batmanplaybaseball
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So my dealer went to jail today. My other dealer got busted a few weeks ago. (Don't look at me). Anyway so I have no choice but to go head first into opiate withdrawal. I have been using heroin for maybe six weeks, oxy for another six before that, and hydrocodone (a lot), going back many months.
I've been through withdrawal before, which is why I know it's going to be hard. I have some drugs. Lots of Klonopin and some amphetamines, Imodium, Aleve, vitamins. Basically the basics. I drank a couple beers and actually got some sleep last night. Although I don't like the alcohol right now. Even if I have just one or two drinks it seems to make me twenty times worse the next day. Today I took a good, almost uncomfortable dose of Klonopin, and then periodically I took some amphetamine to give me energy and to lift my mood. Tonight I am going to take some more Klonopin and then one or two Ambiens, which I also have been saving for this experience.
The worse part for sure has been the depression and the fatigue. I always keep myself busy with everything I'm interested in, which is a lot. But then to have all of that taken away from you. And you no longer want to do anything, and you're too tired to do it anyways, and you also never know how long it will take to get yourself back to normal.
I checked out both a nearby Methadone clinic and a Suboxone clinic. I want to get on one for just a couple of days to a week, just to get the heroin out of my system. I remember swearing that I would never touch MMT again, but I remember someone on here said that doing a couple days of Methadone after a heroin addiction was a lifesaver for withdrawals. The only problem with Subs is that they are more expensive and they wouldn't give me any of that last hurrah feeling that Methadone would.
Anyway, it's hot here on a cool night.
I've been through withdrawal before, which is why I know it's going to be hard. I have some drugs. Lots of Klonopin and some amphetamines, Imodium, Aleve, vitamins. Basically the basics. I drank a couple beers and actually got some sleep last night. Although I don't like the alcohol right now. Even if I have just one or two drinks it seems to make me twenty times worse the next day. Today I took a good, almost uncomfortable dose of Klonopin, and then periodically I took some amphetamine to give me energy and to lift my mood. Tonight I am going to take some more Klonopin and then one or two Ambiens, which I also have been saving for this experience.
The worse part for sure has been the depression and the fatigue. I always keep myself busy with everything I'm interested in, which is a lot. But then to have all of that taken away from you. And you no longer want to do anything, and you're too tired to do it anyways, and you also never know how long it will take to get yourself back to normal.
I checked out both a nearby Methadone clinic and a Suboxone clinic. I want to get on one for just a couple of days to a week, just to get the heroin out of my system. I remember swearing that I would never touch MMT again, but I remember someone on here said that doing a couple days of Methadone after a heroin addiction was a lifesaver for withdrawals. The only problem with Subs is that they are more expensive and they wouldn't give me any of that last hurrah feeling that Methadone would.
Anyway, it's hot here on a cool night.
