How many months was your bender, was Bud Light your typical drink, how much did you drink roughly in a day, what are the extent of your DTs besides the shakes? A medical professional would be definitely be your priority, but if you only had a short (3-4 month) stint with stuff like light beer you may have some hope. A medical professional would be best hough.
I cold turkeyed for a few days on a several year vodka habit that was averaging 750ml-1.75 liter vodka a day at the end, I had no idea of booze WD severity at the time. Besides severe shakes, horendous malaise, and intense anxiety, I experienced a minor visual hallucination for a couple days (no pink elephants more like an undulating pattern overlaid on my field of view). And loss of motor coordination for a couple days after that. I dont know how typical my experience is but I met a fellow addict in the program who drank just a bit more than me, our situations were pretty similar, but instead of a seizure he had a stroke(!) that permanently damaged his back upon withdrawal. Youll stop shaking in a couple weeks, pry no longer than a month. It can take a year for your brain to start producing dopamine at regular levels again though. It took me about 3 weeks to a month to feel somewhat "normal" after cessation and several long months to cope with the problems that caused my drinking.
Why are you drinking like your life is worthless (Im not judging you, I have some fuckin issues)? If you dont address the underlying issues that monkey on your back is literally gonna kill you through the lovely process of organ failure. A girlfriend of a few years dumped me which added to my already heavy drinking at the time, which compounded several problems leading to depression that drained me emotionally, among other things. I drank almost a half gallon of vodka on most Friday/Saturdays and a 5th at least for weekdays, I passed out everyday and did the "double day" for ahwile then finally I was just blacked the fuck out if I wasnt sleeping.
That was 3 years ago and I still struggle with booze abstinence but its not really even a big part of my life anymore. Im still dealing with wreckage from those days all the time, but Ive accepted that I am a changed human being and do everything possible to prevent another spiral in life. The part that sucks the most, is that ultimately my life went to shambles over a tiny insignificant problem that wasnt worth a drop of trouble. Sort these issues out now while you can, you could easily run dry again soon and catch a stroke or seizure. I know you arent trying to read a wall of text, but my point is that you can fix these smaller issues beneath your drinking, you can regain your life. You must work through these issues now while they are still manageable because its only going to get worse.
If you dont stop drinking like this, you are going to die. Death is a permanent affliction and we only have 1 shot at this motherfucker. We are true drunks and our monkies will always howl, but were also men and humans who deserve a little internal peace and that shit we threw away awhile ago called dignity (dignity?).
If its not depression or underlying issues, you really gotta change your habits man. You cant stay shitfaced and passed out forever. Not only are your vital organs starting to wilt this world around you is passing you by. And the next stop on this train is death. Youre gonna die and shit all over yourself because you couldnt leave the damn cap on a fucking bottle of booze. I dunno how much you love your parents or vice versa, but most dont like to carry their kids caskets through a cemetery begging God for your eternal peace. This is your chance to fix this shit, dont let it go. PM me whenever you can if you need some words of encouragement. Good luck man
