Jamshyd
Bluelight Crew
This report is antiquated, yet has recently been randomly revived. I wrote it in my late teens, so excuse the silly language. - Jam.
I was at one point perscribed Buspar for my Social Anxiety Disorder. I decided to write down a couple of notes since there is not much info on it.
Before I began, I decided to see what happens if I snort one of the 10mg pills. Stpid, stupid, STUPID. This was one of my biggest drug screwups ever!
Ok, so I crush the pill very carefully. I think split the powder in half and snort each half in each nostrill. No significant burn or smell. I do not remember if there was a drip or not.
First there was nothing. Then, perhaps 10 mins later, I became aware of a sedation coupled with stimulation. It wasn't bad at all. And then... ZAP! it feels (and sounds) as if my brain was electrocuted. After maybe 10 seconds, another zap. 10 Seconds, another zap. 10 seconds, another zap (of course, the times are just estimated). As I experienced these zaps (which were VERY uncomfortable), I started feeling some vertigo and nausea was starting to build up.
I went to lie down. I was VERY disoriented. The zaps eventually stopped, but now I was in a very uncomfortable place, physically and mentally. The most significant effect, perhaps, was that all sounds sounded distant, and yet they all sounded like a very high pitched metal click that HURT the ears. I think there was some amnesia since I did not notice much of the two hours I spent lying down in that state. After about 2 hours, these effects quickly began to subsde, leaving me with a hung over feeling.
---
After that experience, I just took Buspar as ordered by the idiot psychiatrist. The first few days, there was marked nausea. Then the nausea went away, and I did not feel any changes with the drug. As time progressed though, I felt more 'sober' than I normally am. It was as if I was TOO sober,if you know what I mean. My thoughts were very concrete and I seem to have lost a significant ammount of my artistic and creative side. The only drug I ever took with it was Cannabis, and they did not seem to interact.
What was ammusing is that this drug did not helpwith my Social Anxiety at all. It may have turned down my slight Paranoia, but not my Social Anxiety. I felt it was utterly useless to my purpose (though we got to give it credit for the total lack of side effects after the initial nausea was gone). My friend who has Social Anxiety also had a course on this drug and it did not help him either. IMHO, this drug is more of a mild anti-psychotic than an Anxiolytic.
---
Oh and by the way? NEVER tell your psychiatrist that you use(d) recreation drugs. They will not give you the right medication. I know that Benzodiazepines are perfect for me, since my Social Anxiety comes in attacks. But no, he refused to perscribe them (I never asked specifically for them, but I said I didn't want SSRI's. And he seemed adamant on perscribing them. Like WTF? I don't want them JUST because you are so excited to perscribe them! lol. So eventually hegave me useless Buspar.
I am thinking of seeing another psychiatrist and NOT tell him about my drug use.
Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_buspar
substancecode_buspirone
explevel_experienced
explevel_retrospective
exptype_negative
roacode_oral
roacode_nasal
I was at one point perscribed Buspar for my Social Anxiety Disorder. I decided to write down a couple of notes since there is not much info on it.
Before I began, I decided to see what happens if I snort one of the 10mg pills. Stpid, stupid, STUPID. This was one of my biggest drug screwups ever!
Ok, so I crush the pill very carefully. I think split the powder in half and snort each half in each nostrill. No significant burn or smell. I do not remember if there was a drip or not.
First there was nothing. Then, perhaps 10 mins later, I became aware of a sedation coupled with stimulation. It wasn't bad at all. And then... ZAP! it feels (and sounds) as if my brain was electrocuted. After maybe 10 seconds, another zap. 10 Seconds, another zap. 10 seconds, another zap (of course, the times are just estimated). As I experienced these zaps (which were VERY uncomfortable), I started feeling some vertigo and nausea was starting to build up.
I went to lie down. I was VERY disoriented. The zaps eventually stopped, but now I was in a very uncomfortable place, physically and mentally. The most significant effect, perhaps, was that all sounds sounded distant, and yet they all sounded like a very high pitched metal click that HURT the ears. I think there was some amnesia since I did not notice much of the two hours I spent lying down in that state. After about 2 hours, these effects quickly began to subsde, leaving me with a hung over feeling.
---
After that experience, I just took Buspar as ordered by the idiot psychiatrist. The first few days, there was marked nausea. Then the nausea went away, and I did not feel any changes with the drug. As time progressed though, I felt more 'sober' than I normally am. It was as if I was TOO sober,if you know what I mean. My thoughts were very concrete and I seem to have lost a significant ammount of my artistic and creative side. The only drug I ever took with it was Cannabis, and they did not seem to interact.
What was ammusing is that this drug did not helpwith my Social Anxiety at all. It may have turned down my slight Paranoia, but not my Social Anxiety. I felt it was utterly useless to my purpose (though we got to give it credit for the total lack of side effects after the initial nausea was gone). My friend who has Social Anxiety also had a course on this drug and it did not help him either. IMHO, this drug is more of a mild anti-psychotic than an Anxiolytic.
---
Oh and by the way? NEVER tell your psychiatrist that you use(d) recreation drugs. They will not give you the right medication. I know that Benzodiazepines are perfect for me, since my Social Anxiety comes in attacks. But no, he refused to perscribe them (I never asked specifically for them, but I said I didn't want SSRI's. And he seemed adamant on perscribing them. Like WTF? I don't want them JUST because you are so excited to perscribe them! lol. So eventually hegave me useless Buspar.
I am thinking of seeing another psychiatrist and NOT tell him about my drug use.
Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_buspar
substancecode_buspirone
explevel_experienced
explevel_retrospective
exptype_negative
roacode_oral
roacode_nasal
Last edited by a moderator:
