CARESS
Bluelighter
As I gazed into my closet today, I pondered the clothes we wear in comparison to our emotional make-up.
My collection of garmets is like a schizophrenic nightmare. I have ensembles for every occaision, but I never took the time to think about how what I wear could be affected by my emotions.
I have this black dress that I really don't like. I wore it to my cousin's funeral. Just by looking at it, I can remember everything. I recall the supreme sadness at losing someone so special, young, and beautiful. I know I won't wear it again, but I can't part with it either. Maybe I'll never wear it again because I don't want to keep re-living that loss.
I have a purple, hand-knitted hippie vest that was my aunt's. A ski suit from another lost cousin (and I don't ski). Both people were special to me, so I'm still hanging on..
Like most women who've been married, I have my wedding dress. It wasn't expensive or top-shelf, but I hope that my daughter will be that happy one day and even if she doesn't wear it on that special day, I want her to have it.
I recently gave away my maternity clothes. No more children in my future, thank you. But it took awhile to work up the courage to part with them. I remember being huge and happy and feeling the magic of another being growing inside me.
I can tell you where and when I got my first pair of Caffeines. I bet they remember the muck on the floor of Whistle 3 and all the dancing that was done in them.
I still have my prom dress. I can guarantee that it doesn't fit, now that it's 15 years later. But I had so much fun that I couldn't give it away.
I can tell you what I wore to each party, each job interview, and on my first date with my current love. If the outfits were gifts, I can tell you who gave them to me and for what occaision.
So am I just obsessed with clothes and memories, or do we naturally attach memories to certain clothes, or songs, or movies, or cars, or houses, or places....?
Maybe I'm just crazy...but then, sometimes crazy can be good.
Just the ramblings of an ensembly schizophrenic fashion victim.
Caress
[This message has been edited by CARESS (edited 18 July 2000).]
My collection of garmets is like a schizophrenic nightmare. I have ensembles for every occaision, but I never took the time to think about how what I wear could be affected by my emotions.
I have this black dress that I really don't like. I wore it to my cousin's funeral. Just by looking at it, I can remember everything. I recall the supreme sadness at losing someone so special, young, and beautiful. I know I won't wear it again, but I can't part with it either. Maybe I'll never wear it again because I don't want to keep re-living that loss.
I have a purple, hand-knitted hippie vest that was my aunt's. A ski suit from another lost cousin (and I don't ski). Both people were special to me, so I'm still hanging on..
Like most women who've been married, I have my wedding dress. It wasn't expensive or top-shelf, but I hope that my daughter will be that happy one day and even if she doesn't wear it on that special day, I want her to have it.
I recently gave away my maternity clothes. No more children in my future, thank you. But it took awhile to work up the courage to part with them. I remember being huge and happy and feeling the magic of another being growing inside me.
I can tell you where and when I got my first pair of Caffeines. I bet they remember the muck on the floor of Whistle 3 and all the dancing that was done in them.
I still have my prom dress. I can guarantee that it doesn't fit, now that it's 15 years later. But I had so much fun that I couldn't give it away.
I can tell you what I wore to each party, each job interview, and on my first date with my current love. If the outfits were gifts, I can tell you who gave them to me and for what occaision.
So am I just obsessed with clothes and memories, or do we naturally attach memories to certain clothes, or songs, or movies, or cars, or houses, or places....?
Maybe I'm just crazy...but then, sometimes crazy can be good.
Caress
[This message has been edited by CARESS (edited 18 July 2000).]
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