Bi-polar rears its ugly head at (subjective) worlds happiest place (Disney)

[Speed King]

I don't know why, but I get bi-polar at Walt Disney World. It is now approx 7:00pm on Sunday 5/23/16. I found out I'm probably going to be at the park tomorrow (Magic Kingdom) one day, then leave. I'm here probably for the last time with my parents and two of my three sisters. I had to take some Risperdal to try to curb where my attitude/feelings/emotions were going. A couple of years ago, it got so bad here, that I was watching motorcycle wrecks, some extreme site an such and was also thinking of suicide a lot. Maybe I'll straighten out and I'm just venting but it seems that seeing other peoples happiness, makes me feel worse. I'm sure the few drugs I have on me will help. If anyone has any insight, feel free to share. I thank my higher power everyday that I can share and learn here. Last thing, if anything else, I have this site to help keep me going, so I have no plans on hurting myself. I'm just kind of down.

 

[Erikmen]

I'm sorry to hear you are going through these feelings. It must really be difficult specially in environment like The Disney World.
'Happy' places where every day seems to be a celebration of something can provoke such feelings if you are not on the mood.
And from knowing what some of these meds can cause as side effects I'd say you are reacting like most people under this circumstance would.
Suggest you give it sometime, stay in the hotel - do something different or nothing especial before you take any important decisions.
Good luck!

 

[Moreaux]

If you have to go, try to focus on the experience you and your family are having. Try not to pay attention to anyone outside of your circle. Try to be part of the celebration - celebrating the time you have with your family. Take a lot of deep breaths, and do your best to tune everyone else out.

Keep in mind, while a lot of people are having fun there in the moment, many people go to Disney World because they too are dealing with serious heavy stuff as well. A friend of mine took his daughter to Disney because he wanted her to see it - she had terminal cancer and did have much longer to live. When I went to Disney as a kid we were actually supposed to go to Ohio for my grandmother's funeral, but there was a blizzard the night before we were supposed to leave and we couldn't make it. We had taken the time off from work/school and had the pets in the kennel, so my parents decided we should go somewhere.

The point that I'm trying to make is that you don't know what else is going on in these people's lives, and just because they look like they are having fun doesn't mean their lives are perfect. I'm certain my family looked like your typical happy family, you would never know we just suffered a major death or that my Mom is bipolar and my Dad and I had to endure her mental illness as she refused her medication. It was a break from regular life, so we looked happy outwardly.

Good luck!

 

[jthasmoker]

Tough times don't last forever.....but tough people do
Good luck