Seriously I've just got to FB to talk to a colleague about a project we're doing and then bammmm I see this beautiful girl's photo trying out a new costume, then I go and check her relationship status, then I go to her bf's page and look his photos, they are some models or shit, the guy's on a boat with his gf and sister kissing him and it all makes me so pissed...I look at my girlfriend just across the room where she's cooking and basically tell her that she's shitty since she she might not be that attractive or at least doesn't dress up like that, well she doesn't react...
And there I am basically getting in a parallel realty in my head, I am not anymore in my room, my gf who's here is like not even around, my life is not interesting but I want those of others'...Wherever I look, whoever I look I just want to take something from them, some beautiful traits and moments until I fill a bag...not a bag but a castle of all those valuable things to be just mine...Wherever I look I feel like I am missing on everything, I want it all all...A thirst for everything, and a huge feeling of lacking in everything though no one would say that, if you looked at me just a normal guy even respected and envied by those around...But I so much feel I have nothing and thus need seek more and more from everything and everyone.
The problem is that though I always had that feeling, nowadays it getting a bit out of control, daydreams and parallel realities going on in my head, I just walk around the room and talk to myself, and still nobody's asking why and is it "normal" to put it that way.
Are one-upping and comparing also a problem of yours?
And there I am basically getting in a parallel realty in my head, I am not anymore in my room, my gf who's here is like not even around, my life is not interesting but I want those of others'...Wherever I look, whoever I look I just want to take something from them, some beautiful traits and moments until I fill a bag...not a bag but a castle of all those valuable things to be just mine...Wherever I look I feel like I am missing on everything, I want it all all...A thirst for everything, and a huge feeling of lacking in everything though no one would say that, if you looked at me just a normal guy even respected and envied by those around...But I so much feel I have nothing and thus need seek more and more from everything and everyone.
The problem is that though I always had that feeling, nowadays it getting a bit out of control, daydreams and parallel realities going on in my head, I just walk around the room and talk to myself, and still nobody's asking why and is it "normal" to put it that way.
Are one-upping and comparing also a problem of yours?
