Mr.Mountain
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LSD-25; first time; strong dose
I do not typically post on bluelight except for when I try a new substance. This past week a friend came back from a festival with some very pure, tested, LSD. In the past I have taken mushrooms several times, "molly", salvia, valium, the occasional bump of adderall and have been smoking weed for a while. Yet I have always had a fascination (or morbid curiousity) with psychedelic drugs, and I have been wanting to try LSD for the past 3 years.
I had enquired with my friend, D about the lsd a week before he went to the festival. It was a pretty decent weekend, my parents were flying away to my cousins wedding, and I had stayed behind to stay on top of my college classes. When I was with my other friend, M, D texted me saying, "who told you?" from that moment I felt excited at the possibility of tripping. Later M and I go to D's place. When I arrive he is cutting up the sheets for me. I had asked for a specific amount but there were less and, but he informed me that they were 2 hits on each sheet.He also gave me a fist pound and told me that he was giving me extra on my sheet.D is trustworthy and wouldn't rip me off. I decided that I wanted to divide them up more, but in retrospect that didn't matter.
After dropping off some of stuff to another friend S me and M went back to my house to trip. In his car we put them on our tong and looked at each other, this was it. For a few split seconds I felt horrified and spit my sheet out, we went into my house to get water btu as we walked back out I found it on the ground picked it up and swallowed it. I wanted to be equal with what me and my friend were doing.
We went out to the beautiful foothills behind my house to wait as it kicked in, but changed spots because it got buggy. Like a mushroom trip, at the initial stages you start to notice small details that seem to synchronize the blades of grass were moving in the wind together. I started to feel a bit anxious but it went away. It started getting dark outside so we walked down the trail back to my house but it felt as though the leaves looked purple like or blue. Something felt different.
We got back to my house and my friend said my mudroom looked like the cabin in evil dead, and this made me quickly want to leave the room and shut the door. In my kitchen there is a wood floor with swirls. It was cool to see the beautiful sunflower we grew in our garden. We go and sit in the living room and put on the tv and I still feel anxious, my heart is beating and I have excitement in my chest, we snap on dexters laboratory and the screen is flashing red and it felt super immersive like it was a real red alert. D-dee was creepy.
By this point I am tripping, but I felt as though I had to care for M, I decided to make t and as I got the water from my sink to fill the kettle I see liquid in the sink, it was beautiful and noble. M comes out to the kitchen and we eat dried apricots. I explained how they are the ovaries of trees and he said they were like eating ballsacks. We laugh and I mention how my uncle said lsd and ice cream is good. M said it would be an even better combo if you ate it in a bathtub. I say in an a slow accentuated british accent, that's "Divine"
We then go to my room to look at my tapestries. I feel a lot more comfortable in here, I start to feel ecstasy,joy and excitement because of the dim light. I pull out my fushigi and start contact juggling. M found it impressive. I then pull out tarot card and I got the 2 of wands. The man on the cards has the world in his hands on balcony this is how I felt.
I feel very happy now and make more tea. M begins raiding my cabinets, and I tell him to help himself. An Ice-cream truck drove by and I saw tracers trailing from the back of it. We go outside to get M phone which I tell him not to get, but he said that it made him more comfortable so I said ok. this was a mistake.
We get back in and he lays on the floor, and I thought something was wrong. He said that drugs make him sedated so I said ok. But he started texting all his friends. I didn't like this. We then sit on the tv and he said to turn on the weather channel. I felt like a god changing reality every time I changed the channel. But I knew I just how high i was when I started laughing at a woman whose house was washed away by the flooding. I thought, she should understand that the world doesn't revolve around her and that it's a risk for living on earth. M and I laugh hysterically at the flooding damage. We then put on the reggae channel, and everyone sounds like cookie monster. the colors from the TV are wonderful. I see patterns transposed all around the room that look like paisley things, and on Ms face.
He then explains to me how sex is a mindf*ck, and I understand. The news is on now too, and I think how full of crap society is. Thats the thing about psychedelics they make you see that society is full of needless information. By this time it was getting dark out, and I felt like we were in a space ship flying through infinity. We went ice skating in my kitchen and slid on the floor and walked around my table in circles and laughed. M said he had to take a poo, and I told him to enjoy the psychdellic sh*t. He told me to come to the bathroom and told me the shower M was moving.We went out of the bathroom and stared at my parents door. and thought it was amazing, the wood was beautiful.
