Drugs spiked with confusion (untitled #?)

[raver_goddess777]

let me hide inside this dream i built up just for me,
i shun the reflection in the mirror,
i want to run away,
far from reality,
i want the fairy tale i have dreampt of,
breath each minute incognito,
let it pump through out my viens,
but with each heart-beat my blood turns sour...
i pray i will awake from all of this,
and learn of the deamons game,
but as the days pass,
and see that each tear that i have shed is true,
i find myself intoxicated again...
this is a dream within a dream,
and i can see myself looking down,
but i can not speak to warn the morrow...
i wish i could change yesterday,
as if i could make it serene,
yet if i change today,
would i want to change tomorrow?...
this is a hurt within,
like a diease i can not cure,
i want to make it all go away,
let me live in this artifical utopia,
i have longed to fill this emptiness,
with what i'm not sure,
i think it is the pain i want to over come,
and so what if it makes me weaker?
i long for so much but what?
does this designer drug really make me happy?
i'm not sure if i've ever felt truely euphoric before...
i want a true taste of bliss,
then glutton myself if it's as sweet as i have been told...
i sult in this corner,
the imaninary place i have made,
is a retreat from society,
or is it an escape from myself?...
i dislike the image is see staring back at me,
or do i love it so much i want to break it,
shatter the image,
but how can i?,
if i'm already in so many pieces?
it's like i'm trapped inside this world,
i try to step through the other side of the looking glass,
but i'm not sure what side i'm on now...
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"Keep the good times rolling"

 

[RaVeN_pkfl]

oh my god!! I think I now have a new favorite poem. That was the deepest thing I have ever read. Word for word it described the hell, for lack of a better word, that I have been living for who knows how long. Thank you very much and keep writing.

 

[RaVeN_pkfl]

Ok, I know I just replied to this like a minute ago but I just read it again and can't get over how perfect it is. There isn't ONE word I would change or one feeling that I haven't been living. You just helped me alot by making sense out of a senseless life. Thank you.

 

[raver_goddess777]

thanks for your reply, i'm glad i can help. this poem is all about me, and to tell you the truth, i bet it's not far off a lot of other people. it means a lot to me to hear what you think.
PLUR