EVERYONE but I didn’t want to seem too flipped out. I was still confused though. I could see people around me, talking to each other. Trying to pass on a swirl of energy, like their emotions/ thoughts but only being able to create an outline of understanding in the people they were talking to. I just wondered around, and wondered why it is so hard to help other people? The world does produce more food then it consumes, so why then is it so hard to get food to everyone? Why must there be so much red tape, and so many reasons why you shouldn’t help others. I could see that everyone lived in their own centre of the universe, formed their own reality. When we go out into the world everyday, we create reality by our motions. I just didn’t know why people failed to realise that we all are created by the same "stuff" that all of creation is made of, and that we are all linked to reality as much as everyone else. Everyone has the power to change the world, and yet people simply build up their own "centre of the universe," to suit their own needs, and live within their own reality without realising that we are all linked together. I couldnt understand why everyone didnt feel love, be love, and pass love off into the environment around them. In all the energy I witnessed, love seemed present in it all. After that I think l stared at a tree, at the stars and went back into someone’s car. Ok. So all this is a small glimpse of the maze of mirrors I was lead through, over all it was a great tripping experience. The venue/music and most importantly the people were awsome (as usual).
The night totally ruled and I cant wait for earthcore.
The only bad points was the fact that I stood in every single puddle, and didnt bring a jacket. Take it from me, you need a jacket if your going to these events cause its gets very cold. Anyway, cheers!!!
oh, and i thought up a quote while on the substance. "Your understanding of life extends as far as the questiosn your willing to ask," I think that sums up the experience rather well.
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IT has always been expain. But how do you explain an emotion? A state of mind? 50yrs ago people tried one way, 5000yrs ago they tried another. It doesnt matter what explination you cling on to as they all lead down the same path.
[This message has been edited by k2436 (edited 04 September 2000).]
[This message has been edited by k2436 (edited 04 September 2000).]
The ride down consisted of the usual safeway/petrol station/get supplies/drink V stuff and after a long drive, and a lot of cool tunes (as always), and a few wrong turns we finally made it to the camp site. Ok so after about 2 hours we finally left the road and passed onto the bush lands of Ganesha, only to see 3 cars drive past us on their way out, and blue/red lights flashing up ahead through the rain. Great. But no, that was just the stage lights going off, so we quickly parked and joined the crowd. It didn’t take long for us to meet+greet people, and it was soon decided to move the car into the BL area... only to have it bogged
Ah well, 15mins of grunting and panting soon fixed that problem, and a short while later we were set up and ready to go. So it was at this time that l took two pills. While I waited for it to kick in, we all went to the dancing area. I used this time to get acquainted with the area in case I got lost later.
About an hour and a bit passed when the drug had kicked in. The world around me turned into a swirl of colourful patterns that filled the outline of physical space. I could still see firm surfaces, but I also glimpsed the patterns, or rather energy that made up that space. I felt as if all the layers of reality were presented to me.
All the depth that we normally experience was present on the same level. For instance sound, whether it was close, or far away could be heard with the same intensity. It took some concentration to focus on one sound from the blend, but it was possible. Although every time the drug kicked in I could do little more then just sit back and enjoy the ride (luckily I was in a car at this point). What I thought very much coincided with visuals I was getting. I felt as if all of reality was made up of energy. Music, people, objects, animals, trees, situations, interactions, environment, mind frame, emotions, everything seemed to swirl and dance with the same energy but was also remarkably different. Kinda like a fractal. It was awesome, just seeing all the layers of physical space. I kept thinking it was all just one big rainbow. When you look at a rainbow, you see a spectrum of colour but you don’t realise that each colour exists in a different part of reality, vibrates on a different level, yet at the same time mixes in with the colour around it. You just see several flat lines of colour spread across the sky. On the drug I saw the entire entire rainbow.