We then sat outside and looked at the bright full moon. The trip became intensified. the moon had blue flames and rainbows emanating from it. I saw mandalas,aztec and ancient paisleys in the sky. there were shooting stars too. I started talking to M about how when there is a low in life there is a high, and vice versa. But I was about to eat my words.
Out of the blue, my friend R pulls up in her jeep with her new puppy. My parents before they had gone away had told all the neighbors I couldn't have people over. And I immediately had to decide to let her stay or kick her out. I let her in and offered her a bear, but then she let her hyperactive puppy run around my house and I started to feel very very angry, and afraid that my parents would find out. I told her she had to leave and that now wasn't a good time. She told me to chill out and that it was fine, and that I was tripping. Except it really wasn't even in "real life." She began to try to say that she was in a bad place right now, and I just kept telling her that she had to leave. I began to get increasingly mad and afraid. I felt like this was a test of my maturtity and my adulthood. and that I was honoring my parents. She said to me "really?" with a cocky look on her face, and went to get her puppy, but she couldn't catch him. he started running laps around my house and she started laughing. I was mad, and shaking. I felt like I was angry and synical like my dad, like I wanted to kick the puppy in the head, but instead I went to get it treats, but she grabbed it. She still tried to stay, and since she had taken a sip of her beer, there was still a full glass, she said, are you really going to let me drive now? I WAS LIVID, I walked her out to the deck. Where M tried to pull me aside and get us to go with her but I said no. He said that he might have texted her, and I was angry at him now, but I tried to hide my anger so that he wouldn't have a bad trip either, because this was his first time on psychedelics.
We tried watching a movie about trees, but it had bugs in it that just seemed creepy and then he said it was starting to go bad , but then said something about joking. and that he wanted to shut the tv off, which I didn't want to do. But we tried to go to sleep but were too wired. I started to get really dark thoughts like I could totally lose control and kill myself by slitting my wrists with the knives in the kitchen, but I knew it was irrational. But the thought stayed with me. at this point I was also losing track of time and started to think I would never be able to see my family again, and that I couldn't call an ambulance to save me because my parents work at the hospital and would hear about it.
We tried watching cartoons and I was convinced that they were made for people on acid. In this episode of cat dog they were burping fire on each others faces. I was freaking out. I tried going to my room eventually and gave M my sisters room. And then thought that I could possibly OD on my buspar prescription, but I knew it was irrational but I was afraid that I would do it.
Then at this moment, my ego temporarily shut down. everything that I thought defined me was stripped, utterly and eternally pointless. I couldn't cling to anything I could only just be. This was something I had learned from Buddhism, but because I had a negative spin to the trip it was unpleasant. Yet even though I was experiencing primal terror. I miraculously thought that life is was and will only ever be at the most basic level, a choice between love and fear. also You can't loose your mind because you cannot loose somthign that you are already a part of
I decided to cling to love,I felt as if I were love, and that all there was pure feeling and energy. I began writing how I was feeling on paper and wrote out. I am love, am love, love<----=nirvana and I am consciousness, am consciousness, consciousness<----=Zen Also I started watching alan watts videos, and I felt as though I was a god, a christ, a krishna, a buddha. The light from the moon was illuminating my window and I felt nervous again and tried to fall asleep but couldn't because I was wired from the acid, but I some how managed to nodd of. The next morning I woke and still saw light spirals and tracers This horrified me because I really thought that I wouldn't come off it. and for the morning I just felt anxious, but I challenged the anxious thoughts and held a knife to my wrist just to show myself that I wouldn't cut myself.
I felts sedated for the rest of the day. In all I had taken the acid around 5:00 pm the previous day and stopped seeing stuff
All in all, the person whom I was with was not a good person to trip with, they had not tripped before, so I felt like a I had to put on a strong face and suck up my emotions for them. M also texted R which was completely stupid. Plus We took it at night, when I had class the next day. But I felt obligated to trip, which was a mistake. yet being horrified really helped strip my ego to a fundmental level in which I was experiencing pure consciousness.
I want to explore this place and state again alone, with no people, at a better time, but am afraid I will have those thoughts of suicide. I have ocd so it is very similar to those kind of thoughts, but I wonder if I do it again under a different set and setting if it will turn out differently.
