CRICKETBEE
Bluelighter
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- Aug 15, 2008
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I am not sure if this is the right section for this. I am a big fan of Psych Drugs. Have been for years and in most periods they have been a very healthy part of my life.
However, in the last 4- 6 months I have been going totally overboard with them. (3,4 times a week instead of once a week) And I know it. But my self control has gotten terrible. And i think a lot of it is that when you start doing them too often, your body is exhausted and your mind is a bit down when you aren't tripping. So it can become easier to just throw in some more drugs and get the artificial energy that comes with them, as well as the feeling that you are back to "normal" as when you are sober you might feel groggy and less inspired.
the main problems of course are that your tolerance sky-rockets, and you become too focused on pd's as "drugs" instead of as medicines. My addictive personality comes to the center and begins focusing too much on taking things, instead of learning things and connecting.
I am not enjoying my current situation. This is not a moral issue. I dont want to cut down because I feel bad about myself. I want to cut down because these medicines are losing their value, and I am becoming less inspired and somewhat depressed. And my visuals are gone.
I dont like it. But I am not sure how to break out of it.
And it is making me feel like an idiot. I have been in this place before but I never remember how I get out of it.
Even a week or two off would do me a world of good. And I have taken long breaks before. I am just not sure what will kick in the self-control this time. And honestly I have a hard time admitting to myself and to others that I need to slow down.
I keep hoping I will have a heavy trip that will convince me to stop for awhile. but it never comes.
any advice? or can anyone relay stories of how they were able to cut down a bit on something? sorry if this is a rant or if i sound like an idiot.
thanks so much
However, in the last 4- 6 months I have been going totally overboard with them. (3,4 times a week instead of once a week) And I know it. But my self control has gotten terrible. And i think a lot of it is that when you start doing them too often, your body is exhausted and your mind is a bit down when you aren't tripping. So it can become easier to just throw in some more drugs and get the artificial energy that comes with them, as well as the feeling that you are back to "normal" as when you are sober you might feel groggy and less inspired.
the main problems of course are that your tolerance sky-rockets, and you become too focused on pd's as "drugs" instead of as medicines. My addictive personality comes to the center and begins focusing too much on taking things, instead of learning things and connecting.
I am not enjoying my current situation. This is not a moral issue. I dont want to cut down because I feel bad about myself. I want to cut down because these medicines are losing their value, and I am becoming less inspired and somewhat depressed. And my visuals are gone.
I dont like it. But I am not sure how to break out of it.
And it is making me feel like an idiot. I have been in this place before but I never remember how I get out of it.
Even a week or two off would do me a world of good. And I have taken long breaks before. I am just not sure what will kick in the self-control this time. And honestly I have a hard time admitting to myself and to others that I need to slow down.
I keep hoping I will have a heavy trip that will convince me to stop for awhile. but it never comes.
any advice? or can anyone relay stories of how they were able to cut down a bit on something? sorry if this is a rant or if i sound like an idiot.
thanks so much