Yesterday I tried acid for the first time. I only had half a tab, but it was fairly strong. I probably only got to plateau 2 though. I took the half tab at 12pm. The peak was very good, everything felt different and I was laughing tons, but the whole comedown was extremely bad. I just felt so bored, it felt like I was never going to achieve anything in life and that I would never be happy. This lasted until I slept at 10pm. Today when I woke up I've been feeling really crap, not a "burnt out" feeling, just really bad in general. It feels like I'm thinking too much, that's what the acid did and I hated it. I don't plan to do acid again, but is this crappy feeling temporary? I really hope it is.
Depression the day after first trip?
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nearjat
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You probably have residual anxiety/stimulation causing the over thinking. It'll go away. The boredness is probably because of a bad setting. When you're still all wired up on LSD with NOTHING to do, it's easy to get bored and spiral into negativity. This happens to me when i trip alone in my room.
Well I was tripping at home, and my brother didn't want to talk (he wasn't tripping, he was sober) so yeah I was pretty much tripping alone in my room. But the negativity only started right after the peak. Like I'd be watching TV and I'd be overthinking every ad I see and it'd make me feel crap for some reason, like I have to find something negative with everything.
nearjat
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Dont watch TV while tripping on acid lol, acid makes you think, and there isn't a lot of positivity to be found in TV ads.
I suggest trying again sometime, with one or two other people also tripping. But have a better setting, like nature. Or just occupy yourself with something other than TV, try drawing, meditating, anything more "wholesome" with a bit of substance. Sometimes just having another tripping person to talk to is plenty.
Don't feel bad, you couldn't have known it unless you're told, but you kinda set yourself up for a bad trip.
I suggest trying again sometime, with one or two other people also tripping. But have a better setting, like nature. Or just occupy yourself with something other than TV, try drawing, meditating, anything more "wholesome" with a bit of substance. Sometimes just having another tripping person to talk to is plenty.
Don't feel bad, you couldn't have known it unless you're told, but you kinda set yourself up for a bad trip.
Alright, thankyou so much. Because the last few hours of the trip were some of the most depressing hours of my life. But I can already feel the sadness going away. I may choose to trip again, but not for a long time. I was really worried I had fucked up my brain or something. I know that may sound stupid since I only had half a tab one time, but I thought I had screwed up some chemicals in my brain or something.
nearjat
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Naw that's unlikely/impossible. But an intense experience (positive or negative) CAN profoundly effect you for the rest of your life. My first LSD trip changed the way I saw the world forever, very much for the better. I find it easier to appreciate the connections we all have to each other, and everything else in the universe. Essentially I "learned" that we are all infinite, and that we are all One.
Others may have a terrible, terrible trip and get seriously shaken up for as long as YEARS afterwords. Lucy aint no joke
Others may have a terrible, terrible trip and get seriously shaken up for as long as YEARS afterwords. Lucy aint no joke
Naw that's unlikely/impossible. But an intense experience (positive or negative) CAN profoundly effect you for the rest of your life. My first LSD trip changed the way I saw the world forever, very much for the better. I find it easier to appreciate the connections we all have to each other, and everything else in the universe. Essentially I "learned" that we are all infinite, and that we are all One.
Others may have a terrible, terrible trip and get seriously shaken up for as long as YEARS afterwords. Lucy aint no joke
Yeah, that's what I'm worried about if I was ever to take acid again. But what worries me is this ego-death thing. I realise that it would not happen unless I took a lot more than half a tab, but the idea of losing your identity seems like it would screw your life over bad. How would you be able to achieve anything if you are not confident in who you are? it seems like you would just lose all initiative and confidence to go out and achieve what ever it is you want to do in life, and I really would not like that to happen.
jamaica0535
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Take a full tab the next time....
Its kind of difficult to get bored if your tripping moderately hard....
TV is really never encouraged for tripping.
Draw, color, make music, stare at your ceiling, paint a mural, go for a walk, listen to music, eat exotic fruits you have never tried before, do something creative.....
Know that the mind has a remarkable ability to put all the pieces back together, it can just take some time. Most of us here have eaten more psychedelics at once than most would consider reasonable, and its actually kind of difficult to fuck up your mind in a permanent way if you have no family history or predisposition to mental illness....
