Hi I'm new here. I wanted to share a little bit about my story and see if anyone can relate to this experience. I had been dependent on oxycodone for a few years. I ended up at around anywhere from 60 to 120 mg of Oxycodone a day. I was snorting them because I would never get any feeling when I swallowed them. Around April 2016, I began doing Xanax on a regular basis. Snorting them as well. I would do 6-10mg xanax a day and about 80 mg oxycodone a day (much more on good days
). Here's where my questions come in because I cant remember anything I did this last summer, high on xanax I would fall asleep everywhere, and on some days not remember how I got to bed. Toward the end of summer, I remember I was taking suboxone to get off oxycodone and I wasnt doing xan because it wasnt around. I would go back and forth between the pills and the strip depending on what was around. I started drinking heavily at night for rest because money was low. So during this week I got really sick from withdrawal and couldnt get out of the bed. on 9/4 I decided I needed to visit the hospital because the withdrawal was so bad. When I was in the hospital I remember experiencing things that, according to everyone around me, didnt actually happen. At this time, it had been about 2 days no opiates and at least 5 days no xanax. I couldnt remember anything at this point. I couldnt remember my address, parents names, where i lived, worked, anything. They didnt really do much at the hospital but give one dose of ativan during a 3 day period. when I came home I couldnt remember much still. It took me weeks to remember how to get to a corner store which was literally 2 blocks away from my house. Over the following few months I struggled with remembering several things like how to get to my job, local street names, highways and routes to places i frequented, I remember I couldnt work my phone and my mother in law had to show me how to work simple functions in my phone. I write all of this because I thought that I was suffering from amnesia or some mental illness. I remember I wasnt able to spell or define simple words and i would read things and the simple sentence structures wouldnt even make sense. Today I am 4 months sober. I still have the memory struggle which is extremely difficult but it isnt as bad, everyday more and more things come to me. I didnt do anything for the withdrawal but drink alcohol and Im now to the point where i can drink just a beer at night and get rest. Im wondering if anyone else has ever experienced anything like this. i wonder if i can attribute this to the sleep deprivation, in the beginning I was getting less than an hour of sleep everyday and now im to where i get a full 8 hours. I still have the restless arms, back pain, and muscle weakness. As far as the memory struggle, is this normal? its been 4 months. has anyone else ever experienced this before?
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