MrPitt
Bluelighter
Hello folks. I'm sort of in a bad situation. I have accidentally become physically addicted to the research benzodiazipine Clonazolam (yes -olam not -apam). I had used it some what regularly for about two to three months, until I read up on benzodiazepines, saw the warnings for tolerance and withdrawal, and realized how high my tolerance was getting (2mg was getting me to where .5 mg used to). I am currently tapering down my doses. I was at 2 mg and now I'm at .083 mg (1/6 of a .5 mg blotter).
My withdrawal symptoms include occasional nausea, slight difficulty concentrating, and light seizures. The seizures last for less than second and as far as I can tell, consist of just one large, collective flexing of all my muscles, while my brain seems to go into a day dream like state. This only seems to happen when I am concentrating on something, or trying to fall asleep. I have never dealt with seizures before, but from what I can tell, what I'm experiencing isn't as serious as what others have. For example, it can happen while I'm standing and I'll still be standing when it's over. It's very quick.
I'm currently at the 20 hour mark since my last .083 mg dose and I feel like I'm on the threshold of withdrawal symptoms. I have dosed .083 mg three times over the last three days (on a 18-24 hour cycle). I only have one .5 mg blotter left, and at my current dose, this leaves me with 6 doses before I am out. My next RC shipment won't be here for about a week or so, so it's safe to assume that I will run out before I have access to any more benzos. This brings me to my question:
At what point is benzodiazepine withdrawal life threatening? I.e., is there a point at which I should consider contacting a medical professional and explain my situation? This has nothing to do with getting more benzos. This has everything to do with my personal well-being.
I haven't experienced withdrawal symptoms that are any stronger than what I have described above. I kind of want to try just not taking anymore ( I know this is ill-advised for benzo addiction, but I personally consider myself to be nearing the end of my taper, although for those who think I am wrong, please voice your opinion ), since my symptoms aren't exactly uncomfortable, but more or less annoying. I've tapered down my dose to 1/24 of what I was taking. As well, I have taken 2 mg doses all of maybe 4 times during the course of the two to three months, so technically 2 mg was my highest dose, but it was rarely repeated. I know since most of you aren't doctors and since none of you know me personally, I cannot get a definite answer to my question. But to those of you who have experienced benzo withdrawal before or have knowledge on the subject, what are the warning signs that benzo withdrawal symptoms are becoming dangerous for one's health? Any input or personal experiences would be great. Thanks guys.
Also, I don't need any lecturing or horror stories about addiction. I know what addiction is like, I have seen what it does to me and what it does to others who have become addicted to something. I have clearly made a mistake in not really researching benzos or paying attention to how often I was taking Clonazolam. I understand that fully. I am not planning on taking any more benzos recreationally, and any benzos I obtain in the future will go towards simply finishing my taper.
My withdrawal symptoms include occasional nausea, slight difficulty concentrating, and light seizures. The seizures last for less than second and as far as I can tell, consist of just one large, collective flexing of all my muscles, while my brain seems to go into a day dream like state. This only seems to happen when I am concentrating on something, or trying to fall asleep. I have never dealt with seizures before, but from what I can tell, what I'm experiencing isn't as serious as what others have. For example, it can happen while I'm standing and I'll still be standing when it's over. It's very quick.
I'm currently at the 20 hour mark since my last .083 mg dose and I feel like I'm on the threshold of withdrawal symptoms. I have dosed .083 mg three times over the last three days (on a 18-24 hour cycle). I only have one .5 mg blotter left, and at my current dose, this leaves me with 6 doses before I am out. My next RC shipment won't be here for about a week or so, so it's safe to assume that I will run out before I have access to any more benzos. This brings me to my question:
At what point is benzodiazepine withdrawal life threatening? I.e., is there a point at which I should consider contacting a medical professional and explain my situation? This has nothing to do with getting more benzos. This has everything to do with my personal well-being.
I haven't experienced withdrawal symptoms that are any stronger than what I have described above. I kind of want to try just not taking anymore ( I know this is ill-advised for benzo addiction, but I personally consider myself to be nearing the end of my taper, although for those who think I am wrong, please voice your opinion ), since my symptoms aren't exactly uncomfortable, but more or less annoying. I've tapered down my dose to 1/24 of what I was taking. As well, I have taken 2 mg doses all of maybe 4 times during the course of the two to three months, so technically 2 mg was my highest dose, but it was rarely repeated. I know since most of you aren't doctors and since none of you know me personally, I cannot get a definite answer to my question. But to those of you who have experienced benzo withdrawal before or have knowledge on the subject, what are the warning signs that benzo withdrawal symptoms are becoming dangerous for one's health? Any input or personal experiences would be great. Thanks guys.
Also, I don't need any lecturing or horror stories about addiction. I know what addiction is like, I have seen what it does to me and what it does to others who have become addicted to something. I have clearly made a mistake in not really researching benzos or paying attention to how often I was taking Clonazolam. I understand that fully. I am not planning on taking any more benzos recreationally, and any benzos I obtain in the future will go towards simply finishing my taper.