betrayal..........

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mistral

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see,I was together with this guy who did and still do a lot of drugs...when I say a lot I mean alot...like every day.
I loved him though he sometimes was so out of it he couldn't even remember who I was...
Some time passes by and the calls I got from him became more and more rare...
he just ignored me...it turns out he doesn't love me...I don't think he ever had.
I just think he could have said something in the first place,I still haven't talked to him.
Not about that,not about anything...he just let the drugs control all of his life and I think it's very tragic...
He does this to all the people who loves him (I mean that he lets them down)even to his best friends he has known all of his life.
I was going to talk to him about the drugs but I don't think so no more...
feels like he just ripped my heart out and threw it away....now its lost somewhere.
//maria
 
Wow.. I sympathize because I've lost lovers to drugs too... Not like they died, but you know... their interest in me, and anything else besides their habit, just... slipped away.
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But what drugs is he doing that he can't remember who you are even?! That's bizarre! I would be freaked.
~*~ Ashke ~*~
 
I've lost my best friend in the whole wide world a few months ago. I let the drugs in my life influence my feelings and my decisions. I said a lot of things that I had "come to a conclusion about" while messed up. They dicated my thought processes and I over-anylyzed things. Now this loss is really killing me. I've never been so sad. Listen to Madonna's "Power of Goodbye"
 
he had been taken over ten acids,rohypnol,something we call "flummisar"...he had smoked pot and had taken dozens of other stuff too...that's why he couldnät even remember me.
We went to the store too and bought some candy and stuff and gave too him...he just kept asking "where do these come from" and who has bought these too me?" he asked like 50 times over and over.
way lost..................
 
Well, rejoice mistral, for you have lost a lost soul. There is no place in your life, or anyone else's for this person who has become soooo lost in space. He prolly forgets his OWN identity from time to time. I am sorry it took this long for u to recognize he was like this. I think that u should continue on YOUR path, dont worry about him anymore, unless, you are passionate enuf too bring him back to the REAL world.
I too have gotten to a point of over-analyzation, in fact, I feel I am still in that phase. But, I know when to say when and drop the unimportant things. I can easily say its from the drug use, past and present. We put some drugs on a pedestal, but it makes you wonder, I am on the path *I* want to be on?!?
steve
 
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