SoCalShordie
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Nov 3, 2021
- Messages
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Ironic how you would you take a best friend from me now
The first winter after I finally put the fuckin needle down
Alone, shooting more dope than she physically could
Oblivious, pulled the trig on a fent laced rig in some random hood
Just days before she died, she texted “can’t wake from this nightmare, please save me”
Blew her line all night, but missed her by a fraction, shit was almost enough to break me
What you know about growing up a female without a father, knowing he’s well off & alive
Pretend he ain’t have a daughter, countless nights I would cry, couldn’t understand why
Desperation consumed the nights, starved for male attention like the neighborhood hoe
Darkness swallowed me, crept through shadows without purpose like a ghost
Grown niggas salivating like wolves, knowing damn well a man was absent at home
He don’t answer back, but I pray hard to God my baby sister don’t turn out like me
Never knew her daddy, 3 strikes, doing life in the penitentiary
Lord I’m on my knees, please don’t break her like you damn near broke me
Just give her all I needed & never had, not trauma and BPD
Emotions fold so I keep my heart on cold, takes all I got to keep the floodgates at bay
Refuse to show the slightest weakness, stay wit a lump in my throat all day
Loved my uncle D the most, hope he knew how much before he left to that other place
I’ll take the fall, the worst of it all, God just promise to keep my people safe from knowing nothing but pain
The first winter after I finally put the fuckin needle down
Alone, shooting more dope than she physically could
Oblivious, pulled the trig on a fent laced rig in some random hood
Just days before she died, she texted “can’t wake from this nightmare, please save me”
Blew her line all night, but missed her by a fraction, shit was almost enough to break me
What you know about growing up a female without a father, knowing he’s well off & alive
Pretend he ain’t have a daughter, countless nights I would cry, couldn’t understand why
Desperation consumed the nights, starved for male attention like the neighborhood hoe
Darkness swallowed me, crept through shadows without purpose like a ghost
Grown niggas salivating like wolves, knowing damn well a man was absent at home
He don’t answer back, but I pray hard to God my baby sister don’t turn out like me
Never knew her daddy, 3 strikes, doing life in the penitentiary
Lord I’m on my knees, please don’t break her like you damn near broke me
Just give her all I needed & never had, not trauma and BPD
Emotions fold so I keep my heart on cold, takes all I got to keep the floodgates at bay
Refuse to show the slightest weakness, stay wit a lump in my throat all day
Loved my uncle D the most, hope he knew how much before he left to that other place
I’ll take the fall, the worst of it all, God just promise to keep my people safe from knowing nothing but pain
