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Dibilitating Anxiety

Lucid Dream

Lucid Dream

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I have struggled with this since I was 6 years old. I found that I turned to certain drugs to take this away. I have been in my room for 3 years now. All I do is try to learn. I have paranoia that keeps me from going into public, because I start coming up with conspiracies as to why people are trying to kill me. My average heart rate is 107 bpm. I suffer from so many of the symptoms of anxiety that it really makes it hard to hide. I just got a job offer, and I don't think I can go. When you have an anxiety attack at work on your first day, usually you get laid off. I live in a very bad neighborhood. my car and my brothers car where both broken into. My brother was held at gun point in a store parking lot, and got his clothes stolen from him. 3 months later he was at a friends house that got robbed. Also my house was robbed and I was the only one home, and when I woke up the already had my gun and a butcher knife in there hands. So if anyone feels they have answers let me ask some questions. Do I need professional help? Is there anyone out there that can relate to this. Not relate like, I had a anxiety attack before. I mean dealing with for years, and if so how did you fix yourself. My brain wants to figure out its own problems and I want to fix them on my own, but maybe that's my problem. Anything you have to say that you think might help me I would love to hear it.
 
I just wanted to add that drugs are not the cause of this. In fact I was diagnosed at 5, then again at 7. I started taking medicine for it at 12-14 years old. As the years have gone by, it just gets worse. I'm currently taking 200mg Zoloft everyday, after the first month I felt a bit better, but after 6 months the Zoloft has lost all effect.
 
hey mate, sad to hear about your illness..
i suffered drug induced anxiety a while ago now, i was taking zoloft but only 50mg, along side CBT pschology. my main help in curing anxiety was a steady diet and a stable work life balence! i worked out a program to calculate the amount of work sleep and play i was getting.

i know this isnt much but these basic things can improve so much, wish you the very best of luck to beat this prick of an illness
 
you definitely need professional help,what your're having is super severe anxiety issues.its not something you can do on your own.
 
littlesparkle said:
you definitely need professional help,what your're having is super severe anxiety issues.its not something you can do on your own.
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you definitely need professional help - and you should probably always have a Xanax on you. You will know the Xanax will calm you down so whenever you take the Xanax you'll probably immediately nip the problem in the bud. SLowly you'll probably grow and gain confidence. Stable life is also important as mentionned above.
 
get help man, ive gone through some very bad anxiety in my life.

im currently on lexapro and remeron, seem to help. klonopin when i go out.
 
I've had varying levels of anxiety for years. Sometimes it has been manageable whereas other times I've gotten to the point of breaking down. I've been in therapy over the past year which has helped a lot, and have started taking a fairly low-dose of alprazolam which has also been a life-saver. Meditation and exercise have also been magical for anxiety.

There's nothing wrong with reaching out and getting professional help, it has definitely helped me out a lot. Give it a try...
 
I have high anxiety, and took effexor for 2 months before deciding that SSRIs weren't for me. Professional help wasn't an option for me due to the high cost, but I started reading into Buddhism / expanding consciousness / attending satsang / and doing meditation which really helped. Focus on the present, and exercise. Seriously. Think of how many hours you use recreationally (browsing the internet, watching TV, etc...) and just dedicate 1/2 an hour to exercise a day and it makes a big improvement. It at least did for me :)

Good luck
 
You know the more you worry about your anxiety the worse it's gonna get . And that's been proven.

Try and get out more
 
jamesmartin said:
You know the more you worry about your anxiety the worse it's gonna get . And that's been proven.

Try and get out more
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Wow. I don't really know where to start with a statement like that. Clearly you have never experienced the godawful, paralyzing effects of a severe anxiety disorder. I suffer from severe social anxiety and have since I was quite young. Lol but if only i'd read your advice years ago, I could have saved myself so much misery. Silly me! The thing with my anxiety is I know it's completely irrational but knowing that doesnt make it stop or make it any easier to "get out more." The anxiety the op is refering to isnt the same as getting stressed about some task at work or paper for class. It's so much more and if you don't have problems with it you can never really understand it. I had terrible, terrible anxiety all of my childhood, it was the worst in high school. When I left for college I began drinking and using and for once in my life I felt normal. It was the most amazing feeling ever, to shut my brain off and finally feel okay enough to go places and be able to be in social situations without having panic attacks. After a decade of mostly heroin use, I moved a thousand miles from home and started at a methadone clinic. I have only done two shots in the past almost eleven months. My anxiety is back, worse since i'm in a new place. I get panic attacks if there are too many people on the same grocery aisle as me lol. So i stay in my house and watch tv. I worked for a few months but it didnt go well. I have an appt w/a psychiatrist next week finally. I dont want to lie but know if i'm honest about my past use I will only get more antidepressants thrown at me which havent done shit in the past. I've been honest with ones in the past which turned out to be a mistake. Is there anything besides a benzo that could help? -my apologies this is all one paragraph, i'm on my phone.
 
It sounds like your paranoia is half-anxiety and half-psychosis. You could have mania from the Zoloft. Talking to your prescribing doctor would be a great idea.

It is not uncommon for SSRI's to "poop out" and just stop working. You can switch within that group (SSRI's) or change to an SNRI or DRI or something like Remeron.
 
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