GalaxyNinja66
Bluelighter
Okay before I start, some background, I've smoked weed here and there, done speed before tests, and experimented with benzos (klonapin) but nothing feels better to me then a stiff drink, I was young when I started... I remember that feel, even the most simple buzz made life feel nice and people easy to talk to (the reason I love it), I had found "the one"! not speed, not weed, or even kpins, no this actually improved my life! It made me who I wanted to be! Fast forward a few years later, I'm broke, my parents hide it from me, and I need it just to talk to people who aren't like, CLOSE friends... Usually, I drink 2 shots of 80 proof vodka, and then slowly drinking more (4-6 shots worth) over the coarse of my day, I still sometimes have to cut short to avoid getting smashed in class (and my calc. teacher is a HAWK about drinking). If I miss a day (as is NO alcohol, either due to money issues or my 'rents finding my stash) I don't get any physical withdrawals, but I'm sad. Not sad because I'm not drunk, but sad because I have no confidence, I can't just walk up to say Susan (fake name) and tell her shes beautiful and come off as sincere and confident, I can't talk to a new group of people, or have fun in general. Lately I've been broke 24/7, My parents take any money they find on me, and I'm on house-arrest... I've been extracting alcohol from purrel bottles lately, but now they're starting to catch on, so I've been getting desperate and trying to get it from anything I can, like insect repellent...
I ask because two moderators have said I should seek therapy, I am in therapy!
But I ask you fellow blue lighters and previous addicts,
Do I have a problem?
I ask because two moderators have said I should seek therapy, I am in therapy!
But I ask you fellow blue lighters and previous addicts,
Do I have a problem?
