geoffreychaucer
Bluelighter
So maybe this is a dumb thread because yeah obviously most people experience some levels of paranoia under the influence of cannabis. But does it say anything about an individual's risk of developing schizophrenia or other mental illnesses if they experience much higher levels? I don't mean to trivialize schizophrenia and if I appear ignorant of this disorder, forgive me. I have just realized that whenever I get high I experience many of the classic symptoms of schizophrenia.
So why do I smoke then would be the obvious question? I have learned to manage the negative feelings by using very low dose, just a hit or two at a time. And while I enjoy that dose, I can be pretty delusional at times. Generally, I experience intense feelings of being watched even when I am alone inside. I constantly have to check the apartment because I feel there is someone there. Also, I can experience intense splitting of my consciousness where I have a voice, not literally an auditory hallucination but still pretty real voice that provides usually negative perceptions about myself and tells me how ridiculous I am to other people. All of this can happen at even low doses where I could appear to be functioning normally if necessary. I also have noticed that most people I know don't hallucinate on weed. I have always experience hallucinations in one form or another. Usually these are minor but sometimes with higher doses I get fully psychedelic patterns in walls and stuff like that.
I'm sure many people who smoke experience things like this. But again, does the fact that I experience these perceptions mean I'm increasing my chances of developing some sort of psychosis? I should also mention that I am in some category of bipolar, without real mania, and I take 1800mg of lithium carb. daily. I really should stop smoking and I want to. But I have a very strange compulsion with weed where I can't ever remember what its like to be high when I'm not high so I'm always motivated by the curiosity. This feeling is constant even if I have already smoked once in a day, later I can't remember what its like and so I feel the need to repeat my actions.
Anyway, if this is better off in the Cannabis Discussion, feel free to move it although I doubt there are many people there who want to here about possible negatives of the drug. Hopefully other people can benefit from this discussion. Thanks for your responses.
So why do I smoke then would be the obvious question? I have learned to manage the negative feelings by using very low dose, just a hit or two at a time. And while I enjoy that dose, I can be pretty delusional at times. Generally, I experience intense feelings of being watched even when I am alone inside. I constantly have to check the apartment because I feel there is someone there. Also, I can experience intense splitting of my consciousness where I have a voice, not literally an auditory hallucination but still pretty real voice that provides usually negative perceptions about myself and tells me how ridiculous I am to other people. All of this can happen at even low doses where I could appear to be functioning normally if necessary. I also have noticed that most people I know don't hallucinate on weed. I have always experience hallucinations in one form or another. Usually these are minor but sometimes with higher doses I get fully psychedelic patterns in walls and stuff like that.
I'm sure many people who smoke experience things like this. But again, does the fact that I experience these perceptions mean I'm increasing my chances of developing some sort of psychosis? I should also mention that I am in some category of bipolar, without real mania, and I take 1800mg of lithium carb. daily. I really should stop smoking and I want to. But I have a very strange compulsion with weed where I can't ever remember what its like to be high when I'm not high so I'm always motivated by the curiosity. This feeling is constant even if I have already smoked once in a day, later I can't remember what its like and so I feel the need to repeat my actions.
Anyway, if this is better off in the Cannabis Discussion, feel free to move it although I doubt there are many people there who want to here about possible negatives of the drug. Hopefully other people can benefit from this discussion. Thanks for your responses.
