Mental Health Depressed after 4 day binge...

[Festivalman1]

hi guys.. before jumping in, ive always been a relatively heavy drinker. usually after a binge i bounce back after my day of a hangover.. but not this time.
thursday night i began the drinking, continued through all day friday and all night friday, including some coke friday night and saturday, drinking also continued throughout entire day saturday, and saturday night, and all throughout sunday. sunday night i also took a 30mg roxy..
sleep pattern of the binge:
thursday: maybe 5 hours of drunk sleep.
friday: same deal, 5 hours MAX, also drunk and coke in system.
saturday: 5 hours Max also drunk with coke in system.
sunday: 10 hours of sleep.
monday i woke up incredibly depressed... feeling so alone. almost to the point of being in tears. it is now wednesday and i still feel the same. my appetite has been very much less than normal as well. i have been sleeping a lot. monday i slept 8am-430 then 830pm-8. last night however i had bad nightmares and was tossing and turning all night. i awoke feeling the same. very alone, depressed, and unmotivated... i fear ive damaged myself for good and i am stuck like this... any advice, suggestions, and especially support is very much needed and appreciated, please. i have stayed away from alcohol and drugs as well while feeling like this, and probably will after if i ever feel better... i just want to feel back to normal already.

 

[herbavore]

Sometimes it is a binge like this (and the inevitable comedown) that can make you finally turn to yourself and ask, "What do I need that I am not getting from my life? How can I change myself so that I can pursue a life that gives me what I need?" Most of us need to be loved. That's it. But being loved cannot happen when we are so bogged down in personal pain that we are pure need. Address the pain--the roots of the pain. It can feel scary and overwhelming but don't be discouraged because it is not nearly as scary as it feels at first. We are taught to run from pain but facing it is actually easier. After all when you are stuck in that fight or flight mode of living whatever is behind you that you are running from just grows in your imagination. Most of us are running from the big lie in our own heads that we are unlovable. Maybe you got that lie implanted from a shitty childhood or maybe you had a great childhood and it came later in adolescence. Wherever it came from, the task is uprooting it and only you can do that. Look into reading materials that could help you on that path and start each day by reading something inspiring, something you can recall and use like a compass during your ordinary day.

 

[nuttynutskin]

Wait until you wake up shaking and can barely stand up. That's when the real fun begins.