Before this year, I only smoked cannabis a few times. From New Year's Eve until today, I've messed around with salvia, hash, ecstasy, speed and cocaine. I expected too much from coke - it wasn't as great as I had imagined, and ultimately I think it strongly depends on how much you take, how you're feeling on the day, and who you're with.
So I'm still chasing that ultimate high, and while I always told myself that I'd draw the line with needles, lately I've been tempted with the thought of shooting up some heroin. I began reading a great deal about it in the past few months, starting with this article.
In short, the author argues that heroin is not dangerous. Addictive, but not dangerous. That the bad things about heroin are functions of its illegality rather than its inherent nature. Death, disease, crime, overdose, inability to hold down a job are all caused by the fact that heroin is expensive, adulterated and addictive.
I also believe that heroin is less socially damaging than alcohol, and that people have lived happy, normal lives with jobs, marriages and kids whilst being addicted to heroin. I'm not a very addictive person. Cigarettes don't do it for me, and I can easily go a long period of time without alcohol.
What piqued my interest in the drug was reading very eloquently written short stories by a few smackheads. I found them a nice social insight into post-Soviet Russia and how opiates shaped the lives of Russia's "lost generation". All of them died thanks to an overdose.
But it's not the self-destruction that appeals to me, and I'm not looking for an escapism. To be frank, I've been quite fortunate in life: I enjoyed an upper middle class upbringing, I was recently accepted into a very good university, I found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, etc etc.
So I'll spare you some sob story about existential angst, reconciling myself to nihilism and turning to drugs because the world is against me, because that's bullshit. I'll avoid going into a stream of consciousness bout of writing and stop here, but basically, I'm curious to hear your thoughts, experiences and advice on trying heroin for the first time, and whether it's all worth it.
So I'm still chasing that ultimate high, and while I always told myself that I'd draw the line with needles, lately I've been tempted with the thought of shooting up some heroin. I began reading a great deal about it in the past few months, starting with this article.
In short, the author argues that heroin is not dangerous. Addictive, but not dangerous. That the bad things about heroin are functions of its illegality rather than its inherent nature. Death, disease, crime, overdose, inability to hold down a job are all caused by the fact that heroin is expensive, adulterated and addictive.
I also believe that heroin is less socially damaging than alcohol, and that people have lived happy, normal lives with jobs, marriages and kids whilst being addicted to heroin. I'm not a very addictive person. Cigarettes don't do it for me, and I can easily go a long period of time without alcohol.
What piqued my interest in the drug was reading very eloquently written short stories by a few smackheads. I found them a nice social insight into post-Soviet Russia and how opiates shaped the lives of Russia's "lost generation". All of them died thanks to an overdose.
But it's not the self-destruction that appeals to me, and I'm not looking for an escapism. To be frank, I've been quite fortunate in life: I enjoyed an upper middle class upbringing, I was recently accepted into a very good university, I found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, etc etc.
So I'll spare you some sob story about existential angst, reconciling myself to nihilism and turning to drugs because the world is against me, because that's bullshit. I'll avoid going into a stream of consciousness bout of writing and stop here, but basically, I'm curious to hear your thoughts, experiences and advice on trying heroin for the first time, and whether it's all worth it.
