fairnymph
Ex-Bluelighter
one of my friends whom i jsut got in touch with told me to 'grow up" for "doing drugs". This is what i told her. Have any of you had simialr expereinces and how did you respond?
"yeah, i do drugs. and it's not an immaturity complex, like you suggested. i agree that in many cases it's a rebellion, an escape, a way to act silly and irresponsibly,etc. and those are the reasons ALOT of people do drugs. but not me. i'm not addicted (not that nay of the drugs i do are physically addictive) and i'm not disappointed if i planned to do them one night and i don't get to. i dont' need them to have fun, but if i'm in a good mood and i have something, it creates a different sort of fun. i wouldn't want to be high all the time even if i could be. sober & straight is amazing too. but i enjoy reading lots of different books, visiting foreign countries, meeting diverse people...and basically viewing the world, life, meaning, reality from all sorts of different perspectives. drugs are an extension of that. if you drink, you are altering your reality and fucking with your brain and body. why are drugs any worse?? if you are really drunk, you are far more out of control and out of touch with reality and damaging to your body than you would be if you get high on ecstasy. obviously, you could get drunk for 5 nights in a row it would be significantly less damaging than if you got high five times. but in moderation, drugs can be better (in multiple ways!) than alcohol. so if you drink, i think it's fairly illogical for you to criticize my drug-taking.
i won't elaborate on the phsyical pleasures of x, let's just say they are fantastic.
but emotionally, x makes you love the world. esp. when i'm coming up, i go around hugging evryuoone, even people i hate liek this guy Buzzy in my dorm. and i'ev had some great bonding conversations with people. for example i was walking around at the party last night and saw this strange guy sitting by himself and asked him if he wanted a massage and he said sure (massage feel really good on x, and i love giving them, cause x makes me in a very giving mood, plus my hands get super sensitive). and then he said that he had scoliosis and i asked what he thought had caused it. he said that as a child he had been very scared and had stored that fear in his back. and he elaborated on this when i asked him concernedly, "scared? why? explain". now with someone you had just met would this kind of conversation normally occur? of course not. x, when you're with other people, cuts awwy all that small talk and get-to -know you's that you normally need to muddle through to talk about the REAL issues. it immediately puts you on a level or complete trust and love with whomever you are interacting. in that moment, i seriously loved that guy (platonically, of course). just because he is human and so am i and we are all part of god and the universe. how can i truly separate him from me??
anyway, so that's my little spiel on drugs.they're all the same, there is no real difference btwn alcohol and x, they're only perceived differently by society. alcohol depresses your central nervoius system, and x stimulates it,. it's a choice of whether you want to go up or down. and beleive me, up is better!! it's totally hypocrtical to drink and say doign drugs are bad, b/c they both alter reality. and there is no way you can deny that."
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there's this part of your head, in the front on top, that before x, you never knew existed. and that part feels very very good. even after, days and weeks and months and forever after rolling, you can imagine that part of your head and feel it, you are newly aware of that part of your brain. and how can this expanded awareness be a bad thing??
"yeah, i do drugs. and it's not an immaturity complex, like you suggested. i agree that in many cases it's a rebellion, an escape, a way to act silly and irresponsibly,etc. and those are the reasons ALOT of people do drugs. but not me. i'm not addicted (not that nay of the drugs i do are physically addictive) and i'm not disappointed if i planned to do them one night and i don't get to. i dont' need them to have fun, but if i'm in a good mood and i have something, it creates a different sort of fun. i wouldn't want to be high all the time even if i could be. sober & straight is amazing too. but i enjoy reading lots of different books, visiting foreign countries, meeting diverse people...and basically viewing the world, life, meaning, reality from all sorts of different perspectives. drugs are an extension of that. if you drink, you are altering your reality and fucking with your brain and body. why are drugs any worse?? if you are really drunk, you are far more out of control and out of touch with reality and damaging to your body than you would be if you get high on ecstasy. obviously, you could get drunk for 5 nights in a row it would be significantly less damaging than if you got high five times. but in moderation, drugs can be better (in multiple ways!) than alcohol. so if you drink, i think it's fairly illogical for you to criticize my drug-taking.
i won't elaborate on the phsyical pleasures of x, let's just say they are fantastic.
but emotionally, x makes you love the world. esp. when i'm coming up, i go around hugging evryuoone, even people i hate liek this guy Buzzy in my dorm. and i'ev had some great bonding conversations with people. for example i was walking around at the party last night and saw this strange guy sitting by himself and asked him if he wanted a massage and he said sure (massage feel really good on x, and i love giving them, cause x makes me in a very giving mood, plus my hands get super sensitive). and then he said that he had scoliosis and i asked what he thought had caused it. he said that as a child he had been very scared and had stored that fear in his back. and he elaborated on this when i asked him concernedly, "scared? why? explain". now with someone you had just met would this kind of conversation normally occur? of course not. x, when you're with other people, cuts awwy all that small talk and get-to -know you's that you normally need to muddle through to talk about the REAL issues. it immediately puts you on a level or complete trust and love with whomever you are interacting. in that moment, i seriously loved that guy (platonically, of course). just because he is human and so am i and we are all part of god and the universe. how can i truly separate him from me??
anyway, so that's my little spiel on drugs.they're all the same, there is no real difference btwn alcohol and x, they're only perceived differently by society. alcohol depresses your central nervoius system, and x stimulates it,. it's a choice of whether you want to go up or down. and beleive me, up is better!! it's totally hypocrtical to drink and say doign drugs are bad, b/c they both alter reality. and there is no way you can deny that."
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there's this part of your head, in the front on top, that before x, you never knew existed. and that part feels very very good. even after, days and weeks and months and forever after rolling, you can imagine that part of your head and feel it, you are newly aware of that part of your brain. and how can this expanded awareness be a bad thing??
