i have never used H, and at the moment are healthy with an abundant stock of poppy pods and oxycodone, and as much as i love painkillers, i cannot fully enjoy the high because i worry about my breathing. for instance last night at 7pm i drank a brew consisting of two tasmanian purple pods at work (my job is very focused on customer service and having people skills) and i was absolutely fine, the thanksgiving business working my high to death.
i got out at 10, did some online shopping on my computer (barely high at this point) then at 12 i took a shower, planning to call it a night at one. right before i went to bed i noticed my eyes were mercury red (possibly from the skin peeling hot shower), to lay down and notice i couldn't feel my lungs. i had not nodded all night, and all of a sudden with the addition of my i pod (almost typed opioid) i was nodding intensely and couldn't force myself to get up.
i was afraid of going to sleep but found myself waking up over and over again (i know most people who try to sleep on opiates only nod in and out of reality all night) i must have gotten up 3 or 4 times to look in my bathroom mirror to see if my lips or fingernails were blue (they weren't) but i was panicing at this point, and to some extent still are.
for the last 3 weeks i have been taking an opiate every other day, wednesday and thursday i used consecutively, as did i this morning to vanquish the neuroticism. what i felt on that bed i may have felt before (i never used to get freaked by my breathing until a bad experience mixing benzos, and i never used to consider brain damage simply because there was no evidence for it) what i felt was pretty euphoric.
so basically, is this nod/sleep i'm describing, with the relaxation of breathing normal for H or pharmaceutical opiate users? is this part of the opiate high everyone else gets? or am i getting "too muh" of it? surely opium cannot be stronger than heroin? i only weigh like 107 pounds if that's important?
i got out at 10, did some online shopping on my computer (barely high at this point) then at 12 i took a shower, planning to call it a night at one. right before i went to bed i noticed my eyes were mercury red (possibly from the skin peeling hot shower), to lay down and notice i couldn't feel my lungs. i had not nodded all night, and all of a sudden with the addition of my i pod (almost typed opioid) i was nodding intensely and couldn't force myself to get up.
i was afraid of going to sleep but found myself waking up over and over again (i know most people who try to sleep on opiates only nod in and out of reality all night) i must have gotten up 3 or 4 times to look in my bathroom mirror to see if my lips or fingernails were blue (they weren't) but i was panicing at this point, and to some extent still are.
for the last 3 weeks i have been taking an opiate every other day, wednesday and thursday i used consecutively, as did i this morning to vanquish the neuroticism. what i felt on that bed i may have felt before (i never used to get freaked by my breathing until a bad experience mixing benzos, and i never used to consider brain damage simply because there was no evidence for it) what i felt was pretty euphoric.
so basically, is this nod/sleep i'm describing, with the relaxation of breathing normal for H or pharmaceutical opiate users? is this part of the opiate high everyone else gets? or am i getting "too muh" of it? surely opium cannot be stronger than heroin? i only weigh like 107 pounds if that's important?
