Booze

[blahman8000]

I'm on my last beer for the night. And tomorrow I'm going to wake up wondering how I'll have the next few bucks to pay for my next day's supply of alcohol so I can make it.

I don't know how I can keep doing this. The sadness, boredom, stagnation.. it's just too overwhelming for me to handle when I'm sober. I guess I sound like a spoiled bitch when I say that, but it really is so painful. My life is such shit that it's ridiculous. It's so pathetic. It's so absolutely pathetic. And it can't ever get better. My genetics are encoded for a pathetic, disgusting human being. I am ugly in every sense of the word, and I am biologically depressed. I always will be. All I can do is drink and then it's alright.

My last beer is almost done, and I don't know what I'm gonna do when I wake up.

 

[Medication]

Holy shit, your text looks like my brain. I quit drinking a year ago, and I feel a lot better about myself. I'd really like to talk to you personally if you're down. I feel like I'd lend a really fucking good ear to this. Is sharing contact information okay on here? Simple shit, like e-mail, facebook.

 

[mzemily]

Booze is really hard to give up when it's become such a big part of your life. I used to drink a crazy amount of wine every single night, for about 3 years. Almost a year ago I stopped. The thought of stopping terrified me, I didn't know how I would get through the nights without drinking, I figured I'd be bored out of my mind. To be honest, after I finally decided to stop, after a few days it got easier. I was surprised at how easy it actually was to not do it, and I felt SO much better physically, too. I started reading every night and that's one of the main things that really helped me pass the time. I will still drink a few beers on the weekends, but in general I don't drink more than one or two nights a week now. It seems like an impossible task but if you just give it a chance, it will get easier. If you can find something healthy to replace it you begin to enjoy that thing and miss it if you end up drinking that night instead. Just my two cents

 

[Legerity]

You are being extremely hard on yourself, but I can totally relate to the way you are thinking. You're not destined to be miserable, please don't give that belief any power.

You just need to change one thing at a time and let the momentum build. Even if you just drink one less beer each day, or spend 5 minutes doing something you enjoy other than drinking, that's progress.

Do you have any idea what kind of action you can take right now that is easy enough that it will not cause any stress? Don't worry if you think your whole life is a pile of shit, focus on what you can do right now.

And even if nothing changes, if you can start learning to appreciate yourself as you are, day-to-day life is less painful. I struggle with this but when I have moments of clarity it just makes so much more sense to stop beating ourselves up.