malakaix
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Almost four years ago now i had an experience with DMT that was really a signature turning point in my life; it created an enormous shift in my entire perception of everything but although this shift allowed for change it also put me course with what would be years of re-integration of self and reality, perhaps some of the hardest years of my life..
The moment that created that shift was realizing through the collapse of duality; that freedom and responsibility were synonymous. I experienced freedom through acknowledging that i am responsible for everything, it brought me into an existential crisis. My initial reaction to this was an intense mixture of fear and relief, but it was not without lingering trauma that i felt i never really resolved until just recently where life experience's and situations combined to create an environment where the very issue of freedom and responsibility was brought into center focus.
For a second time i experienced this freedom, strangely enough it came to me through accepting responsibility at work. Choosing to make sure everything was done before leaving to go home, valuing responsibility for the job over my desire for freedom was freeing in itself.
Hopefully i'm making sense; i've struggled with responsibility and escapism all my life and now it feels like the two worlds are becoming one.
Im curious about others views on this? Do you feel that freedom and responsibility are synonymous from an existential point of view? What is your experience/understanding?
The moment that created that shift was realizing through the collapse of duality; that freedom and responsibility were synonymous. I experienced freedom through acknowledging that i am responsible for everything, it brought me into an existential crisis. My initial reaction to this was an intense mixture of fear and relief, but it was not without lingering trauma that i felt i never really resolved until just recently where life experience's and situations combined to create an environment where the very issue of freedom and responsibility was brought into center focus.
For a second time i experienced this freedom, strangely enough it came to me through accepting responsibility at work. Choosing to make sure everything was done before leaving to go home, valuing responsibility for the job over my desire for freedom was freeing in itself.
Hopefully i'm making sense; i've struggled with responsibility and escapism all my life and now it feels like the two worlds are becoming one.
Im curious about others views on this? Do you feel that freedom and responsibility are synonymous from an existential point of view? What is your experience/understanding?