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Drugs - a beacon in the night for you?

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Ismene2

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Must admit that drugs make life worth staying around for. If I couldn't trip once a week I might wonder what else in life it was worth staying around for
 
I basically never really think about drugs in the daytime now (since quitting meth) and up until about 5 PM my mind thinks its happy and fulfilled. But somewhere between there and about 7 PM everything gets totally destabilised and all I’m thinking about is getting some kind of drug, any drug, into me as soon as possible. Doesn’t/‘t matter whether it/s MDMA, ACID, kET or whatever but once the son is down and I’m alone in my flat with no human-type distractions it becomes an obsessive desire that is very hard to shake.
 
If I couldn't smoke heroin once per hour I also would have given up on life prolly

Same for smoking weed, snorting coke and xtc, and of course the most necessary medicine, benzos
 
Heroin honestly saved my life during a very dark time. Which yeah I know is basically sacrilege to say. The only acceptable thing to say about this particular drug, the only thing you're SUPPOSED to say, is how it ruined your life and is Satan in a syringe and how you wish you'd never ever touched it etc etc.
But this would be dishonest for me. It was, at one point, the only thing I had that could afford me some emotional distance from shit that was unbearable.

.. Of course it could also just as easily have killed me (which would not be the case if one could have access to the pharmaceutical version which is non-contaminated and can be accurately dosed).

I was willing to take that risk because otherwise I'd have just straight - up taken my own life. Yeah I made an A-star train wreck of myself with heroin for a few years but it's also what enabled me to mentally survive.

Thankfully now have other things that fulfil me and that make my continued existence worthwhile. (Still love my H and my opium though.)
 
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The UltimateFixx said:
Heroin honestly saved my life during a very dark time. Which yeah I know is basically sacrilege to say. The only acceptable thing to say about this particular drug, the only thing you're SUPPOSED to say, is how it ruined your life and is Satan in a syringe and how you wish you'd never ever touched it etc etc.
But this would be dishonest for me. It was, at one point, the only thing I had that could afford me some emotional distance from shit that was unbearable.

.. Of course it could also just as easily have killed me (which would not be the case if one could have access to the pharmaceutical version which is non-contaminated and can be accurately dosed).

I was willing to take that risk because otherwise I'd have just straight - up taken my own life. Yeah I made an A-star train wreck of myself with heroin for a few years but it's also what enabled me to mentally survive.

Thankfully now have other things that fulfil me and that make my continued existence worthwhile. (Still love my H and my opium though.)
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True say. I may be a fool but im less of a fool for learning thru heroin adiction how folks are. Heroin saved me from alcohol. It still does.

Wish i could find d mushrooms. And a the psyches enabledand kicked my ass to change. My life for better.
 
StoneHappyMonday said:
Ismene I've got a relationship, job, kid, etc etc and I still wouldn't fancy a life without drugs. Drugs are fucking good.
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I have a career, partner, mortgage, kids etc...and honestly I don't have the stomach for drugs any more.

I'll take a nice curry, some beers and a good night's sleep these days.
 
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