Madrus
Bluelighter
2021: Initial Encounters
Sensory Deprivation Tank Experience (Early 2021)
During a long meditation in a sensory isolation tank, I called out for help. Felt an entity attacking me. After fighting it for 20-30 minutes, I thought maybe it was just internal and let go. This led to an unpleasant sexual sensation in the perineum that left me feeling drained.First Night Terror
That night had my first night terror - a reptilian entity attacked in my sleep. Woke up screaming with barely any memory. These continued irregularly. Would sometimes wake up telling my wife about a lizard attacking me, and unlike a normal dream only barely remembered it after being told in the morning.Meditation Phenomena
Subsequent meditation sessions were marked by distinct knocking sounds in the surrounding environment. In one instance, I mentally requested "Give me two knocks" and immediately heard knock knock in response. I stopped that session immediately.Late 2021: Escalating Activity
- Consistent sensations of a presence in the room during nights
- Night terrors occurring almost nightly between midnight and 3 AM
- Wife observed defensive posturing during episodes, including one incident where I believed an entity stood at my right side, meanwhile she experienced physical symptoms of unease, her heart would race.
2022: Seeking Solutions
- Continued unusual knocking phenomena
- Got advice and implemented suggested protective measures: did house cleansing with mantras, burning incense and dried red peppers throughout the house. Put protective amulets near our bed.
- Partial but incomplete improvement noted
2023: Relocation and Spiritual Focus
- Moved to a new place, things were somewhat better there.
- After two exhausting years of fighting this, started focusing more on prayer.
- Night terrors continued but with decreased frequency
2024: Ongoing Manifestations
Persistent uncomfortable perineum sensations nightly. Extended focus occasionally reveals brief visual impressions behind closed eyelids - possibly a scorpion or reptilian form, though these images are fleeting and unclear.2025: Significant Dream Encounter
This morning. Started as a normal dream - friend offering chips, me eating them. Then the friend grew to 7 feet tall. Its eyes changed to reptilian yellow with black vertical slits. Its voice became deep and guttural, like two voices speaking at once - unlike any dream voice I'd heard before.It stared at me up close and said in that double-voice: "with chicken and cigarettes" Then: "with spice" [I understood this as the drug "spice" - felt like it was pushing me toward bad habits]
The dream became lucid. We walked together. I didn't ask who it was - somehow knew it was the same entity from all these years. I wasn't thinking clearly, and asked it "How do I use y-" but then I stopped myself from asking about powers or abilities.
Instead asked: "Why are you here?" It replied: "I use you when I want"
"Where do you live?" "Between your legs"
"Are you in all humans or just some?" It paused, then said: "We call you the paddy-wagon" [understood as "meat van", and "you" meant humans collectively]
The whole conversation had this biting pain in the muladhara chakra - that same draining sexual energy I'd felt for years though more intense and electric. When it left, the pain stopped and tingling faded out. The entity's eyes went back to normal, it shrank to normal height, and stopped talking. I exited the dream and wrote everything down.
