peopleawake
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jun 29, 2010
- Messages
- 8
hello !
the use of this quite evil substance make me worry.
restarted 7 months ago
since i am quite integrated socially by means of a decent job, the use is not yet out of control, and probably will stay like this : one night binge once a week.
The problem is : it is unhealthy and deregulates the reward system
it is expensive. it makes me stop caring about a lot of personal tasks and i procrastinate.
It does not affect me negatively at work too much however. in fact i prefer going to work monday than doing quite nothing on week-ends. so there is a social impact nevertheless
It makes me feel that i am wasting some kind of potential, (and remorse, guilt etc...) (i am not depressed at this time however)
FYI, i was a bupe user for 2 years in 2008 and 8 months in 2012 @ 2/3mg day . WDs were quite difficult but managed.
I am thinking of going back to bupe to feel good/productive at evenings and not bored (boredom seems the main trigger for freebase use) : lesser of two evils, even if physically addicting.
i know that i should not ask "what to take" but since it is with good intentions, i am wondering too if a cleaner stim could be an option to switch to. (in a daily use pattern / or in case of cravings).
any contribution welcome.
the use of this quite evil substance make me worry.
restarted 7 months ago
since i am quite integrated socially by means of a decent job, the use is not yet out of control, and probably will stay like this : one night binge once a week.
The problem is : it is unhealthy and deregulates the reward system
it is expensive. it makes me stop caring about a lot of personal tasks and i procrastinate.
It does not affect me negatively at work too much however. in fact i prefer going to work monday than doing quite nothing on week-ends. so there is a social impact nevertheless
It makes me feel that i am wasting some kind of potential, (and remorse, guilt etc...) (i am not depressed at this time however)
FYI, i was a bupe user for 2 years in 2008 and 8 months in 2012 @ 2/3mg day . WDs were quite difficult but managed.
I am thinking of going back to bupe to feel good/productive at evenings and not bored (boredom seems the main trigger for freebase use) : lesser of two evils, even if physically addicting.
i know that i should not ask "what to take" but since it is with good intentions, i am wondering too if a cleaner stim could be an option to switch to. (in a daily use pattern / or in case of cravings).
any contribution welcome.