Mental Health De-realization: Things Don't Seem Real

[lakey999]

Hi guys,

A couple of months or so ago I took about half a g of MDMA for the first (and last) time. I really enjoyed it apart from a massive come up in which I became really anxious - the rest of the time I was really chilled out. The real problems came afterwards, instead of feeling depressed I felt incredibly anxious and ended up having a panic attack ten days later. After that I've felt much better; not feeling like I'm going to die and I've stopped having palpitations.

However, I've felt recently over the past month that very little feels real. I've had problems with depression before (without doing any drugs) and it seems to be coming back (I think due to things not seeming real). I wanted to know if anyone has experienced this after taking ecstasy and how you got through it.

Cheers!
Max

 

[paranoid android]

I had depersonalization and derealization from anxiety but not any drugs i was taking at the time. It got so bad that i thought i was going psychotic and it sorta felt like i was on a very unpleasant dissociative. I went to a doctor and described the symptoms i was having and she thought of DP/DR right away which she said was usually caused by anxiety. I had not even heard of depersonalization or derealization at this point but she said it was very common in people who had high levels of anxiety. It honestly felt like i was in a fog which was probably caused by brain fog that is again common among people who suffer from anxiety. In the end i got a script for Clonazepam (she was going to give me Lorazepam but it doesn't work for me so i suggested Clonazepam) which ended up working great. Within less then a week the anxiety, depersonalization, derealization and brain fog all went away. So the anxiety seems to have been the problem that caused it.

I am by no means advocating you go on benzos but i would suggest trying to get your anxiety under control and the rest should follow. I never knew how bad my anxiety actually was until i got it under control.

 

[lakey999]

I had depersonalization and derealization from anxiety but not any drugs i was taking at the time. It got so bad that i thought i was going psychotic and it sorta felt like i was on a very unpleasant dissociative. I went to a doctor and described the symptoms i was having and she thought of DP/DR right away which she said was usually caused by anxiety. I had not even heard of depersonalization or derealization at this point but she said it was very common in people who had high levels of anxiety. It honestly felt like i was in a fog which was probably caused by brain fog that is again common among people who suffer from anxiety. In the end i got a script for Clonazepam (she was going to give me Lorazepam but it doesn't work for me so i suggested Clonazepam) which ended up working great. Within less then a week the anxiety, depersonalization, derealization and brain fog all went away. So the anxiety seems to have been the problem that caused it.

I am by no means advocating you go on benzos but i would suggest trying to get your anxiety under control and the rest should follow. I never knew how bad my anxiety actually was until i got it under control.

Thank you, I really appreciate the reply. I've always been quite an anxious person, an had periods of fogginess before although not for this long or this bad. I'll get down to the Doctors right away and I'll mention some of these meds.

 

[Trying2Iso]

i get that sometimes with LSD
and ESPECIALLY with Nitrous oxide
but with LSD i only get it sometimes.

I feel it on MDMA every time. I have never done MDA tho so i cant testify to that.

 

[Zomboy93]

I can relate to this post! I am also anxious during the come up but I enjoy the rest of the trip. I stopped taking MDMA last summer because I couldn't deal with the frequent panic attacks, depressing and generalised anxiety. I'm tempted to take it again but still sitting on the fence, I'm not sure if it's worth dealing with the anixety/panic attacks again.

 

[Ganj]

I have always had underlying anxiety which was brought to the surface from smoking weed, its been a long time since I smoked it but the issues still persist. I can completely relate to feeling like "sober" was being on some mild dissociative. Depersonalization is horrible and takes the essence out of life as it feels like you aren't really participating in it. It is interesting to here that this is common with anxiety paranoid android.

 

[cook]

I had an episode of derealization. Lasted couple months. It was accompanied by high level anxiety and depression. I think it is just a nasty dissociative symptom. For me it went away when the depression and anxiety lifted. But it was probably the worst symptom, it was very intense. I dont like dissociative drugs because they remind me of this mental state. Benzodiazepines probably help short term, but you should try to get to bottom of things. Maybe just give it some time to resolve (no drugs etc).