Deathvalley69
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Depersonalization and different drugs
This is gonna be a long post so if you don't want to read all of this just skip to the last paragraph. So when I was 17 I had Depersonalization/derealization disorder triggered by weed. It was probably the most difficult experience of my life. It lasted for pretty much two years straight, and then I finally got out of it. I'm not entirely sure how, but at the time I was taking a tricyclic antidepressant called clomipramine (which has been known I help Depersonalization). I was also undergoing a major change of mind state and the way I viewed reality and the world. Basically I accepted I wouldn't see the world the same way again, and since this my symptoms almost completely disappeared. Either way, I am 21 now and I have been mostly Depersonalization/derealization free. During this time I have experimented with many drugs. Yes, this might seem foolish considering my mental health history but it's just my nature to want to experiment with my mind. However I feel that I have "conquered" my Depersonalization, if you will.
Out of all the drugs I've done, marijauna is the only one that consistently fucks me up, however when I do it nowadays the dissociation doesn't last past the high. I've done light doses of LSD and Psilocyben and have had only positive experiences with them. Any dissoiation was temporary and went away when I was sober.
I'm curious to how certain drugs affect people who have had a history with Depersonalization/derealization. Tell me your thoughts and experiences. It is my theory that once you have triggered
Depersonalization/derealization, you have seen something you can't unsee. There's no going back. But once you have come to terms and accepted this new perception of reality, your fear will go away and your symptoms will go away. At least I think that it is the case with myself.
This is gonna be a long post so if you don't want to read all of this just skip to the last paragraph. So when I was 17 I had Depersonalization/derealization disorder triggered by weed. It was probably the most difficult experience of my life. It lasted for pretty much two years straight, and then I finally got out of it. I'm not entirely sure how, but at the time I was taking a tricyclic antidepressant called clomipramine (which has been known I help Depersonalization). I was also undergoing a major change of mind state and the way I viewed reality and the world. Basically I accepted I wouldn't see the world the same way again, and since this my symptoms almost completely disappeared. Either way, I am 21 now and I have been mostly Depersonalization/derealization free. During this time I have experimented with many drugs. Yes, this might seem foolish considering my mental health history but it's just my nature to want to experiment with my mind. However I feel that I have "conquered" my Depersonalization, if you will.
Out of all the drugs I've done, marijauna is the only one that consistently fucks me up, however when I do it nowadays the dissociation doesn't last past the high. I've done light doses of LSD and Psilocyben and have had only positive experiences with them. Any dissoiation was temporary and went away when I was sober.
I'm curious to how certain drugs affect people who have had a history with Depersonalization/derealization. Tell me your thoughts and experiences. It is my theory that once you have triggered
Depersonalization/derealization, you have seen something you can't unsee. There's no going back. But once you have come to terms and accepted this new perception of reality, your fear will go away and your symptoms will go away. At least I think that it is the case with myself.
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