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Confirm This Self-Diagnosis Please!

FloridaHighs

FloridaHighs

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mmk so I'm not going to waste any time here and get straight to the point; I know that without actually being a doctor, one cannot completely diagnose, but you can try.

First-off, I am 16 years of age (17 on the 27th!), weigh approx. 150 pounds, and I am 6 feet 3 inches in height.

At the age of 13 (I think...) I was diagnosed with ADHD, whoohoo. Completely reasonable, If you have ever met me you would know too.

At the age of 16 (yes, this happened last year in February) I was kicked out of school for reasons that are not relevant. I started online school about a month after, and its been a nightmare. What were those retards thinking, sending a child with ADHD to do his school ONLINE and AT HOME. Needless to say it has been a tough couple of months. I mean maybe if I wasn't a freaking genius it wouldn't be that hard. I am taking 6 college classes at the moment, two at a community college, and four online. Look, I'm already off-topic, god damn you ADHD.

Well now that I've given you my life's story, let me tell you my dilemma.
I have slowly drifted off in my studies, what I now know as OCD, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is taking over my life. I used to think it was just like turrets syndrome, people having to wash their hands every five minutes or people not eating food because they touched. Well as I found out the Y-BOCS is directly proportional to my life.

Let me go down the list and tell you my example.

Obsessions concerning disorder - wanting things to be orderly basically, a perfect example is my computer, I have to have everything in its own folder so my desktop does not look cluttered. On my desktop is one folder that contains almost all of my documents, it is labeled "Random". Inside this folder contains a multitude of other folders, each sub-dividing from the next. In my "Photoshop" folder I have categorized my work by Brushes, Fonts, Photos, Renders, and the program itself.

Obsessions concerning somatic - "excessive fear, worry, and preoccupation with having an illness" Hahahaha, that is the reason I joined this site, to find out more about ADHD. Some other disorders I thought I had were cluster headaches, retinal migraines, depression, Crohn's disease, cotton fever (which I actually had, blows) ect. Actually, this is what I am doing now.

Obsessions concerning perfection - categorized by:
- The fear of saying something wrong or not "Just Right" and/or leaving details out. This makes the person go to great extend to tell everything "Just" as it was.
- Worrying about making mistakes.
- Being incredibly slow in carrying out even the most routine activities.
Might be because the person is looking for perfection, that Just Right feeling or just has to check everything she/he does.

^^^^^^ Noted above, let me explain to you, in writing this I have taken about 30 minutes at least. The things I did starting from the first moment I've hit "new thread"

1. I've redid the title so that the capital letters were right, also I've added a dash between Self-Diagnosis because I thought it looked better.
2. I pondered about taking the "mmk" out of the first line for about two minutes.
3. I put a semi-colon instead of a period at the end of my first sentence.
4. Put a dash in between "First-off" although I am reconsidering it now...
5. I originally put my age at 17, but then changed it to 16 and put my birthday in parenthesis.
6. I put in the part about me taking 6 college classes at the age of 16 because I thought that people would look at me as a dumbass who got kicked out of school.
7. I checked to see if there was actually a dash between obsessive and compulsive in OCD.
8. The folder named "Photoshop" is actually called "Adobe CS4" but I changed it because unless you have it your not going to know what it is.
9. When I said "blows" in the comment about cotton fever it was actually "blowwss"
10. In number one I changed "changed" into "redid".
11. In number ten I changed "number 1" into "number one" because I thought that the 1 looked to much like an I.

I'm going to stop abruptly now, because this is a waste of time.

Miscellaneous Obsessions - "Intrusive nonsense sounds, music, words. Certain songs will be repeated over and over in the mind."
- To this I have almost constantly had two songs stuck in my head the whole day, and this happens almost every day. At the moment I have the words "The Internet Killed the Video Star" from The Limousines and " I change shapes to hide in this place but I'm still, I'm still an animal." from Miike Snow, Animal.

Now that I've completely explained myself and have truly defeated my original purpose, to be short and sweet, you decide for yourself, and all comments and opinions are unbiasedly accepted.

With Love, -FH​
 
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We are not doctors here and we can't diagnose you so there is really no point in this thread. We can offer advice but not a diagnoses.
 
