Drifting_Away
Bluelighter
Hey guys, I have been a long time blue light lurker and have gained a lot of great info here over the years. If this post is in the wrong place, or a mod believes it will get more attention elsewhere please feel free to move it. I kicked a serious IV fent/dope habit two years ago and have been struggling with escalating my gabapentin dose and being dependent for the last six months. I started at 300mg three times a day about a year ago and am currently prescribed 600 x3. It’s almost embarrassing to admit that this drug has me by the balls. I have been ripping everything I can off the street and am consuming around 4 to 5 thousand mg a day at this point. Early on it worked wonders for me while I worked through some really difficult shit mentally. I feel as though I could do without it at this point but am terrified of withdrawing. It probably doesn’t help that all I read are horror stories. I do know that if I go a day without, as I sometimes am forced to do I have zero appetite/motivation/sleep. As I said, I have kicked some 2-3 gram a day dope habits multiple times in my life. And have abstained for periods up to 15 years from them. Is there is any advice anyone can give? Or any direction to point me in? I am amazed at how little is known about this substance. And how little information there is about dependence/withdrawal. I would appreciate any help anyone can give me. Thank you