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Bluelighter
Hi guys and gals,
Basically, I used heroin for 8 months, and have been in rehab for 4 years come 2011. I started using in 2007, that was one hell of a year. But, I've since been clean for this year alone. The other years I used during rehab. In fact, I've used a few times this year as well, but because it never effected me I don't count those times.
I'm on Subutex. This drug is sheer hell. I rattle most mornings since my dose has remained the same for the past year. It's like I could def. do with more Subutex as time went on. at first it held me till morning, now I need more and more of the pills which I never receive.
Some days, I use extra, leaving me short for future days. Which is stupid I know but its how I roll. So, other days, I'm fine, taking extra, but on the day my script is due to collect, I'm rattling really bad.
At 4mg I tried quitting cold turkey. But, the withdrawal got the better of me. Then, when I started talking to another Subutex user, she said she's finding it difficult to quit 0.4mg! So, I realised then you just don't stop 4mg.
I'm currently taking 3.6mg, with aims of getting down to 3.2mg. But, I'm finding it really hard to get down to that dosage for some unknown reason. I think its due to my dosage being all mixed up. Some days, are better than others like I said due to me using extra. So, other days are sheer hell to get through and I take melatonin pills to chill out. It helps for sure.
A couple of 5mg Melatonin pills just take the edge off. They don't send me to sleep, because I'm so wired from withdrawal. But, it helps nevertheless.
O.K. ~ This is my intro!
catcalls
Basically, I used heroin for 8 months, and have been in rehab for 4 years come 2011. I started using in 2007, that was one hell of a year. But, I've since been clean for this year alone. The other years I used during rehab. In fact, I've used a few times this year as well, but because it never effected me I don't count those times.
I'm on Subutex. This drug is sheer hell. I rattle most mornings since my dose has remained the same for the past year. It's like I could def. do with more Subutex as time went on. at first it held me till morning, now I need more and more of the pills which I never receive.
Some days, I use extra, leaving me short for future days. Which is stupid I know but its how I roll. So, other days, I'm fine, taking extra, but on the day my script is due to collect, I'm rattling really bad.
At 4mg I tried quitting cold turkey. But, the withdrawal got the better of me. Then, when I started talking to another Subutex user, she said she's finding it difficult to quit 0.4mg! So, I realised then you just don't stop 4mg.
I'm currently taking 3.6mg, with aims of getting down to 3.2mg. But, I'm finding it really hard to get down to that dosage for some unknown reason. I think its due to my dosage being all mixed up. Some days, are better than others like I said due to me using extra. So, other days are sheer hell to get through and I take melatonin pills to chill out. It helps for sure.
A couple of 5mg Melatonin pills just take the edge off. They don't send me to sleep, because I'm so wired from withdrawal. But, it helps nevertheless.
O.K. ~ This is my intro!
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