Broken

[honEbee]

I need love like everyone else
I may not look fragile
but my heart is weak
and ive lost the will to try
I spend my time daydreaming
because thats all i have - dreams
fleeting moments of happiness
that never seem to last
much like the people i love in my life
they abandon me
and im left alone
to ponder the meaning of it all
the loniness overcomes me
and i pretend to be who they want me to be
so they will stay
for just a little while
while my heart breaks again and again.
[This message has been edited by honEbee (edited 03 October 2000).]

 

[ezduzit68]

Dreams are what life is made of
If they don't luv u for who u r than tuff
You need not change yourself for anyone
Be who you really are and you will soon find the right one. wearing a fake image to please others only hurts that oh so precious heart even more. But I have been where you are many times and understand your pain

 

[mmmmSeXyE]

Melissa, that was beautiful sweetie!

 

[eternalsunrise]

hey sweetie pie! i just stumbled into this forum after being absent from it for a while now, and was so happy to see you share something. what people feel and the way they express it is extemely personal and i think it's awesome that you decided to share it

now, it upsets me to hear you say that your "heart is weak". in the relatively short time that i have known you, you have shown amazing amounts of love, strength and compassion to me and everyone around you. your heart and spirit are strong, so please don't let the hurt that others have caused make you doubt yourself in any way! do not feel pressure to change yourself or conform to anyone else's standards becuase when it all comes down to it... you only have youself to answer to. if you deny who you truly are and search for your own happiness in someone else's dreams, you will find nothing but emptiness, while your own dreams are left unfufilled. although you say that you feel as if you've lost the will to try, dreams are the sure sign that you haven't. they are merely little reminders that clue you in to how YOU want things to be - so follow them and never give them up!
in my expirience, it is often the kindest and most gentle individuals that tend to be hurt the most often. it is a blessing and a curse, but overall a clear indicator of the strength and power of a person's heart and mind. i can completely relate to the feelings and forces you describe and want you to know that i'm always here for you babe!
*hugs*

 

[koz143]

thank you for sharing that with us. I really appreciated it and I feel what you feel a lot. Don't worry though, those that you act for are lucky to be in your presence in the first place so be however you want to be.

 

[cherub]

That was excellent,
Lately I have been having those feelings
this kinda struck a cord with
especially the first few lines !
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Just takes one angel to change a life
~~~~CHERUB~~~~
Aka: Mommyhen

 

[skuby dew]

i know how you feel. im always the outsider.. when your alone and no ones there your the outsider. im always and always will be the kid look in. aka the outsider.
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SOULFLY: i'm a moderater...not god
you say im a BITCH like its a bad thing!!!

 

[*SWeeT-e*]

Beautifully written...I wish I couldn't relate so well to it. I don't have any answers for you, I wish I knew them myself. But you're not alone. Thanks for sharing this.

*hugs*
~kimmy.
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~*~If we both were to die, and I went to heaven and you went to hell, I would give up my place in heaven to come and join you in hell, just so you wouldn't have to be alone.~*~