Opioids Finally off of Suboxone with enough energy to make a post. =)

[DECEASEDWITHIN]

Hello everyone, just wanted to post a shred of hope for anyone struggling out there. I originally began a taper in December to come off of suboxone but flip flopped back and forth before I finally stuck with it. I'm now officially 28 days off of sub, after a five year oxy-sub habit, and it's been an uphill battle all along the way. The first three weeks were horrible but this week is slightly better. In the middle of all of this my engagement ended, I had to move out of my home, and I wasn't able to work for nearly the entire month, but fortunately i'm self employed. This has been the hardest month of my life and I know there's more to come but my confidence and determination is strong. If anything I guess this is the ultimate test of endurance. Good luck to everyone trying to get clean and know that you can do it if you want it bad enough. =) Oh yea, not to mention exercise and healthy eating is now my life line!

 

[OntarioGuy]

Great job! glad to hear it! sorry about the engagment ending though

 

[DECEASEDWITHIN]

Thanks man, we were both withdrawing together and I guess it was just too much to bare for the both of us. Looking at it now I guess I can only be thankful that I didn't cave in when everything else fell apart around me. Hopefully this just makes me stronger in the long run!

 

[KillSurfCity]

congratulations!

 

[DECEASEDWITHIN]

thank you!!

 

[KillSurfCity]

i hope one day to be in your shoes. you are very strong. i admire the fuck out of it.

 

[Money Murda]

Hell yeah man congratz i got like 1 1/2 subs left and im done so wish me luck i hopei can stay as strong as u i been going hard for about 6 years so its bout time to be done with this shit it has took a huge toll on my body any tips on how you went about winging ur self off and handling withdrawal? Any info would be greatly appreciated!

 

[DECEASEDWITHIN]

Well to make you guys feel any better, i'm a 27 year old 120 lb girl and if I can do it all of you can. You'll want to jump at the lowest possible dose so it really depends what you take a day MoneyMurda. I had a horrible habit to begin with but when on sub I never let myself take more than .5mg a day after reading so many horror stories. When I decided to go through with it I accepted the pain. I had to come clean to family, which was really hard at first, but proved to help in the long run. I was never a spiritual person but trust me when going through sub withdrawal you'll start at least talking to the universe haha. It really is only a matter of willpower, I wanted off so badly that I was willing to feel like death no matter how bad it got. The first two weeks becomes quite the blur quickly, which I guess is a good thing. I would say that if you could find clonodine it would greatly benefit you during the early stages of withdrawal, even if you have to go to an ER to get it. Your health is number one, I always used to think what I owned or what I had mattered but once you go through bad withdrawals you'll realize the only thing you have and the only thing that can hold you back is yourself.

 

[BupeTroop]

Congrats on getting clean bro! And im sorry About the engagment getting broken off...same sort of situation happened with me and my ex of 7 years. 2 months before we were supposed to get married, my fiance told me she was pregnant, got an abortion and sold my engagment ring and shes moving out and to never talk to her again...i know what it feels like man, so you have my sympathy! Just stay strong, and dont cave in bro. You've made it this far!

 

[Wake_of_the_Flood]

Well to make you guys feel any better, i'm a 27 year old 120 lb girl and if I can do it all of you can. You'll want to jump at the lowest possible dose so it really depends what you take a day MoneyMurda. I had a horrible habit to begin with but when on sub I never let myself take more than .5mg a day after reading so many horror stories. When I decided to go through with it I accepted the pain. I had to come clean to family, which was really hard at first, but proved to help in the long run. I was never a spiritual person but trust me when going through sub withdrawal you'll start at least talking to the universe haha. It really is only a matter of willpower, I wanted off so badly that I was willing to feel like death no matter how bad it got. The first two weeks becomes quite the blur quickly, which I guess is a good thing. I would say that if you could find clonodine it would greatly benefit you during the early stages of withdrawal, even if you have to go to an ER to get it. Your health is number one, I always used to think what I owned or what I had mattered but once you go through bad withdrawals you'll realize the only thing you have and the only thing that can hold you back is yourself.

Thank you for posting this.

Probably the most accurate description that I can relate to at least of getting off suboxone. Opiates sucked the spirituality from my soul, and to get that feeling back slowly after stopping subs was probably the key for me to staying off them for good.

Then again, I'm 21 days off 6mg of suboxone, so I still have a few demons to face yet.

Well...off to get ready for work and take my vits/amino acids. Music has been key for triggering my spirituality too btw (Phish, GD, Moe.). The whole studio album "Joy" by Phish is all about getting clean from heroin if you listen to it right.

Anyways, this forum is awesome.

 

[DECEASEDWITHIN]

That's awesome wake! 6mg holy shit huh?! I guess I can't even describe the emotional, physical, and spiritual aspect of it all because it body slams you pretty damn hard. haha And you are soooo right about music, I'm a metal head and it really helps to release any built up energy/emotion and to get myself out of my head for a little while. What supplements are you taking out of curiosity? I've heard high doses of vitamin C can help to increase endorphin flow. I'm still struggling with sleep issues, some nights I fall asleep while others I toss and turn like a mad man, but the good thing is I'm over the restless legs and creepy crawly-ness. I'm having some weird consciousness shifts (best way for me to describe it.) If you need anyone to talk to feel free to hit me up as it looks like were both in the same boat!!

 

[joeburden]

I iv'd my last 2mg on saturday and I've been going through hell ever since. Stupid me thought that if I switched to IV for the last leg of my sub taking, it would last me longer and be for the better. BOY WAS I WRONG. never ever ever IV sub if you're trying to get off them. All I did was make my tolerance sky rocket and now for the last 2 days all I've wanted to do is die. I've eaten 400 lopermide pills in the last 2 days which did absolutely nothing for my wd's. I have 8 clonodine's left which also havent touched any of my wd symptoms. the only blessing I suppose is that I've been taking trazadone at night to knock me out for 10+ hours so theres that. but boy does this fucking suck and knowing I have at least 2 more weeks of feeling like this isnt helping at all. blahhhhhhhhhh

 

[DECEASEDWITHIN]

Joe take hot baths as much as you can, buy some Epsom salt and drench it beforehand. It really will help relax your muscles and what not at least temporarily. I literally had to meditate each and every day to find the strength but you have it in you, IF you really really want off I promise!!! I can't lie and say it will be easy, but that's why you need support I hope you have someone close to you that you can confide in. The horrible anxiety does let up it's just a slower process than you'd hope. Try to stay strong and look at it like this, a few weeks of feeling deathly ill in order to have an entire lifetime free of this demon.

 

[DECEASEDWITHIN]

Oh and to mention Joe, you are actually going to be peaking within the next few days, you are at the hardest point right now which is why you are struggling. You're four days into this and it takes about three for the sub to reallllly start leaving your system so your central nervous system is in hardcore overdrive.

 

[Mr.Scagnattie]

Glad you're doing well, but Other Drugs is for specific questions relating to harm reduction, not posts like this. Perhaps your blog or making a post in an existing TDS thread would be more appropriate.

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