Ill start this by saying that Im well experienced in psychedelics, use, effects, medical literature, etc.
That said, I did my first ayahuasca trip this past weekend with 4g Syrian rue and 7g Acacia Confusa root bark.
Overall the experience was fine and fairly intense even given that Ive used some high doses of LSD before.
Im a pretty cut and dry/black and white person about most of this stuff and dont look too far into things most of the time but I definitely got an overriding bad sense/vibes during the experience, specifically the peak. My headspace was good the entire time but I got an extremely strong feeling that this stuff just isnt what its made to be....evil isnt the right word exactly but definitely felt like something was trying to invade my headspace most of the time and not in a good way. It gave me a very strong sense of self centeredness and a drive for self pleasure in general whereas I love LSD because it has a less self-centered focus due to the ego death that it causes.
Ive had bad trips before but they were always trips that made me deal with something I didnt want to deal with (the gap between what is and what should be basically) but the ayahuasca wasnt like that at all. This was more of a focus on me, what pleases me, what I love, etc. very little connectedness, empathy, or compassion towards others that Ive experienced to some extend on all other psychedelics.
Anyone experience anything similar?
Going to give it one more go at some point soon at a higher dose but otherwise I dont think Ill be touching the stuff again.
That said, I did my first ayahuasca trip this past weekend with 4g Syrian rue and 7g Acacia Confusa root bark.
Overall the experience was fine and fairly intense even given that Ive used some high doses of LSD before.
Im a pretty cut and dry/black and white person about most of this stuff and dont look too far into things most of the time but I definitely got an overriding bad sense/vibes during the experience, specifically the peak. My headspace was good the entire time but I got an extremely strong feeling that this stuff just isnt what its made to be....evil isnt the right word exactly but definitely felt like something was trying to invade my headspace most of the time and not in a good way. It gave me a very strong sense of self centeredness and a drive for self pleasure in general whereas I love LSD because it has a less self-centered focus due to the ego death that it causes.
Ive had bad trips before but they were always trips that made me deal with something I didnt want to deal with (the gap between what is and what should be basically) but the ayahuasca wasnt like that at all. This was more of a focus on me, what pleases me, what I love, etc. very little connectedness, empathy, or compassion towards others that Ive experienced to some extend on all other psychedelics.
Anyone experience anything similar?
Going to give it one more go at some point soon at a higher dose but otherwise I dont think Ill be touching the stuff again.