After my first acid trip on 1.5 hits, i hardly spoke for 3 days... I wanted to, i felt a need to speak about the experience but i just couldn't find words. It was powerful and life changing for the better. Writing it all out on paper and trying to put it into words helped me sort out my thoughts...
It may seem kind of redundant, but lower doses always seem far more stressful than higher ones for me.... I don't think i will ever eat less than 3 hits again....
Know that this drug is powerful and can change you for the rest of your life, some to terms with what you experience and try to understand what went wrong the first time and do it differently the next. It can be one of the most beautiful experiences of your life, one that the simple memory of it can bring you to tears.
Remember, if you ever need any advice, we are always here.
Its kind of difficult to get bored if your tripping moderately hard....
TV is really never encouraged for tripping.
Draw, color, make music, stare at your ceiling, paint a mural, go for a walk, listen to music, eat exotic fruits you have never tried before, do something creative.....
Know that the mind has a remarkable ability to put all the pieces back together, it can just take some time. Most of us here have eaten more psychedelics at once than most would consider reasonable, and its actually kind of difficult to fuck up your mind in a permanent way if you have no family history or predisposition to mental illness....
After my first acid trip on 1.5 hits, i hardly spoke for 3 days... I wanted to, i felt a need to speak about the experience but i just couldn't find words. It was powerful and life changing for the better. Writing it all out on paper and trying to put it into words helped me sort out my thoughts...
It may seem kind of redundant, but lower doses always seem far more stressful than higher ones for me.... I don't think i will ever eat less than 3 hits again....
Know that this drug is powerful and can change you for the rest of your life, some to terms with what you experience and try to understand what went wrong the first time and do it differently the next. It can be one of the most beautiful experiences of your life, one that the simple memory of it can bring you to tears.
Remember, if you ever need any advice, we are always here.
Thanks for the help man. The depression is nearly gone now, I'm so glad it's temporary. I still have 2 and a half tabs left (one is for my brother though) but I won't be taking them for a while, if ever. I didn't realise how powerful acid was, even at low doses. The term "soft drug" is very misleading, but once again, thanks.
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If you felt the urge to try it again, i would say eat like 1.5 and have some xanax or klonopin around.
If things start to not go good, eat some xanax and that should kill all anxiety. Or a few milligrams of klonopin would have you sleeping it off for the duration....
LSD is far from a soft drug, it changed my entire perspective on life for the better. For a long time i was depressed enough to seriously consider suicide, never attempted it but the notion was being thrown around in my head. I then started smoking weed and that made me kind of content but it just kept those notions at bay. My first acid trip showed me that i have so very much to live for and the true beauty that is in everything. I went from seeing life for all the bullshit and negativity to how truly beautiful it can be.
It has been more than 2 years and with the exception of 1 rather terrible suicide Tuesday i have not had any significant depression. And that Tuesday was my own damn fault. there are consequences to eating a quarter gram of really good molly at one time.... What goes up must come down harder....
I recommend waiting until the spring, kept in a cool, dark, and dry place your acid will last a long time. Trip on a clear night, and then in the morning step outside to a beautiful sunny day with the flowers blooming and the birds singing. That about sums up how i went about my first acid trip, my first thought stepping outside to a beautiful spring day was "life is wonderful"....
The best advice i can give you is to just let go. Trust me the ego death thing is not as bad as you think it is. It is so much easier on you if you just let go and embrace it. Let the lovin' take hold.
If things start to not go good, eat some xanax and that should kill all anxiety. Or a few milligrams of klonopin would have you sleeping it off for the duration....
LSD is far from a soft drug, it changed my entire perspective on life for the better. For a long time i was depressed enough to seriously consider suicide, never attempted it but the notion was being thrown around in my head. I then started smoking weed and that made me kind of content but it just kept those notions at bay. My first acid trip showed me that i have so very much to live for and the true beauty that is in everything. I went from seeing life for all the bullshit and negativity to how truly beautiful it can be.
It has been more than 2 years and with the exception of 1 rather terrible suicide Tuesday i have not had any significant depression. And that Tuesday was my own damn fault. there are consequences to eating a quarter gram of really good molly at one time.... What goes up must come down harder....
