NotQuiteAnonymous
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I need guidance. My best friend who was a shy, intelligent, caring, responsible person has had a steadily worsening problem with opiates since her life began to unravel almost a year ago. She also drinks a lot, but she always has. A year ago she was engaged (I was going to be the maid of honor) after a 5 or so year relationship with the guy. There were gambling and pill issues on his part. One night, her fiance threatened to kill himself, then tried to kill her. He ended up committed to a hospital, then went to live out of state with family.
She was left alone. Closure didn't come for months.
She found comfort in her ex-fiance's "best friend." Then he was arrested and charged with committing a violent crime. Throughout everything with her, he's playing on her sympathies and concerns with his court case.
After they begin a sexual relationship one night, she later tries to explain her feelings about sex and relationships (she's a monogamous person). He doesn't want to define what they have, but later says something like: "if I had to define what this is, I guess I would call it a relationship." He gives her drugs to make up for lying to her and not contacting her for days (and in at least one instance weeks) on end. This guy is a manipulative scum-bag piece of shit. He also has a girlfriend, which she may still not be aware of. She stopped talking to me for over a month on 2 different occasions when I tried to tell her what he was doing and the games he was playing...but the fucking text messages he sent her...he's good...
I've started typing this up at least 5 times already. There is either too much detail, or too much scatterbraindedness because I'm stuck and upset. Sorry it is so long. Skip ahead to the last couple paragraphs to just read the basic question if you'd like.
Her parents noticed the changes in her as well. Me and her last 2 friends here were tossing around the idea for an intervention for her. I wanted to time it with when she was supposed to be moving in with the guy for a 3rd time (TWICE he abandoned her and would refuse to answer his phone or wouldn't text her for days after he left her without a place to stay the day she was supposed to move...3rd time was sure to not happen either.) One of the other people contacted her parents and explained everything except the drug issues she was having to her parents and refused to tell them one way or the other if she had a drug problem, but her parents wanted to have an intervention for her anyway because they strongly suspected she did.
Here's where I betray my best friend...When they called me, I tell them what she has been taking and started explaining things to them like what suboxone is and how she could benefit from it (she'd been having withdrawals when she went more than 3 days without seeing the guy) amongst other things. Now, before they called me, they had airplane tickets and let me know this in the conversation. I being apparently naive to how irrational her mother is and how little this woman actually knows about an intervention, I thought that they were flying into town to plan the damn thing. Next morning, I got into a nasty fight with her mother because the woman hadn't listened to anything I'd said to her AND SHE WENT AND CALLED MY BEST FRIEND, STARTED AN ARGUMENT WITH HER, AND TOLD HER I WAS THE ONE WHO TOLD THEM WHAT DRUGS SHE WAS TAKING. So, to change the subject in an argument, she did the one thing she told me she wouldn't do...I was the only person left that my best friend really and truly TRUSTED and her mom selfishly took that away from her in some pissy fit of poor parenting.
I was fully expecting to tell my friend what I said myself...at her intervention...when I could tell her how much I cared about her and wanted to see her overcome everything that has befallen her this past year...things never go as planned and this is heading towards worst case scenario.
From listening to people who like to talk about others, I found out last night that my best friend was arrested very recently after passing out while putting groceries in the back seat of her car in a convenience store parking lot. Roxies were on her person and VISIBLE on front seat of the car. Possession charges...she may have to go through Drug Court like I did years ago...but I'm afraid she's going to OD either accidentally or on purpose before that. The guy is out of the picture (she found a new connect in the last 3 weeks) The other two friends she hates. She's been avoiding her parents. And even more so me...
She doesn't seem to have anyone. It kills me because this wasn't supposed to be how this all happened. If her mom hadn't been so juvenile I don't think she would even have the charges she does right now...she wouldn't have gone this far down even with the guy ignoring her permanently.
We're both shy and anxious people. Face-to-face convo isn't even remotely possible right now as she hides when I simply come online until I hide, then she un-hides...yeah, she's that angry. We're still facebook friends...but that isn't saying much either because so is everyone else she hates right now. I'm pretty sure she will ignore my calls too and I suck expressing emotions verbally. Do you think I should apologize for my actions via email? I know this post may make it seem unlikely, but I am actually pretty good with written language.