Please give me your feedback!
I do not typically post on bluelight except for when I try a new substance. This past week a friend came back from a festival with some very pure, tested, LSD. In the past I have taken mushrooms several times, "molly", salvia, valium, the occasional bump of adderall and have been smoking weed for a while. Yet I have always had a fascination (or morbid curiousity) with psychedelic drugs, and I have been wanting to try LSD for the past 3 years.
I had enquired with my friend, D about the lsd a week before he went to the festival. It was a pretty decent weekend, my parents were flying away to my cousins wedding, and I had stayed behind to stay on top of my college classes. When I was with my other friend, M, D texted me saying, "who told you?" from that moment I felt excited at the possibility of tripping. Later M and I go to D's place. When I arrive he is cutting up the sheets for me. I had asked for a specific amount but there were less and, but he informed me that they were 2 hits on each sheet.He also gave me a fist pound and told me that he was giving me extra on my sheet.D is trustworthy and wouldn't rip me off. I decided that I wanted to divide them up more, but in retrospect that didn't matter.
After dropping off some of stuff to another friend S me and M went back to my house to trip. In his car we put them on our tong and looked at each other, this was it. For a few split seconds I felt horrified and spit my sheet out, we went into my house to get water btu as we walked back out I found it on the ground picked it up and swallowed it. I wanted to be equal with what me and my friend were doing.
We went out to the beautiful foothills behind my house to wait as it kicked in, but changed spots because it got buggy. Like a mushroom trip, at the initial stages you start to notice small details that seem to synchronize the blades of grass were moving in the wind together. I started to feel a bit anxious but it went away. It started getting dark outside so we walked down the trail back to my house but it felt as though the leaves looked purple like or blue. Something felt different.
We got back to my house and my friend said my mudroom looked like the cabin in evil dead, and this made me quickly want to leave the room and shut the door. In my kitchen there is a wood floor with swirls. It was cool to see the beautiful sunflower we grew in our garden. We go and sit in the living room and put on the tv and I still feel anxious, my heart is beating and I have excitement in my chest, we snap on dexters laboratory and the screen is flashing red and it felt super immersive like it was a real red alert. D-dee was creepy.
By this point I am tripping, but I felt as though I had to care for M, I decided to make t and as I got the water from my sink to fill the kettle I see liquid in the sink, it was beautiful and noble. M comes out to the kitchen and we eat dried apricots. I explained how they are the ovaries of trees and he said they were like eating ballsacks. We laugh and I mention how my uncle said lsd and ice cream is good. M said it would be an even better combo if you ate it in a bathtub. I say in an a slow accentuated british accent, that's "Divine"
We then go to my room to look at my tapestries. I feel a lot more comfortable in here, I start to feel ecstasy,joy and excitement because of the dim light. I pull out my fushigi and start contact juggling. M found it impressive. I then pull out tarot card and I got the 2 of wands. The man on the cards has the world in his hands on balcony this is how I felt.
I feel very happy now and make more tea. M begins raiding my cabinets, and I tell him to help himself. An Ice-cream truck drove by and I saw tracers trailing from the back of it. We go outside to get M phone which I tell him not to get, but he said that it made him more comfortable so I said ok. this was a mistake.
We get back in and he lays on the floor, and I thought something was wrong. He said that drugs make him sedated so I said ok. But he started texting all his friends. I didn't like this. We then sit on the tv and he said to turn on the weather channel. I felt like a god changing reality every time I changed the channel. But I knew I just how high i was when I started laughing at a woman whose house was washed away by the flooding. I thought, she should understand that the world doesn't revolve around her and that it's a risk for living on earth. M and I laugh hysterically at the flooding damage. We then put on the reggae channel, and everyone sounds like cookie monster. the colors from the TV are wonderful. I see patterns transposed all around the room that look like paisley things, and on Ms face.
He then explains to me how sex is a mindf*ck, and I understand. The news is on now too, and I think how full of crap society is. Thats the thing about psychedelics they make you see that society is full of needless information. By this time it was getting dark out, and I felt like we were in a space ship flying through infinity. We went ice skating in my kitchen and slid on the floor and walked around my table in circles and laughed. M said he had to take a poo, and I told him to enjoy the psychdellic sh*t. He told me to come to the bathroom and told me the shower M was moving.We went out of the bathroom and stared at my parents door. and thought it was amazing, the wood was beautiful.
