Hey all, it's been a while since I have last posted and you'll need to bear with me on this post as this is a fairly lengthy read. I had the idea of posting this to gain some collective thoughts and shared experiences from others in similar situations and ultimately the end decision and result. My line of thinking here is thoughts and replies here could potentially open up difference perspectives not considered.
For a while now I have been bouncing back and forth through a roll or leaving it on the shelf a while longer with the final thought that a while longer could span into multiple years. To give you the back story my last experience was my last posting here, not far under 3.5 years ago and I never intended for such a long time to fall between that experience and my next. At that point I had planned 6 months to a year at most however many other things happened that made the opportunity to drop less and less realistic. That said it is something that has been cycling through my mind on and off ever since that point. The last experience was passable and far from expectation and as a year passed by my thought was the longer I can leave this to the side the better the experience can be given the increased time for my brain to heal between drops. Pushing it further out each time I was approaching an opportunity to drop. Going back about 15 years from my last experience I would have been dropping every 6 - 9 months or so and the experiences generally flipped back between underwhelming and spectacular interestingly usually exactly in that pattern of sub par to good then back to sub par followed by good and so forth.
Post 2010 I dropped more than I should have. My honeymoon phase I was dropping every few weeks with no more than a 3 months between for about 2 years so needless to say my receptors burned through and the trips between less and less mind blowing, the amount dropped greater and the comedowns more intense. From that point to the last experience 3.5 years ago as above I was dropping on average every 6-9 months with the next longest time between then to the present being a year. The MD itself was always from a trusted source and always tested multiple times to confirm as much as possible purity post drop so I had a fair idea the strength of experiences was down to my own brain chemistry and/or set and setting thereafter. From last drop to this moment this has been the longest I have abstained since going back more than 15 years and my initial experiences.
So to now with a opportunity on the table I am caught between a drop or to push it further out yet again to perhaps 5 years and a greater chance at something close to those initial mind blowing experiences. My apprehension is I move ahead now and the experience is less spectacular and I have ultimately reset the clock on the time that has elapsed between the last experience versus waiting another 2-3 years.
So I thought to lay it out here on a forum that was an massive early part of my early experiences for some potential insight and thoughts from others that have been in similar circumstances with time between early rolls to drop again years later and be blown away or conversely dropped years later and been similarly underwhelmed as they were prior to taking a longer break due to overworked receptors from multiple moderately excessive use. Maybe there are other factors I am not considering on this that have led to regret or being presently surprised on the flip side. I realize this is all highly subjective and anecdotal against my own situation here. My other fear is if I do push out to 5 years I may never revisit this given now much more complex life is likely to be at that point. For setting context this would be at home with a tried and tested playlist with large screen visualizer. I should mention I lead what I would consider a healthy lifestyle, no alcohol has been consumed in 5+ years, my diet is clean and my workout schedule is generally day on day off. With that said being older I have full expectation of a harsh comedown.
I appreciate you taking the time to read through this if you have made it this far and I am grateful for any thoughts and insights.
Thanks guys.
For a while now I have been bouncing back and forth through a roll or leaving it on the shelf a while longer with the final thought that a while longer could span into multiple years. To give you the back story my last experience was my last posting here, not far under 3.5 years ago and I never intended for such a long time to fall between that experience and my next. At that point I had planned 6 months to a year at most however many other things happened that made the opportunity to drop less and less realistic. That said it is something that has been cycling through my mind on and off ever since that point. The last experience was passable and far from expectation and as a year passed by my thought was the longer I can leave this to the side the better the experience can be given the increased time for my brain to heal between drops. Pushing it further out each time I was approaching an opportunity to drop. Going back about 15 years from my last experience I would have been dropping every 6 - 9 months or so and the experiences generally flipped back between underwhelming and spectacular interestingly usually exactly in that pattern of sub par to good then back to sub par followed by good and so forth.
Post 2010 I dropped more than I should have. My honeymoon phase I was dropping every few weeks with no more than a 3 months between for about 2 years so needless to say my receptors burned through and the trips between less and less mind blowing, the amount dropped greater and the comedowns more intense. From that point to the last experience 3.5 years ago as above I was dropping on average every 6-9 months with the next longest time between then to the present being a year. The MD itself was always from a trusted source and always tested multiple times to confirm as much as possible purity post drop so I had a fair idea the strength of experiences was down to my own brain chemistry and/or set and setting thereafter. From last drop to this moment this has been the longest I have abstained since going back more than 15 years and my initial experiences.
So to now with a opportunity on the table I am caught between a drop or to push it further out yet again to perhaps 5 years and a greater chance at something close to those initial mind blowing experiences. My apprehension is I move ahead now and the experience is less spectacular and I have ultimately reset the clock on the time that has elapsed between the last experience versus waiting another 2-3 years.
So I thought to lay it out here on a forum that was an massive early part of my early experiences for some potential insight and thoughts from others that have been in similar circumstances with time between early rolls to drop again years later and be blown away or conversely dropped years later and been similarly underwhelmed as they were prior to taking a longer break due to overworked receptors from multiple moderately excessive use. Maybe there are other factors I am not considering on this that have led to regret or being presently surprised on the flip side. I realize this is all highly subjective and anecdotal against my own situation here. My other fear is if I do push out to 5 years I may never revisit this given now much more complex life is likely to be at that point. For setting context this would be at home with a tried and tested playlist with large screen visualizer. I should mention I lead what I would consider a healthy lifestyle, no alcohol has been consumed in 5+ years, my diet is clean and my workout schedule is generally day on day off. With that said being older I have full expectation of a harsh comedown.
I appreciate you taking the time to read through this if you have made it this far and I am grateful for any thoughts and insights.
Thanks guys.
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