Do you think there's a chance she would ever consider us friends ever again? If your best friend and confidant invaded your privacy (because physical symptoms you were presenting indicated you were at risk of ODing), then weeks later told your parents about your drug problem...could you ever forgive the person? Would you ever talk to them again...
...even if you were at/near rock-bottom and there was nobody else there who genuinely cared only for your best interests?
She was left alone. Closure didn't come for months.
She found comfort in her ex-fiance's "best friend." Then he was arrested and charged with committing a violent crime. Throughout everything with her, he's playing on her sympathies and concerns with his court case.
After they begin a sexual relationship one night, she later tries to explain her feelings about sex and relationships (she's a monogamous person). He doesn't want to define what they have, but later says something like: "if I had to define what this is, I guess I would call it a relationship." He gives her drugs to make up for lying to her and not contacting her for days (and in at least one instance weeks) on end. This guy is a manipulative scum-bag piece of shit. He also has a girlfriend, which she may still not be aware of. She stopped talking to me for over a month on 2 different occasions when I tried to tell her what he was doing and the games he was playing...but the fucking text messages he sent her...he's good...
I've started typing this up at least 5 times already. There is either too much detail, or too much scatterbraindedness because I'm stuck and upset. Sorry it is so long. Skip ahead to the last couple paragraphs to just read the basic question if you'd like.
Her parents noticed the changes in her as well. Me and her last 2 friends here were tossing around the idea for an intervention for her. I wanted to time it with when she was supposed to be moving in with the guy for a 3rd time (TWICE he abandoned her and would refuse to answer his phone or wouldn't text her for days after he left her without a place to stay the day she was supposed to move...3rd time was sure to not happen either.) One of the other people contacted her parents and explained everything except the drug issues she was having to her parents and refused to tell them one way or the other if she had a drug problem, but her parents wanted to have an intervention for her anyway because they strongly suspected she did.
Here's where I betray my best friend...When they called me, I tell them what she has been taking and started explaining things to them like what suboxone is and how she could benefit from it (she'd been having withdrawals when she went more than 3 days without seeing the guy) amongst other things. Now, before they called me, they had airplane tickets and let me know this in the conversation. I being apparently naive to how irrational her mother is and how little this woman actually knows about an intervention, I thought that they were flying into town to plan the damn thing. Next morning, I got into a nasty fight with her mother because the woman hadn't listened to anything I'd said to her AND SHE WENT AND CALLED MY BEST FRIEND, STARTED AN ARGUMENT WITH HER, AND TOLD HER I WAS THE ONE WHO TOLD THEM WHAT DRUGS SHE WAS TAKING. So, to change the subject in an argument, she did the one thing she told me she wouldn't do...I was the only person left that my best friend really and truly TRUSTED and her mom selfishly took that away from her in some pissy fit of poor parenting.
I was fully expecting to tell my friend what I said myself...at her intervention...when I could tell her how much I cared about her and wanted to see her overcome everything that has befallen her this past year...things never go as planned and this is heading towards worst case scenario.
From listening to people who like to talk about others, I found out last night that my best friend was arrested very recently after passing out while putting groceries in the back seat of her car in a convenience store parking lot. Roxies were on her person and VISIBLE on front seat of the car. Possession charges...she may have to go through Drug Court like I did years ago...but I'm afraid she's going to OD either accidentally or on purpose before that. The guy is out of the picture (she found a new connect in the last 3 weeks) The other two friends she hates. She's been avoiding her parents. And even more so me...
She doesn't seem to have anyone. It kills me because this wasn't supposed to be how this all happened. If her mom hadn't been so juvenile I don't think she would even have the charges she does right now...she wouldn't have gone this far down even with the guy ignoring her permanently.
We're both shy and anxious people. Face-to-face convo isn't even remotely possible right now as she hides when I simply come online until I hide, then she un-hides...yeah, she's that angry. We're still facebook friends...but that isn't saying much either because so is everyone else she hates right now. I'm pretty sure she will ignore my calls too and I suck expressing emotions verbally. Do you think I should apologize for my actions via email? I know this post may make it seem unlikely, but I am actually pretty good with written language.
Do you think there's a chance she would ever consider us friends ever again? If your best friend and confidant invaded your privacy (because physical symptoms you were presenting indicated you were at risk of ODing), then weeks later told your parents about your drug problem...could you ever forgive the person? Would you ever talk to them again...
...even if you were at/near rock-bottom and there was nobody else there who genuinely cared only for your best interests?