We then sat outside and looked at the bright full moon. The trip became intensified. the moon had blue flames and rainbows emanating from it. I saw mandalas,aztec and ancient paisleys in the sky. there were shooting stars too. I started talking to M about how when there is a low in life there is a high, and vice versa. But I was about to eat my words.
Out of the blue, my friend R pulls up in her jeep with her new puppy. My parents before they had gone away had told all the neighbors I couldn't have people over. And I immediately had to decide to let her stay or kick her out. I let her in and offered her a bear, but then she let her hyperactive puppy run around my house and I started to feel very very angry, and afraid that my parents would find out. I told her she had to leave and that now wasn't a good time. She told me to chill out and that it was fine, and that I was tripping. Except it really wasn't even in "real life." She began to try to say that she was in a bad place right now, and I just kept telling her that she had to leave. I began to get increasingly mad and afraid. I felt like this was a test of my maturtity and my adulthood. and that I was honoring my parents. She said to me "really?" with a cocky look on her face, and went to get her puppy, but she couldn't catch him. he started running laps around my house and she started laughing. I was mad, and shaking. I felt like I was angry and synical like my dad, like I wanted to kick the puppy in the head, but instead I went to get it treats, but she grabbed it. She still tried to stay, and since she had taken a sip of her beer, there was still a full glass, she said, are you really going to let me drive now? I WAS LIVID, I walked her out to the deck. Where M tried to pull me aside and get us to go with her but I said no. He said that he might have texted her, and I was angry at him now, but I tried to hide my anger so that he wouldn't have a bad trip either, because this was his first time on psychedelics.
We tried watching a movie about trees, but it had bugs in it that just seemed creepy and then he said it was starting to go bad , but then said something about joking. and that he wanted to shut the tv off, which I didn't want to do. But we tried to go to sleep but were too wired. I started to get really dark thoughts like I could totally lose control and kill myself by slitting my wrists with the knives in the kitchen, but I knew it was irrational. But the thought stayed with me. at this point I was also losing track of time and started to think I would never be able to see my family again, and that I couldn't call an ambulance to save me because my parents work at the hospital and would hear about it.
We tried watching cartoons and I was convinced that they were made for people on acid. In this episode of cat dog they were burping fire on each others faces. I was freaking out. I tried going to my room eventually and gave M my sisters room. And then thought that I could possibly OD on my buspar prescription, but I knew it was irrational but I was afraid that I would do it.
Then at this moment, my ego temporarily shut down. everything that I thought defined me was stripped, utterly and eternally pointless. I couldn't cling to anything I could only just be. This was something I had learned from Buddhism, but because I had a negative spin to the trip it was unpleasant. Yet even though I was experiencing primal terror. I miraculously thought that life is was and will only ever be at the most basic level, a choice between love and fear. also You can't loose your mind because you cannot loose somthign that you are already a part of
I decided to cling to love,I felt as if I were love, and that all there was pure feeling and energy. I began writing how I was feeling on paper and wrote out. I am love, am love, love<----=nirvana and I am consciousness, am consciousness, consciousness<----=Zen Also I started watching alan watts videos, and I felt as though I was a god, a christ, a krishna, a buddha. The light from the moon was illuminating my window and I felt nervous again and tried to fall asleep but couldn't because I was wired from the acid, but I some how managed to nodd of. The next morning I woke and still saw light spirals and tracers This horrified me because I really thought that I wouldn't come off it. and for the morning I just felt anxious, but I challenged the anxious thoughts and held a knife to my wrist just to show myself that I wouldn't cut myself.
I felts sedated for the rest of the day. In all I had taken the acid around 5:00 pm the previous day and stopped seeing stuff
All in all, the person whom I was with was not a good person to trip with, they had not tripped before, so I felt like a I had to put on a strong face and suck up my emotions for them. M also texted R which was completely stupid. Plus We took it at night, when I had class the next day. But I felt obligated to trip, which was a mistake. yet being horrified really helped strip my ego to a fundmental level in which I was experiencing pure consciousness.
I want to explore this place and state again alone, with no people, at a better time, but am afraid I will have those thoughts of suicide. I have ocd so it is very similar to those kind of thoughts, but I wonder if I do it again under a different set and setting if it will turn out differently.
Please give me your feedback!
