This was my first ever trip and it was really frightening. I had a bad trip. I'm kinda inexperienced when it comes to these types of drugs, and I have sociopathic tendencies... never been diagnosed with AsPD tho several people in my family are.. if that matters at all, aha. This drug made me feel emotions that I don't think I've ever felt before.
My friend and I had planned to leave school yesterday morning to trip on DXM together. It didn't really work out as planned. She doesn't have a phone so we had to rely on Facebook to talk to each other. She wasn't in school so I left and sat in a park and took all 20 of the robo-gels in a bottle. i had another bottle for her. I was just sitting there, bored as shit and extra hot so i went into this cafe and bought a bottle of water. Nothing was happening, a little vertigo maybe. I listened to music for a little then I left and went to this empty stairwell in the parking garage of a supermarket that me and my friends usually smoke at. I was sitting there listening to music when I got really nauseous and i was gagging and dry heaving over the railing. I threw up a little. This happened twice then I felt good but kinda drunk so I sat back down and contemplated going somewhere, but it was way too hot. I eventually did and by then I was REALLY high. it was so hard to walk down the stairs (was a couple flights) and i was enjoying it. I walked to this starbucks and had some weird thoughts and i was a little confused and scared/paranoid. I was seeing cops everywhere and trying to avoid them. I had a mini panic attack when I saw a police van that said "warrant unit" on it, thinking they were coming to get me, but they just drove by.
i got to the starbucks and laid on this chair and felt a little nauseous again. the room was spinning, and if I moved my eyes up and down, the things in the room would follow it. It was so trippy and I kept having these weird bad thoughts. I felt like time was passing a lot but it actually wasn't that long. I took the pills at 9:55 and then it was around 11:25. I was watching people come and go and after a while I moved seats and felt very uncomfortable, like a weed high. Whenever I smoke weed I notice all these uncomfortable things like my clothes are itchy, etc. My friend messaged me and we were supposed to meet later at a park. I got up and went to the bathroom and looked into the mirror and my face was greenish and i couldn't stop staring at my acne. I left and started walking to that park.
when i got to the park I sat on a bench and tried to sleep but it didn't work at all. I felt really bad, not nauseaous but I really did NOT want to be high anymore. Im used to weed highs that last a few hours and taper off but this was a few hours and still going strong. I would get up and walk around then sit back down on the bench. Whenever I looked around everything was spinning and weird. My toungue felt really odd in my mouth. I would look at my hand and I saw a magnifying glass and my hand really detailed. Then i saw blackness and a million TV screens and on each, my hand looked different, as if a different filter was put on it. One looked like my hand was made out of clay, etc. I got up and sat on a bench. A man talked to me and said I looked sad, looked like I was about to cry & asked if I was okay. The only thing I could say was "yeah...". It felt so weird to talk, like I was underwater or something.
I kept having these scary and uncomfortable realizations, like I barely even know who my mom is... and since I recently told her some stuff our relationship isn't the same. Also, I kept imagining that my life would be different from then on, worse, because I was realizing all these bad things in my life. I saw my life as yin and yang, but it was two squares, they were diagonal from eachother and touching by the lower square's top right corner and the higher one's lower left corner. The higher square was lit up around the edges in white neon lighting. it was my life as I saw it. the lower square was lit up the same way , but it was black. It was my life and everything I did in my life, but upside down & reversed. It was a parallel universe and I believed to be in that at that moment. My heart was beating fast.
My friend messaged me to go to this other park to meet her then we'd leave. I went and all these people tried to talk to me but I couldn't talk. me and her eventually left and we held hands which was so odd. I'm a straight girl, and I was thinking that I loved her and stuff, but it was in a friendship way. I do not have many friends and rarely ever connect with people like that, so it was nice. She made me feel better. we were talking and walking to the other park, this was maybe 2 pm. I gave her the bottle of pills and she began taking them a little before this. We sat on the same bench I was sitting on and I began to dry heave again over the back of the bench. I was crying and moaning and choking/coughing and i wanted to die. I kept saying, im having a bad trip, and some crazy stuff was happening in my head but I don't remember. We lit up a joint and began smoking, and the first few hits I took I realized I was TOO high, and I didn't want to be that way. Everything was spinning up and down like a slot machine. I imagined my whole life up to that very moment as the mere seconds leading up to my death, and that I was going to die. I saw blackness again, and i saw one small old tv set (the one with antennae) it was yellow. I saw a newscaster and I was looking at things, but she was basically reporting my death, and the news was filming the spot I was at. It looked like the TV & news caster from the beginning of the 1992 movie of Romeo and Juliet, the one with Leo Decaprio. I didn't want to die, I was scared but I had accepted that I was about to die and I wished I had never taken the pills because that would've stopped the chain reaction that led to my death. My friend was comforting me and stuff...
I just had to get out of there so we walked to a grass park and laid down. I was coming down and feeling better. She was vomiting and coming up. I felt bad for her but I didn't know how to comfort her because I'm not good in those situations. So I just watched her breathe to make sure she wasn't dead. I feel a weird affinity for her. I have never felt that before for anyone.
Im never trying this again! I have bad writing and describing skills, but this was WAY scarier than I can type & describe... Im still shook up and am debating staying away from weed & other drugs.
Edit: I forgot to add that when I was laying down on the grass I heard my heart beating as a clock or bomb ticking... so trippy. it was really an out of body experience b/c when I talked I could hear it as if someone else said it and it felt like I hadn't even moved my mouth, and i couldn't talk... and it was very dissociative too.
