Dissociatives First time Ketamine trip

[Canberra Slim]

Yesterday I did a 100mg ketamine lozenge given to me by a therapist friend, ergo a trusted source. He'd told me to hold it in my mouth for 15 minutes for best effect. I should note that I've read a number of trip reports this morning before posting this one.

The effects came on pretty quickly - faster in my limited experience than LSD, mushrooms or weed, though not of course as fast as DMT - and by about 20 minutes I was headed out of reality. The executive summary of the trip was about 45 minutes in another world followed by 12 hours or so of misery. Those 45 minutes were unlike anything I'd ever experienced. I was unable to move from the couch - well, I should say, I could have moved but not only didn't want to but was sure I'd fall over if I tried to stand.

I closed my eyes and drifted into another place, nowhere I've been but an amazing and calm universe. There were mild visual distortions, closed-eyed, just vaguely shifting walls that changed color now and then but were mainly dark and subtle. I couldn't feel my body, and had no particularly strange thoughts, and I was at all times aware of myself and my mind. It was quite wonderful and restful and I'd like to say insightful... only I don't know what particular insights I had beyond the thought that if only everyone in the world could go through this, we'd be in lots better shape. I thought about the amazing human mind and how little we know of it. How little we know of reality, whether the term is even correct.

At one point I tried to listen to some music with earphones but realized quickly that this wasn't that kind of journey, that I was better off with dark and quiet. I finally had to get up to urinate after maybe 45 minutes. Knew I had to do it, didn't want to do it, but managed to stumble to the bathroom and back without falling.

It's hard to articulate how intensely strange but good the whole thing was. I wish I could say that time stopped, but it really didn't. That is, I was fully present and observant in every moment, but when I got up for the bathroom I wasn't surprised to see that it was 45 minutes after I'd lain down.

Then the trouble started. Well, in fact, after about an hour - the last 15 mins or so I could feel the efx lessening. I fell asleep. For an hour? Hard to know. But when I awoke I was nauseated and dizzy. Getting up was unpleasant, and to make a long boring story short, I pretty much stayed in bed for the next 3 or 4 hours. Got up at one point around 6 and had some toast - I'd had breakfast around 9ish and took the tablet at 12:30, but hadn't had lunch - and then struggled through the evening with a feeling of nausea and dizziness. I had a light meal around 8 and finally went to bed around 11 feeling a bit better but still not well. At 3 I got up for the bathroom. Still nauseated.

Finally this morning by about 9 or 10 my stomach had calmed down. Took a walk, had breakfast, and now its more than 24 hours after this whole thing started and my stomach is still off.

In sum, the hour or so was an unbelievably deep and moving experience. At the time I was thinking how much I'd look forward to doing it again - I have one more tablet - maybe in a few months or so when the weather's warmer. But as great as it was, the price is too high.

For the record, mushrooms also make me nauseous but that wears off after a few hours. And of course the high is longer. Alas, I'll never do them again either.

Oh well.

Thanks for reading. I'm open to any and all advice!

 

[golego55]

Thanks for posting. Happy for you on the 45 minutes and empathy for you on the 12 hours. Don't let it stop you from continuing on your journey.

 

[Canberra Slim]

Thanks for posting. Happy for you on the 45 minutes and empathy for you on the 12 hours. Don't let it stop you from continuing on your journey.

Thanks, friend. I appreciate the good words!

 

[Ismene2]

When you stood up were you doing "the ketamine walk" where your knees come up to your chin with each step?

 

[Canberra Slim]

Thanks for replying. Not sure I can answer that question one way or another. I remember being discombobulated when I got up, reminiscent of being very very drunk (which I haven't been in years), as though I would fall over or careen to one side if I didn't grab something. But I can't say it felt like knees to chin. That sounds strange indeed!

 

[Viraldrome]

When you stood up were you doing "the ketamine walk" where your knees come up to your chin with each step?

I call it the frankenstein walk. How anyone considers this a club drug is beyond me. Two things I'm not doing on K is dancing or sex

 

[paranoid android]

I call it the frankenstein walk. How anyone considers this a club drug is beyond me. Two things I'm not doing on K is dancing or sex

When i was on s ket i was stupid enough to get up and walk while i was just barely out of the k hole. It felt like i was walking on the moon or some shit

 

[Innerpeace]

The walk can be like in another world. I dont recommend walking at all on it , if possible, for the most part. Having to pee is understandable. Ketamine has some mechanisms as alcohol. In fact, people who have a genetic history of alcohol, like grandfather, great grandfather, like @Innerpeace s family history, it wont effect as much, as someone who doesnt, just a lil tidbit how genetics can alter things, due to family history, in their choices
For more information on this watch on yotube "All things ketamine, The most comprehensive podcast episode ever with Dr. John Krystal

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[Canberra Slim]

Thanks, that's informative. I'll definitely check out Dr. Krystal's video. Interestingly, my mother was an alcoholic and for years, although I don't think I ever was, I still liked my coupla drinks every night. But this ketamine still took me to places I'd never been, never even imagined.