I think i figured that out the hard way. I thought I would just use SSI until I graduated and had a better chance of finding and keeping employment. I even went as far to get an apartment and sign up at unvi. Well, I didn't even make it months.. this isn't my first failed at attempt at college either its one of many. I fell into a deep depression and the pressure got to me and I just quit, and now owe back part of my tuition. I think i just have to accept i am not college material, because i keep effin up.
As far my apartment, it costs more than I make I was using some of college loans to help with that. Now I need out of there, and it likely they are not going to let me out of me lease. I feel pretty fucked.
I am not going to have family to live with for much longer, and there is no assistance available all the waiting lists are closed.
Yes my issues are pretty disabling and knowing now that I wont really be able to make it even after getting SSI is just putting salt in the wound. I am embarrassed that I am 24 and disabled.. now with no employment history or chances of getting education the more I think about it the more I just want to end it all.
I have medical evaluation in a year and I don't have the same doc that helped me get on SSI anymore the one replaced him is an ass, and I highly doubt he will help me.
I don't want to live like this the rest of my life, and I cant see how I stay full time employed if I cant handle just a couple college classes, easy ones at that. I am always freaking out have anxiety over the littlest of things, I cant focus at all.
Too bad that Gun stores do checks on mental history background.. or I think I would get a gun and give the state back there measly $600 a month.