My friend and I had planned to leave school yesterday morning to trip on DXM together. It didn't really work out as planned. She doesn't have a phone so we had to rely on Facebook to talk to each other. She wasn't in school so I left and sat in a park and took all 20 of the robo-gels in a bottle. i had another bottle for her. I was just sitting there, bored as shit and extra hot so i went into this cafe and bought a bottle of water. Nothing was happening, a little vertigo maybe. I listened to music for a little then I left and went to this empty stairwell in the parking garage of a supermarket that me and my friends usually smoke at. I was sitting there listening to music when I got really nauseous and i was gagging and dry heaving over the railing. I threw up a little. This happened twice then I felt good but kinda drunk so I sat back down and contemplated going somewhere, but it was way too hot. I eventually did and by then I was REALLY high. it was so hard to walk down the stairs (was a couple flights) and i was enjoying it. I walked to this starbucks and had some weird thoughts and i was a little confused and scared/paranoid. I was seeing cops everywhere and trying to avoid them. I had a mini panic attack when I saw a police van that said "warrant unit" on it, thinking they were coming to get me, but they just drove by.
i got to the starbucks and laid on this chair and felt a little nauseous again. the room was spinning, and if I moved my eyes up and down, the things in the room would follow it. It was so trippy and I kept having these weird bad thoughts. I felt like time was passing a lot but it actually wasn't that long. I took the pills at 9:55 and then it was around 11:25. I was watching people come and go and after a while I moved seats and felt very uncomfortable, like a weed high. Whenever I smoke weed I notice all these uncomfortable things like my clothes are itchy, etc. My friend messaged me and we were supposed to meet later at a park. I got up and went to the bathroom and looked into the mirror and my face was greenish and i couldn't stop staring at my acne. I left and started walking to that park.
when i got to the park I sat on a bench and tried to sleep but it didn't work at all. I felt really bad, not nauseaous but I really did NOT want to be high anymore. Im used to weed highs that last a few hours and taper off but this was a few hours and still going strong. I would get up and walk around then sit back down on the bench. Whenever I looked around everything was spinning and weird. My toungue felt really odd in my mouth. I would look at my hand and I saw a magnifying glass and my hand really detailed. Then i saw blackness and a million TV screens and on each, my hand looked different, as if a different filter was put on it. One looked like my hand was made out of clay, etc. I got up and sat on a bench. A man talked to me and said I looked sad, looked like I was about to cry & asked if I was okay. The only thing I could say was "yeah...". It felt so weird to talk, like I was underwater or something.
I kept having these scary and uncomfortable realizations, like I barely even know who my mom is... and since I recently told her some stuff our relationship isn't the same. Also, I kept imagining that my life would be different from then on, worse, because I was realizing all these bad things in my life. I saw my life as yin and yang, but it was two squares, they were diagonal from eachother and touching by the lower square's top right corner and the higher one's lower left corner. The higher square was lit up around the edges in white neon lighting. it was my life as I saw it. the lower square was lit up the same way , but it was black. It was my life and everything I did in my life, but upside down & reversed. It was a parallel universe and I believed to be in that at that moment. My heart was beating fast.
My friend messaged me to go to this other park to meet her then we'd leave. I went and all these people tried to talk to me but I couldn't talk. me and her eventually left and we held hands which was so odd. I'm a straight girl, and I was thinking that I loved her and stuff, but it was in a friendship way. I do not have many friends and rarely ever connect with people like that, so it was nice. She made me feel better. we were talking and walking to the other park, this was maybe 2 pm. I gave her the bottle of pills and she began taking them a little before this. We sat on the same bench I was sitting on and I began to dry heave again over the back of the bench. I was crying and moaning and choking/coughing and i wanted to die. I kept saying, im having a bad trip, and some crazy stuff was happening in my head but I don't remember. We lit up a joint and began smoking, and the first few hits I took I realized I was TOO high, and I didn't want to be that way. Everything was spinning up and down like a slot machine. I imagined my whole life up to that very moment as the mere seconds leading up to my death, and that I was going to die. I saw blackness again, and i saw one small old tv set (the one with antennae) it was yellow. I saw a newscaster and I was looking at things, but she was basically reporting my death, and the news was filming the spot I was at. It looked like the TV & news caster from the beginning of the 1992 movie of Romeo and Juliet, the one with Leo Decaprio. I didn't want to die, I was scared but I had accepted that I was about to die and I wished I had never taken the pills because that would've stopped the chain reaction that led to my death. My friend was comforting me and stuff...
I just had to get out of there so we walked to a grass park and laid down. I was coming down and feeling better. She was vomiting and coming up. I felt bad for her but I didn't know how to comfort her because I'm not good in those situations. So I just watched her breathe to make sure she wasn't dead. I feel a weird affinity for her. I have never felt that before for anyone.
Im never trying this again! I have bad writing and describing skills, but this was WAY scarier than I can type & describe... Im still shook up and am debating staying away from weed & other drugs.
Edit: I forgot to add that when I was laying down on the grass I heard my heart beating as a clock or bomb ticking... so trippy. it was really an out of body experience b/c when I talked I could hear it as if someone else said it and it felt like I hadn't even moved my mouth, and i couldn't talk... and it was very dissociative too.
And by a bit of weed I mean a hit or two, or else it gets very, very overwhelming.