I also experienced what I would call, "being the centre of my own universe." I was inside of my own reality. It was under my control what would occur inside this reality, what energy would surround me, and what energy I would release into the environment. I know this is what happens in everyday life, but I was more aware of this, like I had stepped back and saw all this occur before me. I felt as if each person was inside his or her own "centre of the universe" (reality within reality). I visualised how each person created their reality within physical space, how they chose what to believe/see/ understand/know/do.
On the drug I came witness that all motions in reality are made up of energy. No matter what form that energy would present itself as, there was an undercurrent of energy all around us and within us. I spent a long time just watching motions in reality being instigated, and watching the energy from those motions become motions and spread out to the environment/people nearby. It was cool.
A lot of time passed, energy flowed, and then I tried Nitrous. Cheers to Soma for supplying them!!!!
People/objects, everything around me was made up of physical space with a colourful outline/mist of colour/energy. I just thought ‘I want this to slow down’, and my centre of the universe did, my reality did. The outline of the people/objects around me became a small colourful line, where previously it was a mist like how light spreads out from a light bulb (cant remember the technical name for it). Ok so, as that line grew thinner and brighter, as the colourful mist began to flow into that line and make it brighter, at the same time ‘solid physical space’ dissolved down into a colourful mist and where physical space previously was, was replaced by darkness. The energy that appeared from all creatures/people/things shimmered down into an intense white line that outlined the object it was appearing from, while at the same time, physical space shimmered down into a haze that surrounded that line/ energy. Also, as the physical space of a person/object shrank back into that outline, it was replaced by darkness. And it kept shrinking until everything around me melted into nothing more but an outline. Until finally I was surrounded by people/ object made up entirely of bright white outlines in darkness. Then as all motions completely stopped, a bright white light filled my entire vision.
A few moments later, reality (all those outlines) came back to my vision. And as I began to move, reality began to move around me again and began to fill up into the physical space of everyday life (still with a few colourful outlines/mists). It’s hard to explain what happened in words, but it was very cool. As filled with awe as I was, I was also confused. I could understand what perceiving reality was all about, and what creating your own ‘centre of the universe’/reality was about too. But I couldn’t understand what has gone wrong in life, why aren’t people in the same mind frame? I decided to go for a walk.
It was very surreal outside. Mist/clouds covered the ground, with lights bursting through them and fire crackers going off everywhere. People just dancing or hung around the fire’s. Music blurred forth from the cars/stage and everywhere trees sprung up towards the stars high above (the stars were amazing). It was all amazing. I was so filled with owe/happiness/love. I felt like hugging EVERYONE but I didn’t want to seem too flipped out. I was still confused though. I could see people around me, talking to each other. Trying to pass on a swirl of energy, like their emotions/ thoughts but only being able to create an outline of understanding in the people they were talking to. I just wondered around, and wondered why it is so hard to help other people? The world does produce more food then it consumes, so why then is it so hard to get food to everyone? Why must there be so much red tape, and so many reasons why you shouldn’t help others. I could see that everyone lived in their own centre of the universe, formed their own reality. When we go out into the world everyday, we create reality by our motions. I just didn’t know why people failed to realise that we all are created by the same "stuff" that all of creation is made of, and that we are all linked to reality as much as everyone else. Everyone has the power to change the world, and yet people simply build up their own "centre of the universe," to suit their own needs, and live within their own reality without realising that we are all linked together. I couldnt understand why everyone didnt feel love, be love, and pass love off into the environment around them. In all the energy I witnessed, love seemed present in it all. After that I think l stared at a tree, at the stars and went back into someone’s car. Ok. So all this is a small glimpse of the maze of mirrors I was lead through, over all it was a great tripping experience. The venue/music and most importantly the people were awsome (as usual).
oh, and i thought up a quote while on the substance. "Your understanding of life extends as far as the questiosn your willing to ask," I think that sums up the experience rather well.
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IT has always been expain. But how do you explain an emotion? A state of mind? 50yrs ago people tried one way, 5000yrs ago they tried another. It doesnt matter what explination you cling on to as they all lead down the same path.
[This message has been edited by k2436 (edited 04 September 2000).]
[This message has been edited by k2436 (edited 04 September 2000).]