Oh I'm sorry, when I said "without actually knowing me", I meant "without knowing my medical history/psych eval" ie. being a doctor. I changed it.
 
what ever your "diagnosis", it, the "OCD" seems to be troubling you, and your letting it irrationally control your thoughts and feelings.
if you dont have a regular psych, PCP, or the means to hire a private one, try and focus on what you need to and look in to any local state/county services. get something started with them, and know in the meantime that worrying now is like running in circles.

you should try to start training your mind to focus now while your young with a head-start on awareness, and channel the energy/intent on something constructive.

use it as a gift.
 
panic in paradise said:
what ever your "diagnosis", it, the "OCD" seems to be troubling you, and your letting it irrationally control your thoughts and feelings.
if you dont have a regular psych, PCP, or the means to hire a private one, try and focus on what you need to and look in to any local state/county services. get something started with them, and know in the meantime that worrying now is like running in circles.

you should try to start training your mind to focus now while your young with a head-start on awareness, and channel the energy/intent on something constructive.

use it as a gift.
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Yes, I see where your going with this. On a side note the ADHD amphetamines are making my "OCD" worse; by enabling me to think more and more about the subject, kind of a lose lose situation.

wolf of the steppe said:
Get caught up diagnosing your self and you might just wind up full out bonkers
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Hahaha yes indeed, I've gone straight up in the air and am sitting on a cloud, somewhere in my subconscious.
 
OCD is not the only disorder which features obsessive and/or intrusive thoughts. The problem with self-diagnosing is that people have a tendency to just check off whether or not they have the listed symptoms and ignore the other qualifying criteria.

You have symptoms which warrant treatment, so seek that and leave the differential diagnosis to the experts.
 
it sounds like you have a lot of psycho-social stressors that are contributing to your feelings. ever think maybe your obsessive tasks are a way to regain control over a new / changing environment>?
 
FiatFlux said:
it sounds like you have a lot of psycho-social stressors that are contributing to your feelings. ever think maybe your obsessive tasks are a way to regain control over a new / changing environment>?
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I wouldn't go as far as regaining control, but your definitely right about the new environment being one of the considerable factors contributing to my "OCD" or the manifestation of it.
 
You have a degree of it, but not enough to ruin your life. Of course I have ADD, and it doesn't ruin my life either, but having these fun pills helps me, at least I think they do.

You need time constraints. I put it in a calendar, so I know I probably wont finish it, but I will get some shit done. An electronic one is nice to have.
 
spend you time living your life and not attempting to diagnose yourself with "disorders" -- jmo

no need to label yourself my man

best of luck
 
my dad used to say, Moderation in everything, especially moderation. do not be OC about your OCD.
 
What I have found is when I think I have some sort of disorder I subconsciously act it out and it makes the whole thing worse. Like I often wonder if I have OCD, but it's only when I'm in that stage of thinking about if I've got it, that I start to display the symptoms.
 
oliphill said:
What I have found is when I think I have some sort of disorder I subconsciously act it out and it makes the whole thing worse. Like I often wonder if I have OCD, but it's only when I'm in that stage of thinking about if I've got it, that I start to display the symptoms.
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Congratulations, you are a hypochondriac.

"Hypochondria is often characterized by fears that minor bodily symptoms may indicate a serious illness, constant self-examination and self-diagnosis, and a preoccupation with one's body. Many individuals with hypochondriasis express doubt and disbelief in the doctors' diagnosis, and report that doctors’ reassurance about an absence of a serious medical condition is unconvincing, or un-lasting."

:)
 
FloridaHighs,You told us about the effect on school work & problems with composing a post. How is your social situation. OCD is often a huge social problem and a social life is often a very big deal to16 y/o's. How goes it there? If OCD can be put aside for socialization you have OCD that is particularly amenable to will power and just carrying on when the need arises. You probably won't even need meds.

But really, a competent physician will likely be able to put this all into some sort of perspective? Do you get along with your Doc? Does he know your opinions about your diagnosis? Hope things get better soon. I'm sure you will get this all figured out sometime soon.
 
oliphill said:
What I have found is when I think I have some sort of disorder I subconsciously act it out and it makes the whole thing worse. Like I often wonder if I have OCD, but it's only when I'm in that stage of thinking about if I've got it, that I start to display the symptoms.
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Hypochondria is one of the formally recognised forms of OCD.
 
You NEED a lower dose of amphetamines...the OCD symptoms are more than likely a symptom of too much ADHD meds.

If you had and were worried about OCD symptoms before the amphetamines, i might say you could possibly have it...but i seriously doubt you do. I think ur tweaking out a bit.

Finally, if you developed OCD symptoms soon AFTER a nasty sore throat or confirmed strep infection you may have developed a rare condition called PANDAS (Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorders Associated with Streptococcus) which is treatable.
 
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