for Jas, the purest love of my life

[wiSdoMiKaL]

for those that have loved so deeply, yet had to walk away, beacuse it just wasnt meant to be.
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you opened my eyes to so many new horizons.
you helped me discover i could be loved.
you understood who i was,
and where i stood.
you showed me so much of myself
and i hope that whe the days comes,
when you find the one you can care for,
that she is everything to you,
that i could never be
and you are everything to her,
that you wer'nt for me.
i hope one day you will hold someone
and bring a tear to her eye,
and show her the love i know
that lies deep inside.
One day i will find someone to hold me,
when i treuly am ready,
and balance will be the definitive reason
a love thats returned, flowing and steady.
One day someone will see me,
as you did that day,
but be ready for all my love,
and in his arms i will lay.
Because i KNOW that i am beautiful
i know i can be loved
i know that i deserve more
i am worthy to fly above.
i know that all that i am
i know the love thats inside
its a pity it was'nt you
but no more tears shall i cry.
i will walk with you and hold my head up high,
i know that i am ME.
i never want our friendship to die,
but thats all it can be.
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yeah, ive just recently had to walk away from someone i cared so much for, because it just was'nt right, and he loved me, still does, but could not show it how i needed it to be shown. i know we will remain best of friends because we are lucky in that way i guess, but it hurts so much when your love is so deep and it can't be given, for whatever reasons befall.
wiKked respects to everyone,
you might be hearing from me on this topic for a while longer, so i apologise now... rather then later when you're all sick of me pining for someone i just cant have

mad luv
xox wiSdoMiKaL
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be, simply, YOU...
and love, eternally, yourself

[This message has been edited by wiSdoMiKaL (edited 22 September 2000).]

 

[applesbliss]

I likey!

 

[applesbliss]

BTW do you mean jase?

 

[writnpage]

Wisdomikal...your words are pure and clean but sad. But I'm so glad you know you deserve better. Often times, it's so easy to hold on to mediocre things in life because we're either afraid to be alone, or we've just gotten so used to the shit..that dreams and hopes of better days, and walking the path to future peace, seems scary. "What will it be like without ..."
The mind says.."Everything good and everything better"...the heart says.."I'm not ready to let go".
One's never entirely ready to let go. Most often, we're forced to.
Better days will arrive. You will be loved and you will love according to your defination of love....you simply have to keep moving....FORWARD.
Loads of loves,
-Amina
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"Like a bird on a wire, Like a drunk in a midnight choir, I have tried in my way to be free" - Leonard Cohen

 

[whippiechick]

Wow that was really beautiful.. So glad you realize who you are and you don't settle for anything less then what will make you truely happy.

Don't we all wish we could be that strong?

 

[wiSdoMiKaL]

thank you everyone

it really helps to know that people, no matter where out there in cyberspace they may be, do give a damn.
i've been confused for so long, not wanting to give a damn, because i felt that *he* did'nt give a damn about me... but i have learnt to embrace friendships for ALL of their worth, and even when its sitting in front of a computer, the love i feel is just crazy!!!
applesbliss, i mean Jas, not jase, said like its spelt

writenpage, your words of wisdom have made that knowledge in me grow muchly so thank you

and whippie, i know that strength can seem so far away when your feeling so desperate, and the horizons that you KNOW are there seem to dissapear in the hurt you are feeling.
but hey, the trust in the words "its all good" comes back, when the timing is right..
ahhh its so lovely to feel like ME again!!
heheh.. i dont know how my brain works sometimes, but i should just forget about it and put my trust in the univerese, because i
know its all one big ol' class room
aiight, im outtie
xox wiSdoMiKaL
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be, simply, YOU...
and love, eternally, yourself