I recommend waiting until the spring, kept in a cool, dark, and dry place your acid will last a long time. Trip on a clear night, and then in the morning step outside to a beautiful sunny day with the flowers blooming and the birds singing. That about sums up how i went about my first acid trip, my first thought stepping outside to a beautiful spring day was "life is wonderful"....
The best advice i can give you is to just let go. Trust me the ego death thing is not as bad as you think it is. It is so much easier on you if you just let go and embrace it. Let the lovin' take hold.
dcraver877
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acid is not a "soft" drug by any means.
it may not be neurotoxic at all, but it can be psychologically tough.
it may not be neurotoxic at all, but it can be psychologically tough.
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it can be a nightmare or a utopian dream.
the trick is to know how to deal with it if things get bad.
Well I would not want to have those two things with me, because one I'm not interested in prescription pills and two I've never even heard of klonopin. What's the best way to calm a bad trip without taking something else? I guess the next trip will have to be out doors. Oh and about the spring thing I live in Australia so it's summer right now
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Well I would not want to have those two things with me, because one I'm not interested in prescription pills and two I've never even heard of klonopin. What's the best way to calm a bad trip without taking something else? I guess the next trip will have to be out doors. Oh and about the spring thing I live in Australia so it's summer right now
benzos are just good to have around because it is medication made to combat anxiety, they work on GABA receptors. In a pinch alcohol will help calm down a trip as well, but it is not really as effective.
As far as non drug ways to help alleviate a bad trip. Before you take anything write on a sheet of paper something along the lines of "I took LSD, it is making me feel this way, i will be back to normal by sunrise. Everything will be alright" assuming your tripping at night, you could do sunset for a day trip.
I like the sunrise/sunset thing because time in the idea of a physical clock really ceases to have meaning. I have closed my eyes for what seemed like hours only to open them and see that 2 minutes have passed on the clock. The sun always rises and sets, it has to happen eventually; unless of course you live in some crazy part of the world where it is dark for days/weeks at a time...
The idea is that if you start to freak out, anyone could tell you that you ate some drugs and its causing you to feel this way, but you might not believe them. Seeing this in your own handwriting and knowing you wrote it is far more believable to a person.
If you get into some unpleasant thoughts you can use the scatterbrainedness of tripping to your advantage. Hold your thumb and index finger apart and try to figure out exactly how much distance is between them. Try to overthink it. "Well, i know it is about 6 inches. What really makes up an inch though, its a stupid system of measurement. Metric would be a better idea. I have no idea how many centimeters are in 6 inches. *goes on hunt for ruler*" then you find a ruler and figure out the answer to the question. Odds are good at some point your going to either forget the original question or you have put so much effort into answering the question that the thing that was bothering you is a thousand thoughts behind you.
Its all about finding a benign question that you can put a little bit of effort into figuring out.
Or put on some upbeat music and start to color. Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Heats Club Band is a good beatles album for an acid trip. Stay away from the white album. Revolution number 9 laying in a dark room was a headfucking.
Nature is beautiful while your tripping, going for a walk feels like constantly walking into a painting.
Trip with someone else. Its great having someone on your level to talk to. Sober people just don't seem to get it.
Alright thanks for the help. And in terms of music, I found that reggae and other Jamaican style music was really good.
DXM speak.
DiaLæT
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It's temporary. You learn to fight it. Trust me, I was going through full-blown battles in my own head trying to fight off the shitty feeling. You gotta REALLY believe in yourself and the reality of your own brain processing. Acid turned me into a lame-ass awkward boring loser, because it amplified my insecurities. I've finally shot it all down and now I've found who I really am. A fucking dick who doesn't let any fucking thing stand in the way of his conscience. Do what I want, say what I want, disregard the result of my actions, I don't give a flying fuck!
I don't know about you, obviously you're different, everybody is. You still remember who you are, and how you used to think, the thinking that kept you sane in your own head. Re-visit it. Call it for help. It'll come back, it's not like it ever wanted to leave, it LOVES you and never wants to let go of you.
Good luck to you, fellow severe anxiety freedom fighter =)