allthedowners
Greenlighter
Backstory: I've been on h for 4 years, IV the whole time. My latest run has lasted 18 months with no clean time in between. I only use .5 g's a day split up between two doses. I usually dose every 12 hours, but I don't get really sick until 24 hours after my last dose.
I've been trying with every piece of will inside me to get off of h for months now. I have never understood what using against one's will meant as much as I have these past few months. I just can't shake it. On my last work day I always prepare by throwing my points away. When the sickness comes in the morning I find myself diving through dumpsters to get them back. The past two weeks I've gone as far as to throw my points away and to get someone to hold my debit card and my keys. Same story, the next morning I'm begging and pleading for my keys and card back.
I always plan for my last dose to be before I go to work on my last work day and then to withdraw for 48 hours on my off days before inducting subs. BUT that never works out as planned. I try to wait 48 hours because I've had a couple of terrible experiences with PW and I refuse to go through that again. This past week was the closest I came to coming out clean when I asked my dear friend to hold my keys and my debit card for two days, but by 45 hours I was begging and pleading to have them back. She gave in, but not before I forced myself to induct with 2mgs. I should have just rode it out because I didn't go into PW, but my mind was already set on h relief at that point. So now I only have 4 days before I have to go on a big family trip and I have to be off the needle by then, but I'm out of off days. My question is, if I only have 24 hours between the time I could take my last dose and the time I have to go to work, will I be safe to induct 1mg without going into PW? I know his varies for every person and you should base induction off of COWS, but I'm just terrified I'm not going to wait long enough and I'm going to get really fucking sick via PW. Does anyone else have to wait 36-48 hours before induction, and if so, how did you get through the shit until it was time to take the first dose? Freaking out guys!
I've been trying with every piece of will inside me to get off of h for months now. I have never understood what using against one's will meant as much as I have these past few months. I just can't shake it. On my last work day I always prepare by throwing my points away. When the sickness comes in the morning I find myself diving through dumpsters to get them back. The past two weeks I've gone as far as to throw my points away and to get someone to hold my debit card and my keys. Same story, the next morning I'm begging and pleading for my keys and card back.
I always plan for my last dose to be before I go to work on my last work day and then to withdraw for 48 hours on my off days before inducting subs. BUT that never works out as planned. I try to wait 48 hours because I've had a couple of terrible experiences with PW and I refuse to go through that again. This past week was the closest I came to coming out clean when I asked my dear friend to hold my keys and my debit card for two days, but by 45 hours I was begging and pleading to have them back. She gave in, but not before I forced myself to induct with 2mgs. I should have just rode it out because I didn't go into PW, but my mind was already set on h relief at that point. So now I only have 4 days before I have to go on a big family trip and I have to be off the needle by then, but I'm out of off days. My question is, if I only have 24 hours between the time I could take my last dose and the time I have to go to work, will I be safe to induct 1mg without going into PW? I know his varies for every person and you should base induction off of COWS, but I'm just terrified I'm not going to wait long enough and I'm going to get really fucking sick via PW. Does anyone else have to wait 36-48 hours before induction, and if so, how did you get through the shit until it was time to take the first dose? Freaking out guys!
