Can't say no to you

[*SWeeT-e*]

I saw you again last night
you said Hi sweetie, and put your arms around me and gave me a kiss on the cheek
polite and detached as always
and I wanted to puke all over your nice Ecko shirt
I tried to walk away then, disappear into the crowd
but you saw me and you told me to come back
and I did, because what else could I do
you make me afraid of you
so that I can't say no to you.
You possessively put your arm around my waist and
introduced me to your friend and I
distracted, looking for a way out
said Hi and tried to excuse myself again
but you grabbed my arm roughly and made me stay
Don't be rude, you said, Now introduce yourself properly
and I wanted to spit in your face and scream
fuck you
don't tell me what to do
you don't control me like you used to do
but I didn't, because you know it's true
I can't say no to you.
I walked away then and you let me go
your arms already around another slut
fucked up on drugs you had given her
and I know you'll take her home tonight
and whisper in her ear that she's so beautiful
and if that doesn't work you'll just give her more drugs
and she'll do them and then you'll make her do you too
and she won't know why she ends up hating herself
but I do
it's because she'll lose her soul to you
and even when you're gone she'll dream of you
and on the face of every boy all she'll see is you
she'll end up forever belonging to you
because she can't say no to you.
~kimmy.
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~*~I hope you take a piece of me with you...~*~

 

[cherub]

Oh hun,
I am sorry that happened but I am glad to see the strength in you,, I sure I would have slugged him or something.
Look at the positive side,, you were strong that night,,,, Much hugsssss to you hun
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Just takes one angel to change a life
~~~~CHERUB~~~~
Aka: Mommyhen
~I still belive in your eyes~-Gigi D'Agostino

 

[*SWeeT-e*]

Thanks cherub. You really are amazing, ya know that? I read that last night and it made me cry I guess I just needed to hear that.
This is the guy I hate more than anyone. I have nightmares about him. He makes me sick to my stomach. We had a fucked-up relationship and it's only just now that my head is clearing up and the drugs are leaving my system that I'm beginning to realize all that happened. Things I never saw before, feelings I couldn't quite identify till now. The only way for me to try and remember and face it is to write it down, so thanks for reading and listening and caring. You are a truly beautiful person.

~kimmy.
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~*~I hope you take a piece of me with you...~*~

 

[Angelight]

how is it so that i fel like i can relate to the things you write in so many ways. you are gifted...i really believe that you are...this gave me chills...excellent job.
love
angela